Hi everyone! So this is my first fic in another language! We really miss Karry fanfic, and because french ain't read by anyone, I decided to write one in english ! So you'll surely find a lot of mistake since I'm far to be a great english speaker and that this fic is not beta-read, but I really hope you'll enyoy it ! Please be sure to leave a review, and let me know if you would be interested in a sequel, maybe for a two-shot. I take criticism as well, it allows me to improve my writing ! Enjoy !

Disclaimer : I don't own nothing

The Fanatical

Taking a deep breath, Kara entered in the dark room with a few lights emanating from melted candles. She walked slowly, deviating the rows of seats strewn throughout the room. In this religious setting, Kara's attention was drawn to something she knew well. The symbol of a lost God, the Sun god Rao, was dominating the whole room. He was nestled in the middle of the central wall, upstream of a pedestal and surrounded by ragged dull curtains.

"It's pretty creepy." Whispered Winn. Kara frowne, it was definitely not the image that Rao was supposed to send back. No matter what was practiced in this room, it was perverted.

She greeted the emblem discreetly, as if she swore to save him. Quiet murmurs came from both sides of the room, when a young girl interrupted Kara's thoughts.

"I've never seen you here before," She remarked. "Are you new to us?"

Kara struggled to remove her frown and tried an innocent smile. "Yes we are, can you explain us what... you're doing during these meetings ?"

The girl had a satisfied smile and somehow, she had an air of confidence.

"It's more powerful if you see it by yourself. What we're doing here ... there are no words to describe it. My first time had transformed me, I guarantee that it will be the same for you."

Kara blew her nose. "Can't wait."

The girl smiled sincerely and then walked away. After a few minutes, Kara, Winn and James took their places and candles were blown to darken the room. A tired-looking, aged-looking man joined the pedestal and began to speak. Kara's thoughts were confirmed; her religion was spread on Earth. The man preached with breathtaking conviction Rao's words, his strength of heart and his kindness in a way that her mother would never have, but for reasons that she couldn't explain, the man was convincing people of how Rao send Supergirl to humanity to guide them.

He smiled religiously while starting a prayer that Kara had heard many times during her youth. Her mother had repeated it over and over again, with such love and passion that Kara considered it as a lullaby. Her eyes shone brightly until she remembered that she was no longer on Krypton, and that those words did not have the same meaning for these fanatics as for her.

"What are they doing exactly?" James asked Kara. But she didn't answer, preferring to analyzing the ceremony. The faithful were tenderly repeating the prayer and seemed hypnotized, and even if Kara would not admit it, she was quite proud to see these people loving Rao as much as she did.

The elderly man finished his prayer, and called a young man near him. His steps were slow, and when the boy finally showed up on the pedestal, Kara was hit by a face she did not expect to see.

"Barry?" She whispered.

Those green eyes, that look, that jaw ... that man looked exactly like her Barry from Earth-1, and as he stood up she wondered what could be the reason of his presence in that sordid place.

The young man sighed, seeming to be searching for his words, not knowing exactly what to say. His eyes were shining, but he finally spoke under the encouragement of the preacher. "Don't be shy !" He patted him on the back.

Though we go fourth alone

"Good evening everybody. My name is Barry and .. I ... Where can I start?" He chuckled. "I spent my whole life looking for answers. When I was young, something horrible happened in front of my eyes, something that I could never forget. Something that no one in the world would be able to explain. I must say that I still can't explain it myself." He smiled sadly, his eyes getting wet moistened so he looked his feet to hide them.

"This extraordinary thing ... also cost me my mother. And ever since, no one wanted to believe me. People continually said over and again that I was lying or that it was my child's imagination. I lived a life totally misunderstood, and it felt like a weight constantly weighing on my shoulders."

Kara looked at him and felt her heart tighten. She had already heard this story, and she wanted to take him in her arms, tell him that he would soon have all the answer to his questions, but she couldn't.

"Anyway, I guess we can just say that I'm an unlucky man huh?" He said, trying to calm down. At that moment, his eyes met Kara's and she felt something shatter inside her. Seeing (a version of ?) her friend so vulnerable annihilated her heart and she doubted she could look at Barry in the same way ever again. He sniffled, looked away from Kara and continued. "And then Supergirl showed up. I was there so many times that I couldn't even tell all the time she saved me. But deep down, when I think about it, it doesn't even matter. I had finally the impossible in front of my eyes, someone extraordinary, someone that everyone could see or even touch. And gradually, as I saw her flying, stooping bullet and carrying cars in her hands like if it was nothing, I felt this unbearable weight on my heart subside. I felt like I could breath again ! Just see someone and say, "Hey, I'm not crazy, you saw her too, right ?", without fearing the answer. And I know, that this woman, this God is the only person that in the right time, could've prevented my mother to die." Barry was crying now, his eyes were stained with tears and his face was red desfigured. Meanwhile, Kara could have sworn he was still giving her a few quiet looks. "So that's all I need"

The young man's voice broke as he murmured: "I was lucky enough to look into the eyes of God, and all the suffering of a lifetime vanished with a single glance." He shouted, as if he attested a miracle. "Supergirl saved me!"

Applause and tears sounded in the hall as the frail young man returned to his seat, thanking shyly his audience.

Our soul unites us under Rao's gladsome rays. We are never lost, never afraid.

"What is Barry doing here?" James quietly asked Winn while clapping Barry to melt into the crowd.

Kara answered before Winn had the opportunity to do so. "That Barry isn't the Barry we know. Barry, the Barry I know, has a lot of self-esteem, he's The Flash for god sake ! He knows that he has nothing to envy to Supergirl, and he knows for a fact that I'm not a God. This Barry just looks ... broken. " Kara murmured softly, a trace of bitterness in her voice.

"Are you sure about that ?"

She loved Barry so much, and even though she didn't know him as much as she would like to, she knew that the lightning had changed Barry drastically. He had gone from the shy, nerdy and misunderstood guy to a self-confident, happy and hopeful man. These qualities seemed to fail him as she watched him venerate her as a God. That's why she knew, that she was sure it wasn't the Barry she had met for the first time three years ago. He was still gnawed by guilt and unanswered questions, but mostly by ghosts and a life he didn't know what to do with. He needed a purpose, a reason to live for and because he didn't become The Flash yet, he had found this comfort in her person. That must have been that, that Barry must be from Earth-38. What else could it be?

Re-adjusting her glasses, she frowned. "Let's find out."

o•o•o

A few minutes later, as the room emptied, Kara let Winn and James go at their home as she followed Barry from distance. But as she was flying, she realized that she didn't know exactly what she was going to do. Maybe she would just follow him to investigate ? Or she should try to contact him as Supergirl, maybe even as Kara Danvers !

Feeling the wind blowing against her skin as she floated in the sky, Kara let herself be led by the air like a drifting boat, letting her super-hearring focus on Barry's paths. She'll decide at the right moment. Actually, he didn't even speak, so Kara did not care. She stayed in the sky, waiting for maybe one hour or two. As she was starting to think that she shouldn't have done that, she heard his voice shouting her name into the void.

She approached a reasonable distance from the source of the noises and saw him. He stood on the roof of a building and shouted loudly her name, trying to improve his voice by forming a megaphone with his two joined hands in front of his mouth.

"Supeeergirl" He cried again, desperate. His face faded as he noticed Kara floated in front of him.

For we shrink not under the Sun of righteousness

"Hey Scarlet Speedster!" She said, hopping that he would recognize the nickname. "Is everything okay?"

"I ... well .." He stuttered. "I can't believe it's really you."

"Well, if you call me where would you like me to be ?" Kara laughed shyly. He didn't recognize the nickname. "Anyway, what's the problem, are you all right?"

"Hum yeah .. I guess And ... Scarlet Speedster? Why?" He asked, scratching his neck.

"Nevermind, why did you call me?" She grew impatient, even though she was having fun with the coincidence.

"Why were you following me ? should be the right question." He replied. Not the answer she expected at all. He turned his back to her staggering. "Staying at distance doesn't mean I can't see you. Especially when you're floating alone 30 meters above the ground."

She hid a chuckle with her hand. "I knew I should've move a little further and use my X-ray vision."

"Wouldn't that make you a bit of a pervert ?" He asked teasingly.

"Well, stalking you by listening was already making me a pervert so ..." She smiled.

Rao binds us to those we love

He responded to her smile by another and then turned back serious, his face getting darker.

"I guess it's about meetings, isn't it ? I saw you were not very comfortable in that room." He looked down, ashamed.

"How did you ..."

"Glasses? A terrible disguise." He chuckled timidly.

"Oh !" Is all Kara said.

He once again scratched his neck. "So ... Am I right?"

"Yes, you're right. I guess I just needed to know ... why ?"

"You were in the room, you know what pushed me to come to you."

"Barry.. you should know that I'm not a God, Rao is."

"No, don't start telling me that you're not a God, I've seen what you've done before, and what you're capable of ! You and I both know your powers are far greater than any alien or meta-humans that had ever walked on Earth combined. I was lost before you show me that there is another life. One of hope ! This is why I know you're a God, even though you may noy realize it yet ! You are not only endowed with extraordinary power, you are also showing us all the right way !"

He gives us strength when we have none,

Kara frowned. "It's not what makes me a God, Barry, it's just what makes me a hero ! You know, I'd be lying if I told you I'm not flattered by what you believe in, and I'd be lying to myself if I deny that deep down I don't desire it. But... I... just give me your hand."

Without asking any question but being curious, he offered her his wrist, eager to know what she was going to do. She put the man's hand on her neck.

"Do you feel that ?" She asked. "That's my pulse. That means that under my chest, there is a heart beating. This heart is constantly beating to provide a blood supply of oxygen and nutrients to my body."

"And so, what's the point ?"

"It means, that just like you are, I am nothing but meat and bones." She released his hand.

Kara turned her back to him and moistened her lips, played with her hands hesitantly after finally saying in a low voice almost like a whisper :

"You asked me why I called you Scarlet Speedster..." He raised his head, suddenly puzzled.

And in the darkest places, he guides us

"Have you ever heard of the theory that says that there are multiple worlds ? That in these worlds, there would be different versions of us ? Well, I actually met you once, on a different world."

"Another me, huh !" He looked at her, credulous and smiling, as if he thought she was delusional.

"I know, it's disturbing !" She approached slowly as if he were about to fly away at any moment. If she wanted to convince him, her priority was not to rush him. "I can't tell you how, or why, but I know you are destined for great things. My friend from another earth, he also experienced an extraordinary catastrophe when he was young. The death of a mother by a yellow strike, a father wrongly accused and a young boy left for orphan ? The crual world stole his innocence too."

For Rao sees all, feels all,

"Your "friend" told you that ? How could there be another me ? That's impossible !"

"Multiverse has its reason that the reason doesn't know." She raised her arms in a comical way. "The truth is that I don't know why you still don't got the answers you're looking for yet, but believe me, you'll get them. And when you'll do, you'll see that you too are destined to be extraordinary."

"I can't believe I'm starting to consider the multiverse as a thing but... what if everything that was supposed to make me extraordinary already happened to me ? I mean, how am I supposed to be extraordinary when I feel so broken, so lost and so useless ? A lot of things happened in my life, but it didn't change anything ! If as you says, your friends had the same experiences that I did, what makes you say that he's now fine ?"

She responded to his defiant air by lightness, seeming to be plunging into her thoughts. "Because you can see it on his face. He had the answers he was looking for, and now he's just that smiling guy, always making jokes and laughing... I must confess that he's so awesome that I even had a crush on him." She chuckled shyly while her eyes were getting lost in the sky. "When I was next to him, everything just felt.. trivial, and simple. Just like he is."

His love is eternal

He blew, seeming almost jealous but mainly envious. "Your friend sounds pretty awesome."

"He is ! Like I said I can't tell you how, or why. But a great change is coming for you, it's your destiny. So please, don't stay in the darkness by praying me, because one day soon your own light will emerge. It maybe not look like it now, but one day you'll smile sincerely again too. And believe me, it'll be magnificent." She patted him on the back with a friendly smile.

His eyes darkened, and he whispered :

"They say that the greatest masks reside in a smile."

She watched him amicably, wanting to assure him that her Barry was now better. But after all, could she? Maybe Barry wasn't as free as he seemed, and that it all depended on a well-crafted mask.

"In that case, I have enough hope to say that when he smiles, he is sincere. And while I didn't know him before, I know that he was lost just as you are now. He found something to hold on by focusing on his mother's murderer... and venerating me somehow gave you something to hold on too. So tell me, what makes you so different ?"

"It may not look like it now that you're confronting me about my past, but since I'm in the light of Rao and yours, I feel so much better too !"

Barry's high voice contrasted with Kara's calm voice. "No, you're not. You lock yourself into the misconception that there is someone in the world who can solve all of your problems with a single snap if she wanted to. I can't. I am not God, Rao is."

Barry's voice harmonized with Kara's as he replied in a calm but tearing tone. "You think so ? Rao has never done anything to me. Even though I don't doubt of his existence, the only thing that I'm sure he ever did was sending you to Earth. That's all, you are the only miracle I have seen so far !"

Rao protect us so that we might protect others !

He approached the edge of the roof, tears streaming down his cheeks as he sobbed. "If I hadn't met you before I would have jumped from this building a year ago already. So please, if you want to repeat me that you're not a God, go ahead. It would mean that I have nothing left to lose."

Kara's legs began to tremble at his statement. Her mouth felt dry, and she missed the words. She drew deep inside her to gain some insurance and flew in front of him, floating above the void.

"I won't lie to you. It is the truth, I am not God, just as I can't solve every problem in the world." She swallowed her saliva. "If you decide to jump, I won't stop you. All I'm asking you is to think before you do." It was her poker card, the last solution she could find. She did not know if she could let him commit suicide, but she had to try.

"And to think of what ?" He made fun of her. "Think about the fear that I have to die or the pain I could feel?"

"It's a great thing to be afraid. It means you still have something to lose." She encouraged him.

"What could I lose huh ? Who am I without you ? I have nothing left."

She shrugged. "You have me ? Maybe not as a God, but as a friend. And if you let me in, I promise, I will help you." She offered him her hand.

He was preparing to replie, but as a breath of pain escaped his mouth he felt like a little boy who had just been stretched out. "... Promise ?" He asked like an afraid child.

And we shall rise,

"Pinky swear ?" She smiled weakly, turning her offered hand in an holded little finger.

"Pinky swear." He repeated and then crossed his finger with hers.

He watched her sit beside him, her legs swinging in the void beside his. "Now, tell me, what happened one year ago ? What pushed you to consider committing a suicide?" He hold his breath, gauging if he could reveal this information.

"I... A year and a half ago, my girlfriend was murdered."

"Iris ? Barry I'm so sorry... What happened?"

"A guy killed her in the street, we realized that it was premeditated for a long time ago... Sorry I just- I don't like to talk about it I'm sorry..."

"No that's okay." She waved her hand as if to sweep the idea. "May I ask... did it contribute you to turn to worship?" She looked down, ashamed to ask.

"Essentially yes. I think that as you said, when I met you three years ago, you were like an answer to my questions. Someone more extraordinary than the yellow strike that killed mom. And then, I rejected this idea, until Iris's death. This is when I start to join the cult. It was nice to think that somewhere, someone could have prevented that from happening ... I get it, you're not a god. But.. damn, it just can be so comforting." A solitary tear rested at the corner of his eye.

A fire in his hearth

Kara's head rested on his shoulder. "I know..."

They rested on this position for thirty minutes, without talking, simply taking advantage of each other's presence. It was just good to enjoy the peace and the view. But as she yawned, a police siren sounded in their ears. Kara got up, and Barry looked at her as if his salvation board was about to slip through his fingers.

She noticed his peeved look and asked for his phone. "My friends call me Kara." She chirped, handing him the phone with "Kara D" written on a contact name. "If you think that can help you, I'd be more than happy to share Rao's true words with you."

He greeted her. "I'd like that." He smiled. "You have to go."

As she was already flying, she turned her head one last time and shouted a "Goodbye !" with joy.

He watched her go far away, knowing he would have his support now. Nevertheless, that may not have been the way he would have liked it to happen. He would've liked to keep his beliefs secret, and that Kara never perceives his weakness. Barry took one last look around to make sure the woman was gone.

"Burning, and free." He whispered in a low voice.

In the distance, Kara, who was still observing him, with her X-ray vision this time, saw a scarlet light zoom and get lost in a nimbus of blue light.

After all, Barry had made it clear that he had no doppelganger on Earth-38.

The end (?)

SO, how was it ? I've got this idea in my head since a long time now, and because of my studies I wrote in in like two week I guess ahah. At first, it was supposed to be earth-1 Barry since the begging, but I really hesitated at the end, tell me if I was right to do it that way ! Also, in the future I am looking for a bêta-reader in case I make a sequel or another OS ! Also, I wrote a Karry fanfic in french titled "La fille d'acier" but due to poor returns in terms of review I abandoned it, it totally discouraged me ahah ! So if you're interested by translate it, I'll be more than happy to keep going on this one. Google translate the whole thing and put in in form, it ain't that hard ! :P DM me if interested? Anyway, thanks a lot, I hope you enjoy it and please, let me your point of view on it !