A/N: This is my first fanfic, so please be kind. Anyway, I'm the type of girl who listens to her CDs when she can't fall asleep and one night I put in BTR, their first album. When 'Worldwide' came on, this is what I saw in my head. I know, could I be more cliche? Just so you know, C.J. is my OC.

Disclaimer: I only own the plot and my OC, sadly I do not own Big Time Rush.


Kendall's POV

I turned over in my bunk, trying to fall asleep. This had been going on for about four hours and I didn't know why. The concert ended six hours ago, and I didn't eat any sugar or drink a soda so there was no artificial energy in my system. Just when I thought I was drifting off, my eyes would snap open and I was wide awake again.

I ran my hands over my face and let out an irritated groan. "Why can't I fall asleep?" I asked myself.

"Kendall?" I opened my eyes and saw James leaning down from his bunk above mine, sympathy in his eyes.

"Sorry dude, did I wake you up?"

"Call her man. It's helped before."

I shook my head. "It's two in the morning over there. She's asleep."

It was James's turn to shake his head. "She won't care. Call her." I jumped as he threw my phone at me. How did he get my phone?

Shaking the thought from my head, I climbed out of bed and walked to our living area in the back of the bus as I dialed her number. I forced myself to hit the send button and put the phone to my ear.

The line rang three times and I just about hung up when I heard a click. "Hello?" she said sleepily.

I mentally punched myself. I hated waking her up. But still, that one little word spoken in a soft tone sent a wave of calm over me. I finally felt my body relax and I felt a little sleepy. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to wake you up."

"Kendall?" she asked. I could hear her voice getting clearer as she woke up.

"Yeah C.J., it's me."

She let out a small groan. "It's early baby. Is everything okay?"

I sighed. "I know. I'm sorry but I had to talk to you. I couldn't fall asleep and hearing your voice always calms me down."

C.J. sighed happily on the other end and I knew she was smiling. The tour had been going on for three months and I missed her so much. Three months without seeing her was hard on me. I would never tell the guys, but sometimes I would close myself in the bathroom and silently cry, wishing to be with her again.

She must have known what I was thinking because she said, "Kendall, the tour ends in three weeks. I miss you too, you know that. I miss you so much that it hurts. But I keep telling myself that I will see you again. We've made it three months, and I know that we can make it three more weeks."

I can't help but smile. There was something about C.J. She had this gift. No matter what mood someone was in, she would say the most amazing thing to make them smile. I knew it was because she had gone through a sad time in her life and she didn't want anyone else to feel that kind of sadness.

"Thanks C.J. You always know just what to say." I paused to let her chuckle softly. "I love you."

Without a moment's hesitation, she replied, "I love you too. Not to totally ruin the moment but can I go back to sleep now?"

I couldn't stop myself from laughing. "Yes you can. I'll see you in three weeks. Good night love."

"Good night baby." The line clicked dead.

I wanted to stay on the phone with her for those three weeks. I didn't want the conversation to end because if it kept going on, it would be like she was next to me in the bus, not thousands of miles away in another state. But not matter how much I wanted it; I knew it had to end. She needed to sleep, and so did I.

I pushed off the chair and walked back to my bunk. I had put my phone away and was pulling the blanket up when James's head appeared again.

"Better?" I nodded. "I knew it would. You guys should listen to me more often."

I threw my pillow at him. "Go to sleep James."


So there you go! The whole artificial energy thing is something I say all the time when I feel like I need caffiene or sugar. I wanted to make Kendall seem more sensitive than he is in a lot of other stories I've read and the reason is simple: he's my favorite! Anyway, there's another whole part to this if you want me to write it. Feel free to review!

Ciao Bellisima

Kris