AN: Hello people of the fanfiction internet! This idea came to me a few days ago and i wanted to write it today while i have the idea fresh in my head and some form of inspiration (in other words i wasn't being completely lazy today like usual, but thats just a secret between us okay) This was originally going to be a oneshot but it will defintely be two now as the characters kind of took over and smacked me in the head with a bowl of spaghetti to make this longer, and when you're getting hit in the head with a bowl of spaghetti you can't say no.
Also i put this at the beginning of everything now but i've started to feel like i need to do something to help the world and so for every review i get i give 10p to charity which charity im not yet sure of but it might be 'The Trevor Project' (thankyou lovely reviewer "Nurse Kate" for giving me that idea) only problem the Trevor Project is American based and i'm not, but it's still a maybe!
Anyway i've talked way too much and will now go farm some llamas instead of taking up your time. Enjoy the story!
Also i don't own anything and the song is teardrops on my guitar by Taylor swift!
Running towards my car felt so right at that moment, I couldn't stand being in that gap store or the mall anymore, usually it was favourite place but after having to sing to Jeremiah for Blaine I didn't even know if I could set foot there ever again. I jumped in and hit the gas, trying to get home as soon as possible.
Thankfully the roads were empty and my house was no different, my dad was at the shop, Carol was working at the hospital and Finn just wasn't in. As I walked towards the kitchen I thought about the drama that had happened over the past few days, Blaine saying he wanted to sing to someone else and then planning for everyone to help him, it killed me a little bit inside. I thought he knew I liked him and I was stupid enough to think that he liked me back, turns out our coffee dates had been coffee hangouts and him remembering my coffee order was no more than friendly politeness.
I felt so stupid at that moment and as I got to the kitchen I couldn't take how idiotic I had been, I felt like I couldn't take it anymore. The knife on the counter shone in the sun light which reminded me of how I used to deal with the hurt, I hadn't cut since I had met Blaine because I thought he showed me some hope of a better future that maybe involved him and I being boyfriends, that was obviously not going to happen which made me realise that I didn't have to try and be perfect for him anymore. I shook the thoughts out of my head and really listened to what I was saying, the only person I had to be Percy for was me and starting to cut myself again was not going to help anything right now. I turned on the radio that was sat next to the knives edging my hand past them and continuously telling myself to not even think about touching them, suddenly Taylor swifts melodious country voice was softly playing its way out of the small audio device and into my ears, usually country was definitely not my thing but Taylor swifts music was something that I couldn't help but love.
"Drew looks at me; I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without" I sighed at the realisation that the song was pretty good at describing my life at the minute, I hadn't managed to stick around to find out what Jeremiah had to say, I had ran as soon as the song was over, but that blond boy would have to have been crazy to turn Blaine down. Slowly my voice started blending with the radio as I sang along, leaning on the counter as If the world was going to stop spinning.
"Blaine talks to me, I laugh 'cause it's so damn funny
And I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do." my mind started falling back to when Blaine and I had first met, even then I was 100% sure that he had sang teenage dream to me, but at that moment I realised that he was probably just checking to make sure the spy was still there so that he could interrogate me afterwards with a few of his friends.
"Blaine walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky 'cause
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight." I was so glad that no one was home at the moment because if they had've been they would definitely have asked what my problem was singing at the top of my lung while standing and occasionally walking around all alone in the kitchen, while singing a love song where I had replaced the name with Blaine's. I have no idea what my answer to them would've been, 'I've been a complete idiot and made up everything in my head.' would've only gotten me sent to a physc ward, and seeing as you weren't allowed to wear what you want in those places I was planning on keeping my distance and therefore staying silent about my heartbreak when others were around.
"He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into.
Blaine looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see." I sighed then turned the radio off and surrendered to the silence.
Only I would have if someone didn't cough behind me.
I turned around sharply and took in a bath when I realised Blaine was standing there looking dapper as ever in his Dalton uniform. Neither of us moved for a moment and I was starting to panic while wondering how long he had been standing there for. His face was blank with maybe a hint of surprise; both of us knew that someone would have to break the silence eventually.
"Why are you here?" I was mentally slapping myself for such an obvious question but I genuinely wanted to know the answer so I waited for Blaine to talk.
"I wanted to know where you had gone after the performance?" He answer it as a question almost pointing out the obvious as well, he had stayed in the doorway of the kitchen, as if he didn't dare take another step inside.
"Shouldn't you be out with your new boyfriend right now?" I replied, trying to hide the agitation in my voice but instead I just sounded tired of talking to him.
"Actually our little number got him fired and he rejected me." Even as the words left his mouth he didn't sound sad and I was confused.
"I'm sorry to hear that." I lied, but Blaine was my friend and I assumed he was hiding the hurt from me; he liked hiding his true feeling a lot of the time so I didn't think that this would've been any different.
"I'm not." He started and I felt a bit confused. "You still didn't answer my question you know." He trailed off and waited for me to reply, what did he want me to say? 'I couldn't stand seeing you sing to another guy because I like you.' it was not the time or the place to say that and I was starting to believe that it never would be.
"I was just tired and I knew I wasn't needed there anymore. You can actually come in the kitchen Blaine I'm not going to chew your arm off or any-"
"I heard you singing." He interrupted me. I prayed to the many nonexistent gods that Blaine was talking about singing at the gap. "Just now you were singing, I came to see if you were alright and you were singing." It s clear to me then that the gods did not like atheists who prayed. My expression blanked and I hoped that I would not stutter if I started to talk, I was Kurt Hummel for crying out loud, I was braver than this.
"Yes I was singing I like to sing you know that."
"You said my name... And you were singing a love song." He pointed out.
"I can't get out if this, can I?" I sighed and rubbed my head, I could already feel a headache coming on from having too much happening in one day.
"Not really. Kurt just tell me what's going on." Blaine pleaded, time seemed to slow down and everything blurred and I took a deep breath and prepared myself for what was no inevitable.
"I like you Blaine, I've known that I like you since Christmas and I guess that seeing you singing to another guy today was just a bit too much for me." I felt slightly relieved as I talked to him and it was like a weight had been lifted off my chest for a few seconds until a new heavier weight had replaced it, I had no idea how Blaine would react to what I just said. He took a few steps closer to me but I was frozen, preparing myself for rejection.
"I'm really oblivious aren't I?" The black haired boy said.
"I wouldn't call you oblivious." That was a lie. "You're just quite unaware of your surroundings." I smiled, my dad had once told me that the best thing you could do when the world s against you was to smile so that was exactly what I was doing.
"Look Kurt I'm not good at romance which you and about 50 mortified shoppers just witnessed and I have no idea what to do I mean I like you... I like you." Blaine said the last bit like a light switch had been turned on in his head. "Kurt I like you."
"Yes you've just said that three times." I stated.
"No I mean I really really like you, I have no idea what I was doing chasing after Jeremiah, he didn't even mean anything to me, and I had only met up with him twice." Blaine looked up at me with eyes full of something that I couldn't distinguish until he walked right up to me and slowly moved his head closer to mine.
"Blaine we can't do this." I said ducking out of his lips way and pacing to the other side of the room.
"Why not?" He asked, I had never seen him look so dejected but I had to stay strong.
"Because Blaine, you were singing to another guy just a few hours ago-"
"But he said no!"
"Exactly! And I am not being some rebound to make you feel better on Valentine's Day!" I shouted and covered my mouth immediately after I'd said it. Blaine looked shocked at my words but I knew that he knew what I said was true.
"I think I should go." He said and started walking towards the door. I wanted to scream, to tell him to stay, to pull him into my arms and never let him go, I wanted to kiss him so bad but most of all I wanted him to stay. I knew I had to tell him to stay.
"Okay." The door slammed behind him.
