I cant quite remember what song i was listening to when i wrote this but it definantly put me and an angsty mood .

But even though its sad i hope you like it =^o^= !!!!

*please comment/review if you like!! xD


I. . . I don't know what came over me. .

I just couldn't control myself. . .

My anger. . It just got the best of me . . .

come back! I'm sorry. . .

I don't understand why I did it. I love him. . that's the truth. It's just. . . I was upset that day. You got on my bad side. And now. . . now I can never see you again.

You wanted to discuss something about art with me, I said, "No Deidara I'm not in the mood right now. Go take your so called 'art' and leave me alone!" I probably shouldn't have said that; it triggered an argument that I wasn't in the mood to have. An argument we've had hundreds of times. You stated your points of how your art was 'real art' because it was fleeting and only lasted from minutes to seconds. "It is! It is art!" You yelled that every time. But this one time, something just snapped in me. Maybe it was because I already had been annoyed by Tobi that day. Or maybe because I was just plainly in a bad mood, but once you reached a certain part in your speech, I had lost all patience and control.

I swung hard, striking you in the face. You didn't expect it and flew to the ground, hard. Your nose instantly bleeding and your lip split open. You looked up at me with wide eyes. but I wasn't done. My fist just kept rising and coming down repeatedly. Then my foot began the same motions. You just laid there, you hands covering your head as you moaned in pain. Blood. There was a lot of blood that day. Coming from your face and head from the repeated punches I'd given you. All my anger had finally drained. I turned around with my eyes closed, my hands behind my head; both of which covered in blood.

I couldn't hear you anymore. No whimpers or moans came from your motionless body. Just silence. My heart cavity filled with panic. I turned around quickly and dropped to my knees next to you. You breathed no air. Your chest neither fell nor rose. You just laid there. I had delivered and you had received too many blows to your head.

You just lay there now.

Dead.

I knew you always had feelings for me. It was an obvious display of emotions. The constant staring when you thought I wasn't paying attention, constantly calling me 'Danna' whenever you could. The tone you always used with me, 'accidentally' bumping arms and hands with me every time in the hallway. I never returned those emotions to you. Only blank stares and a monotone voice. Things would be different if you were still here; I would have told you how I felt. But your not. And you never will be again.

And it's all my fault. . .

So as your now useless body lays here, and your soul wanders the after life stage; I love you Deidara. After what I've done, I'll never be the same. Your smiles and laughs will no longer brighten my day.

For I . . am also dead. . .

Dead without you by my side. . .