I just wanted to mess with him a little. I just wanted to show him how unprepared he was to handle physical contact from a woman who was trying to seduce him. I thought the hand holding alone would do it. But the contact of just his hands was nicer than I expected. And to my surprise, he handled it fairly well. So I had to take it further. I still had control as I swept my hands up his arms, but then I looked at his lips. I think that's when I started playing with fire. I stepped in closer and his presence affected me more than I had anticipated. My hands were already at the base of his neck, so close to his hair, I convinced myself it was to continue to test him. I ran my fingers through his locks and caressed his face, I was so lost in the moment waiting for him to take the hint and kiss me. But instead he stuttered a little and regained his composure and the spell was broken. I started to panic a little with how far I took it, so I gently patted his cheek, said good and quickly exited the room. I had to get out of there. One dream and all of a sudden he's irresistible? That did not make sense to me. How did this happen? How did feelings appear? This can't be good.. can it?
He is sweet, really sweet. He's so good with Ralph and he he's so caring. He's surprising, funny, and he really believes in me. He's a genius with a team of genius friends and he really believes I contribute to the team. His social skills may not be the best, but he tries. He really tries, sometimes it seems like he tries just for me. There couldn't possibly be a better role model for my son, or a better friend. I'm not gonna even get into the quirky things that make him attractive. But this can't be good!
Let's start with, the man doesn't even believe in love! What kind of future would that bring? How could I go into this without a possible future in mind. It could be damaging to his relationship with my son, my son needs this relationship. What about the fact that he doesn't pick up on subtle hints. He doesn't appreciate art. We have absolutely nothing in common. Not to mention, I can't keep up with him mentally. How quickly do you think he'll get bored with you? What would make him stick around? This can't be good.
It can't be good, yet as I hear him say, "Nothing, just… realized recently what a nice voice you have." As he leaves for the night, I can't help thinking maybe, it can be good.
