Destiel! I hope y'all enjoy. I'll be adding more as I go.
When I'm with Dean, I feel strange. I feel things I've never felt before. I have to clear my head in order to speak properly and force my hands not to shake. Sometimes my skin flushes, but thankfully, a lot of the time we're enveloped in darkness, so he never seems to notice.
I know Dean thinks lowly of himself, and I can't grasp why. He'd trade his life in a second for Sam without another thought. He's selfless and brave and everything I wish I could be when I'm with him.
But I can't be like that around him.
I made the mistake of consulting Gabriel for advice.
"Castiel, buddy-boy, what can I do for you today?" Gabriel was, per usual, enjoying a candy bar, not breaking eye contact with me.
I furrowed my eyebrows just a bit before continuing. "I seem to be having some emotional issues that I can't comprehend."
Gabriel raised his eyebrows, and I instantaneously knew this was a bad idea. "Oh? Are you a lovesick little puppy, Cassy?"
I tilted my head slightly. "I don't appear to be a canine in any way, so that analogy is incorrect." Gabriel doesn't always make sense to me.
Gabriel rolled his eyes. "No, no, you twat. I was asking if you are in love."
"I'm not sure, Gabriel, that's why I came to you."
"Coming to me for love advice was your first mistake, Cassy." Gabriel took another bite of his candy bar, licking his fingers. "Do you feel… dizzy at times? Skin flushes? You start shaking? Voice cracks?"
I narrowed my eyes slightly as I pondered the questions. "It appears as if I am in love."
"Oh, really? Who's the lucky girl?" Gabriel raised his eyebrows at me, watching expectantly.
I said nothing. I wasn't aware that love had to be between a female and a male to be considered correct.
"Not a girl, is it? Tsk, tsk, tsk, Cassy, how sinful." Gabriel shook his head, clicking his tongue. "Tell me, is it Sammy or Dean?"
"Dean," I muttered, knowing I couldn't hide it after this.
Gabriel made an odd noise and jumped up, clapping his hands and squealing like an overexcited fangirl. "Oh, how delightful! I will tell him right awa-"
"No, you won't." I hadn't meant for my voice to be as stern as it was.
"Rawwrrrr! Feisty lil' angel, aren't ya?" Gabriel finished his candy bar and gave me the strangest of smiles. "He'll figure it out soon, yes?"
"I'm sure. Dean is smart."
"Goody!" Gabriel grinned at me again. "I wish you the best of luck."
