I don't own any of the characters of star wars. Cover art is not mine

Bird set free lyrics by Sia


NOTE this is my first fic in english, sorry if there are some grammar mistakes;

The first chapter was too long so I had to divided in 3, things develop slowly but I promise it will catch up later

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Bird set free

Clipped wings, I was a broken thing

Had a voice, had a voice but I could not sing

You would wind me down

I struggled on the ground

There they were, in the middle of the throne room, fighting for the lightsaber. She couldn't believe that she had abandoned the only person who could train her and crossed the galaxy to find herself in this so childish position!

You want to know the truth, what is your place in this ordeal, who your parent were?... - Kylo Ren's voice was filled with anger, anger towards ehr for rejecting him - they were low life junk traders, who sold you for alcohol - every word filled with poison - you are no one

This last words repercuted in her head like an echo, tears were running down her face, and fragments of her past flashed back ….

It was just another job, another ship. Well actually this ship was an special one, the big load of raw goods would later become deadly weapons to arm the First Order forces. But this wasn't the reason why Kayo Von Rothbart had gathered all his Phantom fleet, he never had political interest, he only seek monetary gain. His fifth in command, captain Fenik, had secured their entry into the giant cargo spaceship. Fenik had a way to trick other people minds, her specialty was making the fleet invisible into the eyes of the stormtroopers or making them forget that they saw then or the missing goods.

At the moment captain Fenik and her crew were guarding the upper level of the cargo area, the bridge between the storage and the rest of the crew of the cargo ship while her brothers, Kayo and the rest of the Phantom fleet transferred all the high valuable goods into their ships. If any one came nearby she tricked them and made them return their way without any idea of what was happening. Fenik avoided killing but if necessary she would kill anyone on her way, and at the moment the Phantom crew needed not to be disturbed with fighting while they were loading.

The voice of her brothers kept coming up in the transmitter reporting everything to Kayo. Fenik was growing impatient, she already had dismissed at least a dozen of members, trying to rush her brothers wasn't going to make things faster so she just stand there, in the bridge. Her crew had already hacked the security system but that didn't stopped the crew to keep coming this way. Fenik looked the chronometer in her controller bracelet. 2 hours had passed since they broke in.

2 hours guys - she announced to the crew through her transmitter

well this might take 2 more hours - said her brother Captain Cetus almost in a complain

well I hope you guys don't overload the ships, we need to make a fast exit - she replied with an upset tone

as you command commander Von Rothbart - said her other brother captain Mankara in a mocking tone

Idiot - Fenik said in her head

Fenik, hold your position and keep us posted! Cetus, Mankara, don't be greedy and just take the necessary! - Said Kayo Von Rothbart

Ai commander! - the three replied

Fenik felt a tingling sensation on her feets. Standing in the same spot while wearing high heels was starting to become tiring. She tried shifting her weight in one foot and then the other.

ah! - she sighed loudly - you guys couldn't find anything that I could you use as a seat! - she complained to her crew

sorry captain, but all the containers nearby are too big or too heavy- said her crewmember Jon

ah! - she sighed loudly again - Jon, cover me, I'll look for it myself, I'm not going to be standing for another 2 hours

Jon took her position and Fenik started walking around through the longs ailes of containers, it probably was about 12 meters farther from the door of the bridge when she heard a voice, it wasn't a voice that she could recognize, she automatically took 2 of her laser guns in her hands and started peering through the corners of the aisle. She heard the voice again, she couldn't tell if it was a man or a woman or what was what they were saying. It was muffled, like if came from one of the crates. She kept walking farther away from the door and the bridge like if she was hypnotized. The sound of an electronic explosion woke her up and before she could run back to the bridge the alarm was activated

shitt!- Fenik coursed when she got back, Jon was wounded and was hiding behind some of the crates

Fenik! hold the bridge! everybody else back to their ships now! - roared Kayo

Ai commander! - the hole Phantom crew replied in one voice

Fuck! - coursed Fenik out loud, she and her crew were 10 levels above their ship- Phantom 5, everybody to the bridge, this is gonna get bloody!

ai captain! - her crew replied and went to the bridge, the alarm was still ringing, she could feel the big mas of stormtroopers coming towards them

Sam! get Jon to the ship and prepare for flight! - she ordered

ai captain! - and Sam runned to Jon, helped him up and runned for the nearest elevator

Maggy, I need you to secure an escape route, we are going to hold this until Kayo give us leave

Ai captain - and the girl runned to one of the elevators, opened the control panel and connected her computer to it and started working

Steady and ready! - said Fenik, the sound of the stormtroopers grow lauder

Seconds later it was almost all caos, laser and blast guns shooting. Fenik was in advantage as long as she holded the bridge. The bodies of the stormtroopers started to pile up in the door.

how are we? - She asked through the transmitter

Phantom 2 loaded and out - said Cetus

Phantom 3 loaded and out - said Mankara

Harpy, what is your status? - requested Kayo when no other reply came

I need more time commander - replied Harpy haltingly

we don't have to much time left! - yelled Fenik to her sister

5 minutes Harpy and we are out with or without you- said Kayo with anger, Fenik cursed out loud again, and the fight started

Phantom 5 loaded and ready! - announced Sam a couple of minutes later

Harpy! - yelled Kayo

Almost! - she replied

Now or never! - yelled Kayo back

Shit they are bringing the big guns - reported Fenik when she saw the blaster cannons

Retreat forces now! - ordered Kayo

Ai commander - replied Fenik how looked to Maggy who gave her the thumbs up - NOW! - Fenik screamed and her crew run to the elevator. Maggy was controlling it making it go even faster trying to reach the lower level before the others regained control of the system.

With a loud sound the elevator came to a sudden stop.

Sorry captain - said Maggy while she tried to reactivate the elevator

forget it, let's get out on foot

Maggy took a while to make the doors open. They were on the fifth level, they still needed to go 5 more down. They run for the maintenance stairs and in the middle of the way Fenik heard the voice again, this time it was clear, very clear. It was calling her by her real name. She stopped and turned around looking for its origin but at the moment they were the only living creatures there. It came again and this time with a pull of energy. Fenik followed it, forgetting everything else.

AHH! - she screamed losing her breath and falling to the floor, she had been hit on the lower left of her rib cage

Captain! - screamed Maggy and the crew runned back to her, the Stormtroopers were upon them, Fenik stood up with one hand pressing hard on her wound and started shooting with the other while trying to get behind one of the crates

Captain Fenik has been wounded! we need help in level 5 - announced Maggy in her transmitter

NO! - said Fenik - we don't have time, you all go down and leave, I'll cover you

No- said her crew

I'm your captain, is an order- she insisted, Maggy didn't move, neither of the others, more stormtroopers where arriving - now!

Maggy and the rest went for the nearest exit. Fenik stood up and in an super human effort started fighting back with all her power. She lost track off the time, of the reality, she barely could breath, but everybody else around her was dead. She looked to the stairs but before she started to move towards it she heard the voice again and a force pulling her, she managed to go to the crate that was originating it. With fingers covered in blood she started to look in the control panel of it. It said it was kyber crystals shipment from xxx planet for Kylo Ren, and then she collapsed. The voice kept ringing strongly in her head, and she drifted away in a sea of stars.

oh So lost, the line had been crossed

Had a voice, had a voice but I could not talk

You held me down

I struggle to fly now,

Fenik woke up in a small room that was overly lit. She recognized the infirmary of the Phantom 1, and in a chair across her was Kayo Von Rothbart. He was holding a big piece of crystal in his hand.

What is that? - she managed to ask with raspy voice

kyber crystal, a very strong source of power, and long time believed to be exhausted - explained Kayo at the same time that he showed it to her, it had a light green-bluish tone

how's the crew? - Fenik managed to ask

Alive and safe, not thanks to you or your sister - said Kayo trying to contain his anger - explain me what happened

I got distracted - she accepted

with what? - Kayo demanded, Fenik lower her eyes

I heard a voice, calling me, by my real name- she said trying not to sound insane

A voice, calling you - repeated Kayo trying to follow her ideas

I couldn't tell whose voice was but I think it was one of my parents- she said meeting Kayo eyes

Your parents - repeated Kayo at the sametime that he squeezed the crystal in his hand- You have lost a lot of blood child - he said at the sametime that he stood up- you better rest- and he left

For about 11 years she had repressed any memory related to her real family, well if she could even call it that. Kayo had rescued her when she was 7 and for about 2 years before that she was abandoned in some deserted planet to fend for herself. She felt confused,

why now? after so long ….

She didn't want to go back to those memory, it only brough pain to her. She had a real family now.

Her recovery was slow, the main problem for Fenik wasn't her physical injury but how tormented her mind had become, the minimum thing would trigger a flashback of those terrible days in the dessert. She did her best to hide it, to control herself but at night in her sleep she was trapped in that nightmare. She became moody since her sleep was a restless one, anger came easely out on her. She felt she was going down a spiral. Her wake up call was while they were doing a new job, they were stealing provision form a ship of the Republic when something made her flash back and in a panic attack she almost destroyed the whole ship. Kayo had to know her out to save the crew.

This pains me - said Kayo when she woke up in the infirmary of the Phantom 1

please forgive me - she begged almost crying

You need to put yourself together, you cannot afford to lose control

I try, I'm really trying - she cried

Don't try, just do it- he pressed

I can't - she admitted feeling weak and vulnerable as if she were 5 years old again, Kayo sighed

what is it that you need? - he asked her almost in a fatherly tone

the truth, I need to break the cycle or I'm gonna go mad - said Fenik letting her head fall in her hands, Kayo sighed again

believe me my child there are some stones that should remain unraveled - he said touching her shoulder

I've tried everything, this is my last resort - she said still with her head in her hands, he lifted her face- please- she begged, Kayo sighed one more time

I guess I don't have any other choice….

oh But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide

We hold on so tight, we cannot deny

Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive


had to cut the chapter, stay tuned for the next part