It's official, I'm freaking out.
I can't do this, this isn't going to happen.
I push those thoughts out of my mind and shove my hands inside of my pockets. In my right hand I feel the small, square box sitting inside of my pocket. I tinker around with the small purple box inside of my pocket, thinking. 'What if he says no? Dumbass, why would he say no?' I maul over different thoughts in my head.
I finally reach my stop, and soon enough I feel a tap on my shoulder. "Hey Dave!" It's that same voice that I've grown to like, the voice I fell in love with.
The voice of John Egbert.
"Sup John." I bend down to him and kiss him quickly on the lips. He giggles and grabs my hand.
The rest of the day goes as planed, until you reach where you two first met in person.
It's a simple swing set and no one's around. Perfect.
"Hey John." I say. My heart is beating faster then it was the whole date. I wonder if he'll really say yes. I wonder if I can really do this.
My hand is still inside of my pocket. I can't do it.
I stand up from my seat on the swings and kiss him, making up a reason for me calling his name.
I can't do it.
"Hmmph!" He smiles into the kiss and hugs me around the neck. "I love you so much." He says when I pull away.
My heart flutters and I realize that I have to do it. It's just what I wanted it to be like, the two of you are only inches away, he just said he loves you and no one is around.
My right hand fiddles with the ring in my pocket and my heart skips a couple of beats. "I love you too.." I work up enough courage to do it. I open the ring box in my pocket and pull it slowly out of my pocket. He doesn't notice it yet, which is awesome. "..So do you want to do this marriage thing with me or what?" The ring is out in front of me now, and I can't believe I said it. "Oh my gosh.." He doesn't do anything for a moment and I feel like running, though I know I can't. He's looking at the ring right now, then suddenly he's looking at you with those giant, bright blue eyes. "..Yes.. Yes!" He jumps up and hugs me tightly. I feel relieved, happy, but nervous. He pulls away from the hug to kiss me softly but quickly. Once he finally pulls away, I grab his left hand gently and slide on the ring with a red stone. He smiles so brightly that I find myself smiling just like him. "I love you so, so much, Dave...I really do." I kiss him on the lips, ever so gently, but quickly. "I love you too, John. I love you more than anything else in the world." He smiles up at me.
I did it, I made John Egbert, my love and boyfriend for more then 9 years, my Fiancé.
And now that he'll be mine forever, I swear is eyes are warmer.
