I'm sorry.

It's the worst apology I had ever given someone, but it's still an apology. And don't you think that I don't mean it, because I am. I really am.

What would you want me to say? That you deserve better than how I've treated you? That I have took you for grouted? We both know it's bullshit, so why should I say that?

And no, don't you think that I have planned it. The last thing I want to do is to break up from you. People are change. We have changed. Forgive me.

Fine, here's the truth: we both started dating too young. One day we met at our high school and decided that it's love. You hang out with your geeky friend with glasses, and I've fooled around with Seelie or Cease or what's her name.

Don't you dare think that I didn't found you attracting. I did. I still do. Every single freckle on your face is sexy, and the finest art I've seen are your sketches on your notebook.

I do love you, I just not in love with you anymore. Do you realize the difference?

Maybe I'm just talking too much now. Magnus says that I should learn to shut up. I still care about you, and I want you to be happy. Just not with me.

I'm sorry.

And I do think that we gave it the best we could. Relationships are hard work and effort. We couldn't have lasted five years if we didn't gave us a real chance. It's just not enough anymore. Our love is not enough.

I love you. And I think that you love me too. I don't know anymore, we barely talks anymore about emotions. We still have the same tattoos. We always will.

Maybe we just need a break. Time apart that would make us miss each other. Or maybe we really did over.

But this is not a failure. No. It was a beautiful relationship, that only last for five years.

A.n.: that has been sitting on my phone for a while now

Q: I've published The Birth of the Ringmaster on amazon. I know that I haven't published any fanfics for a while now, but what do you think- should I stop completely now?