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I don't own Twilight. It always belong to SM. This story would be always belong to me. Enjoy the write, reader.

It takes place in eclipse, after the proposal

6 years ago on 13th october

"Bella, it's all your fault! Why you don't give up as a swan. Marie doesn't have to died." Kyle shouting on me.

"I give up all of it kyle! I gave her the role, you don't need to shout!" Kyle, she must now better about condition of after funeral. But, she don't know any of it.

"You must gave it to ME! You know, she have sickness. And then you give it to her!" That's why she mad at me? I give marie the role. I feel burning, it makes me mad. I never shout, until now!

"WHY! YOU MUST RESPECT HER KYLE! I know you want it, but she's perfect swan. Miss bareill said that too. You can't blame me, cause i don't give the role to you!"

"Why? Bella, you're idiot. I'm your bestfriend from childhood. And she be friend with you just 1 year. You know bella, if you give me from the first. Condition like this never happen.." She looking so smugly. I realize, it's her fault. She want me the one who will blame myself.

"Bella, i never like you when you get the role. You look so confident, and you know... i hate it." Then, she walk closer to me, and last thing i remember she push me from the stair. I fall so hard from the 3th floor.

13th October, today

It's nice weather for vampire. But, edward still in hunting, and i must through bella-barbie time with alice. It's not that bad after looking the result. But, it's already bad enough when i remember today is 13th october. Six years after the incident...

"Bella, bella, hello bella. Bella to the earth!" Alice voice wake me up from daydream.

"Uh, hey alice." I look at her.

"You don't hear what i said aren't you?"

Oh, no. She will ask why! Think bella, think. "No, i listen it! Shopping right?"

Alice suddenly kept silent, she saw something.

"Bella, today you would have many daydreaming, and cry. What happen?" This is much worse. Sometimes, i forgot she can look future.

"It's fine alice."

" No fine. If you will cry all day bella! Do you hate shopping with me today?"i hate shopping, but with alice i actually don't. I just don't want to said that to her. She will drag me to shopping everyday, if she know that.

"No alice! I just... it's.." She looking at me patiently, maybe i will say it to her.

"Today is 13th october... " She listen it.

" Something happen in your past in today?" I nodded.

"You can always tell me everything bella.. you don't need to burden it alone. Me, edward, all of the cullen's will help you. We're family bella" I'm touched of her words. She hug me, trying to comfort me, while my tears drop.

"I won't force you to tell. But, please don't burden it. I hate looking you down, and can't cheer you up you know." Alice let me go, and wipe my tears.

"Thanks alice.." I hug her again.

"I will let you alone now.. edward will come back soon." Alice start walk to through the door.

"Alice"She turn to me. "Don't tell edward about this." She give me small smile.

"Bella, you know he will find out without me telling him." I know, i just don't want anyone again worried.

"Don't think too much bella, you know it's never good for your healthy." I smile, and she start to go to her car, waving her hand to me, then she's off to her house now. I'm all alone.

Then, my phone ring, I saw the screen. Mom.

"Hello mom" I answer.

"Hello, sweety. Are you okay?" She know, i would break down today. My hope crashed down in this day.

"I'm mom." But, sounds bitter.

"I know you sweety, you don't need to suffer think about it alone. You have me to share it sweetheart. You wouldn't alone again now.. and you would married soon honey." I know.. edward wouldn't leave me again. But, will he be taken aback with my past

"Mom.. I know too. Is there something you want to talk with me? Aside with this." Easy to change topic, i don't want to make my mom worried.

"oh yes sweety, miss. Bareill will have rehearsal in port angeles. I thought, you want to watch it." That's a good idea. Even, i can't do it anymore. I still love ballet.

"I would love too mom."

"That's great, i would sent the invitation to you, honey! Sweetheart i gotta go. Be safe." I chuckled when heard her last words. Be safe? Too hard to do.