Disclaimer: I don't own the lyrics. They belong to the members of Evanescence. I also don't own Anna, Van Helsing or Carl. There are two lines from the novel in there I just couldn't resist! I paraphrased them to fit the story.

Okay, well this is kind of one shot, I wrote this to fight off writer's block. Yeah, I haven't written a whole lot in the last couple months but you know :: shrugs ::

"Perhaps it is harder to have memories of those you've loved and lost then to have no memories at all" – Van Helsing

--Sweet Raptured Light--

I was surprised you had kissed me. First hard, then softly, then hard again. It always seemed in your nature to disguise your emotions. I slid my hand behind your neck in response to your hands at my waist. I did something I knew you would never be able to do, I pulled away.

...Hold onto me love

You know I can't stay long...

"Now go," you whispered to my lips. I remember the hot breath on my lip. I had to leave midnight was getting dangerously close. I took one last look and you, then ran to catch up with Carl.

...All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid

Can you hear me?

Can you feel me in your arms?...


"Twelve," I whispered at the last chime of the clock. My family was safe, that was all that mattered. I saw your lupine form drawing closer to me.

I gasped in pain. I hated this thing, this disease. It had driven Velkan to the grave and now it was started to take hold of you. But, I was clutching the cure to this lupine curse, this madness.

I feared it was too late, your claws dug too far into my flesh. There was no way to describe the feeling. I was in so much pain but at the same time I wasn't. I was in your arms and that is where I belonged. Looking down, I realized my blood had been spilled on the crimson chair beneath me.

...Holding my last breath

Safe inside myself

Are all my thoughts of you...


I drew my last breaths as long, exaggerated gasps. It started getting so cold. Your body on top on mine was the only warmth I received. With my last ounce of life I stabbed the cure into your wolfen torso. Your claws dug deeper at the pain.

...Sweet Raptured Light...

A second later, my breathing returned to normal, if it returned at all.

...It ends here tonight...

"She's dead," Carl whispered in both awe and accusation. The words echoed in my head for a minute. I was dead. Soon, to join my family in the realms of the next world. Heaven. I had sacrificed my life for the eternal life of my family and I.

Your eyes flashed a great amount of lost passion before you let out a heart- broken howl. You lifted my body to yours, one hand on my thigh, another around my neck, supporting my head. I tried to lean against you but I had no control over my body anymore. You returned to how I had remembered you, the real Van Helsing. I knew that you weren't the disease that had taken over you. But then it dawned on me.

"I love you," I whispered.

...I know you hear me

I can taste it in your tears...


You pulled my body closer to yours, nuzzling your face against my cheek. You offered the warmth of your cheek to the rest of my face.

... Say Goodnight

Don't be afraid...


Your bittersweet tears fell one after another onto my face, starting at my cheek then creating a trail to my lips. Your untamed hair fell into my face before your hot breath blew it away. I lingered there just a little while, to feel your arms around my body. After you placed me back on the chair, I followed the voices of my family to the next life.

But do not grieve for me now. For, we will meet again. There will be yet another chance for our undeclared love. It is written in the tears of angels.

...Calling me

Calling me

As you fade to black...