This is a higher ground / criminal minds fic… I watched higher ground on you tube because I think AJ is an amazing actress and then I thought hmmm what if Shelby was jj and nobody knew, she went back because something happened in her life and the team find her there when a case comes into contact with her life sooooooo here goes…

(btw its set in season six because that's when she went away)

I had asked Strauss to do this for me. I had to. They couldn't find out. I knew who all their monsters were but they couldn't find out what mine was. They wouldn't trust me again. I asked strauss to make it look like I was getting a promotion and would be working out of state. The day I had went and ask her to make me a cover story was definitely a day where the ice queen melted…

"ma'am, could I have a word please?" I asked as I knocked on her office door.

"yes, come in Agent Jareau." god this was going to be hard.

"ma'am, this is a huge favour to ask annd I love my job here but this goes beyond my life and I need your help." I said all in a rush. It kind of sounded out all as one but im guessing she got what I was saying.

"jennifer, what do you need. I may be the 'ice queen but when it concerns my best agent I'd do anything. Name it." wow. That was sso not expected

"I need to take my holidays I have saved and longer. The only thing is, I can't have the team seeing me so could you make it look like I have had a transfer out of state?" I asked tentatively.

" Jennifer, before I agree to anything can you tell me what is going on?please?" she actually sounded like she had genuine concern.

" bad things happened to me as a child and I got away from them. They have come back but it got me pregnant. I can't have the team knowing because it is about saving my unborn childs life. I will be going away and I can promise that I will have support and I will be back." I said. God it felt weird talking about my old life.

" promise me one thing, Jennifer." she said.

This was going way better than I thought it would.

"anything" I was going to protect my child and she was helping me.

"keep in touch with me. I want to know how you ae doing and I want to be able to visit you to make sure you are alright."

Oh my god. This was great. I was going to be free.

"I promise." I said with a smile. I put my hand to my stomach, sending a mental message to bump that everything would be alright.

"I can say you have been requested at the pentagon to work out of state and you will be back in two years. Is that alright?" she said. I didn't realise I had that many holidays saved up.

"that is fantastic ma'am. I appreciate it." I said a little exasperated.

"I'm not done" I stared at her a little gob smacked.

"what?"

"you will be getting a raise also, we were going to be giving you one anyway and I can just say to the director that it is more of a personal favour for me. That you are away."

"thank you, I don't know what to say." I had tears in my eyes, she was definitely not the ice queen in my books anymore.

"I will take you through to agent Hotchner and arrange this and you can leave this afternoon."

"thank you." I was crying now.

"it's my pleasure Jennifer, just prootect yourself and that child as much s you can."

"I will"

It took lots of convincing but they believed it. I was now back at my apartment. I had told them all I was leaving tonight and I wouldn't be back for two years, they could still call on my cell. I would be staying at my apartment for a few more days but then I was going to Agnes. Home sweet home. I needed some help. I wasn't set to go and see anyone until after the baby was born but just being there was going to keep me strong until then….