Sometimes
By: Shichan Goddess
I wonder, sometimes, what would happen if I just quit.
If I weren't there to save the day.
I wonder because the world is on my shoulders every day, every hour, every moment, but no one seems to notice. No one ever seems to notice.
An Earthling warrior once said, "I regret that I have but one life to give to my country." Well, I've died for my country, my world, my family, my friends, and I've given it all up more than once.
Isn't that enough?
…No.
It's never enough.
So I just smile, and push myself to my limits again and again and again.
Sometimes I just wish that I could be a normal human, capable of blissful ignorance.
Capable of leading my life with simple joys and pleasures. Capable of being an average, run-of-the-mill human being. Capable of living without the imminent threat of danger.
Capable of not going to sleep every night with the screams of the dead and the people that I murdered ringing in my ears.
Capable of being happy.
Sometimes. Only sometimes.
But it's a foolish wish, isn't it? Because I know that if I don't stop the monsters and evil lunatics bent on revenge or taking over the world, who in the seven hells will?
…I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't complain.
It's just that sometimes I want to be a little selfish. I want to take, instead of give. Always giving, giving, giving…I'm going to be drained empty any day now. And my perverse gratification would come simply from a pat on the back, or a "Thank you,". Sometimes, I would like to feel appreciated, to feel needed for something other than my power.
Sometimes. Only sometimes.
"Goku! Time for dinner!"
I smile, as I stare out to the twinkling masses of stars carelessly strewn across the black velvet sky. They remind me what I fight for, they remind me of my significance on Earth. And they listen when others can or will not. I give one last sigh, and then I turn, and I go inside.
