Disclaimer: i do not own twilight
AN: first fanfic sorry if it sucks!
EPOV
"I HATE YOU!" she said. The only three simple words that could break my heart. I didn't know what was going on. She was crying. I didn't break my stare with her for at least five minutes. I couldn't tear my eyes away from Bella being so hurt. Bella. MY Bella. And now she was hurt because of me. I looked around the parking lot of the school and saw everyone's eyes looking this way.
"you never loved me, did you?" that brought my attention off the audience and back on her instantly. How could she say that she was everything to me.
"Bella, you know that's not true."
"do i?"
"I love you. Why don't you trust me?"
"I don't know who to trust anymore!" she yelled at me sending some new tears down her cheek.
"you should trust me!" I yelled back with a little too much venom seeping into my voice. Her face looked utterly hurt and shocked that I would yell at her with such force. "I'm sorry Bella I didn't mean it to come out like that"
"No. It's better that it did. Just stay away from me." With that she turned around and walked away towards her house.
"Bella!" I called after her but when I said her name her back tightened and she walked faster. It was only 7th grade and I had already lost the love of my life. I walked in the opposite direction of her towards my house fearing that if I looked back my legs would deceive me and run after her, and make me do something that would make her hate me forever. She hated me. She didn't want me. I felt like I just got punched in the stomach. I wanted to puke.
I got home and took a hot shower. It still didn't make the pain go away. I climbed into bed even though it was only 6:00. I rolled over to turn my lamp off, when I saw the picture on my night table. It was of Bella and me in the meadow. Boy did she look good that day. Her brown wavy hair hung just right, ending at the middle of her back her warm chocolaty eyes teasing me against her porcelain colored skin. She was breathtaking. We both looked so happy. We were sitting next to each other on the grass, my arm around her shoulders, my other extended straight out holding the camera.
Those times were simple. I had been going out with Bella since 5th grade. I wish Lauren had never spread those rumors about us. I wish Bella would just believe me. I wish this day were over. I started crying and nodded off to sleep.
APOV
Esme called everyone to dinner. Edward didn't come down. After about ten minutes of calling him down I decided to go upstairs and check on him. I walked in he was curled in a ball on the bed with no blankets clutching a picture frame with red puffy eyes and tear stained cheeks.
I heard about what happened today between Bella and Edward. It all happened so fast I'm not sure how anything started or ended. Only that something horrible came between my best friend and twin brother.
Poor Edward. He looked cold and his shivers were small. I pulled his covers over him and tucked him in. I sat next to him on his bed. I could see the photo he was clutching now. It was of him and bella. He looked as if that picture was his life and as if holding onto it was the only thing keeping him from falling apart. Boy he looked like a mess. His bronze hair was all over the place… more than usual. And his face all puffy from crying. I decided now was a good time to leave my brother alone.
I went into my room and grabbed my cell. I texted Bella.
Hey are you alright?! –al
No. I feel like my heart was just ripped out. But its for the better. –bee
Are you sure about that? –al
Yes, I am. I absolutely hate his guts.- bee
Are you sure that's how you really feel –al
No im not sure but I cant deal with the pain again so this is how it will have to be –bee
I hated how stubborn Bella was sometimes. I texted her back telling her to feel better and it would be all right. If only someone could tell me that.
EPOV
I was alone at my locker in school. Things felt weird. i didn't know how I got here. All I knew was I needed to see Bella. Hear her laugh. See her smile. Feel her soft hand in mine. Then I spotted her down the hall. I started to walk towards her. I wasn't getting any closer. Soon Jacob approached her. I tried to get to her, I needed to be with her. He touched her arm. This made me furious and run faster and harder than ever as I screamed her name. Then she shocked me. She turned around and kissed him, then looked he slapped her. I swear her eyes were full of the most hurt I have ever seen. I then realized she couldn't hear me or see me. I just stood there watching a little more of my heart breaking every time she got hurt. He finally walked away leaving bella on the floor. She was unconscious and there was nothing I could do about it. i screamed her name with as much force I could put and fell to my knees, when a bright light blinded me. I opened my eyes and saw it was 7 30 am. I had about a half hour to get ready for school.
I walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. God I looked awful. I was covered in a nice layer of sweat puffy red eyes and had the worst soar throat ever. I washed my face in the sink and prepared myself for the worst day of my life. I stared in the mirror for about five minutes before finally taking a shower.
As the hot water hit my back I winced in pain not noticing I put it on a little hot. I tried to distract me from then pain until it came rushing back to me. the day before. Every little word she used, the way she looked, the way she cried. I then came to the conclusion Bella Swan was the only girl I could ever love.
"The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you
When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
Don't sweat it, {it was} set on false pretense
Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
And it doesn't seem likely to fade"
AN: first fanfic sorry if it sucks! review please! if you have any ideas to help me thatd be nice, i dont mind criticism but dont be mean just to be mean :(
and every chapter will have a song that goes along with it.
