Bella POV

I needed to visit Jacob. Badly. I know he's still recovering from the wounds inflicted on him from the newborn attack but I still needed to get the truth over and done with.

The truth that even though I loved Jacob, I loved Edward even more. Too much to change my mind and pick Jacob.

Alice of course had offered her words of comfort;

"I'm really sorry you have to choose between two good people," she said sadly.

"Yeah..me too." I mumbled.

As I drove to La Push, I imagined Jacob lying there all alone with nothing to think about except the kiss we shared before the newborn assault.

I had been irrational, I let my feelings take over and I kissed back. And kissed him passionately..pulled his body toward me..felt his hard-

No. I pushed the though out of my mind. I couldn't think of Jacob like that. He's my friend and nothing more. I'm about to marry Edward and I can't be running after two guys.

But I still couldn't help thinking how frusterated Jacob must be lying there with nobody but himself to satisfy him.

When I got to his house, Quill was at the front door.

"He's waiting for you," he said pointing behined him, into Jacob's house.

I entered and went straight to Jacob's door and knocked.

"Who is it?" came a voice.

"It's me". At least Jacob's voice sounded better than it did on the phone.

I entered the room and found him under a blanket on his bed. I went over and sat beside him.

"Well this took a turn for the worse. Leah had to be the idiot who tries to act tough and I had to be the idiot to save her and then this.." he grumbled.

"How do you feel Jake?" I whispered.

"I'm getting better"

I smiled.

"How're you?" he said. "Was he mad that we kissed?"

"No, he wasn't"

"Well damn, he's playing this game pretty good"

"This isn't a game Jake. I love Edward..." I said.

"But you love me too,"

"Not enough to change my mind,"

Jacob looked at me for a few minutes then said;

"I'll always be waiting for you Bella, just in case,"

I smiled at him sadly and kissed his cheek.

He smiled jokingly.

"That was a pretty amazing kiss though" he said then winked.

I blushed "I'm glad you liked it" I said rolling my eyes.

"It's too bad it happened now though.." he said.

"I know Jake. I'm sorry to cause you all this pain now-"

He smiled at me and waved his hand a bit and said;

"Not that honey. It's just that our kiss got me a little erm..excited and I can't really do anything about it"

I blushed again. "Oh hush Jake" I snapped.

"No I'm serious, look"

Jacob lifted his hips up from the bed a bit. I nearly gasped as I saw a large bump marking where a clear erection was.

"You had that this whole time?" I giggled trying to keep thinks in a joking manner.

"Well no" he laughed. "But talking about the kiss did this"

"Sorry then" I said.

I wasn't stupid. I knew Jacob had purposely shown me that to throw me of guard and maybe even spill some of my feelings for him. But we couldn't get too far.

"Well" I said. "You have a beautiful body"

"Want to feel it?"

"Enough Jacob" I snapped.

But I still felt sorry that he couldn't get any release. Leah obviously wouldn't do such a thing and I couldn't..I just couldn't..but could I?

It's not like we'd be making love or anything. I certainly was to blame for his erection and many other pains I had caused him.

But It's just not the type of thing friends do with eachother..

"Sorry Bella, I was just playing around"

"Well your 'playing around' needs to stop from now on" I said firmly. "So you can put this away"I said patting his erection through the blanket.

I didn't anticipate his reaction. He groaned and closed his eyes at the contact.

"Sorry!" I said withdrawing my hand quickly.

"See your effect on me honey" he said smiling slightly and opening his eyes.

"I still can't do anything about it Jacob" I said nervously.

"So you're just going to leave me again" he said glumly.

"You tricked me into doing that!" I said angrily.

"Bella look I'm sorry" he sai quietly. "I know you can't change yourself to love me but I just want you to know I love you. And I think you're the most beautiful and sexy girl on this planet."

I turned bright red

"Even sexier than Leah"? I grinned playfully.

"Much sexier"

"I don't know..." I said teasingly. "She has such nice breasts, not like this tiny things" I cupped my boobs through the blouse I was wearing.

Jacob groaned again "Stop Bella.." I gasped when I saw his manhood pushing the blankets up a clear 7 inches.

"Sorry!" I repeated and let go of my breasts. I had just wanted to make him laugh and it turns out I just made him more horny.

"It's okay, it's not your fault. You're a Godess of beauty and I just always want to see you smile" he whispered.

I smiled. "I love you" I said and leaned down and kissed him on the cheek.

But without him knowing my hand crept over his covers and my fingers touched his erection through the blanket.

"So how attractive do you find me?" I said smiling as I ran a finger up and down his erection through the blanket.

He moaned in surprise " attractive" he said.

I had decided to have a little fun with Jacob. Just a little. After all, this would never happen again and I WAS the one to cause him all the pain and to be honest, all the horniness he felt.

But I had to admit to myself as I watched Jacob moan, It felt good to be in charge for once and to be admired sexually. I knew Edward loved me for sure, but he never really expressed his attraction to my body. At least, not as much as Jacob.

"Jacob things can't get too far and NOBODY can know about this, consider it a favor for you being such a wonderful friend" I said.

He nodded vigerously "deal" he said.

"Now," I said naughtily "What parts of me do you find attractive?".

My hand slithered under his blankets and I felt his erection through his tight boxer briefs.

"Oh GOD.." he whimpered. "Um... I love your...ohh shit, your butt"

"Oh you mean this thing?" I said sexily and stood up slowly wiggling my

jeans covered butt.

"mmm that" he said.

I slid my hand under boxer briefs.

"Jacob..you are one handsome sexy man"

On the word "man", I wrapped my fingers around his thick shaft.

"SHIT" he moaned loudly thrusting his hips up.

I started to pump slowly. "Do you like this side of me Jacob? Do you like how I make you throb and moan"

Jacob moaned at my dirty talk.

"Yeah honey..ughhh..I do"

I knew he must be close to his release because he hadn't had any in a while. I felt really naughty but guilty at the same time. Yet still my ego boosted as I watched Jacob squirm and moan at my touch.

However I noticed the time and I decided to start to "wrap things up".

"Hey Jake, you close babe? You going to cum soon?" I whispered.

"ugggh y-yeahh" moaned Jacob.

"Want something to look at while you spurt for me?" I said with a wink.

"What do you mean - " he began then groaned when he saw what I meant.

I had started unbuttoning my blouse to reveal a simple but revealing pink bra. My nipples were starting to show through. I pulled off my blouse and while in one hand jacked him off, the other hand rubbed the blouse over my mound through my jeans.

This was too much for Jacob. Even though I hadn't shown THAT much, my naughty behavior and my jerking him off sent him over the edge.

"BELLA" he moaned loudly. "I..I can't...,"

I pumped faster. "Cum on Jake, show me your passion!" I growled.

"Bella...slow down...I'm about to.." he whimpered.

"Do it" I growled. "Cum for me Jake". I leaned down and whispered in his ear "It's what I always imagined you doing when my hand was down my panties at night"

"Oh shiiiit!" moaned Jacob as I felt him start to release.

"yeah babe, give it to me! all to me!" I moaned as my hand moved faster over my mound.

"ahhhh" groaned Jacob as she shot his ropes of sperm into my hand.

He lay there panting. Then he noticed my hand rubbing furiously over my jeans. He leaned over and kissed me right on my hardened nipple through the bra.

I came undone. I threw my head back and moaned with love and passion.

"Jake I'm coming!".

Jake kissed me on the lips while I rode out my orgasm.

After a while we lay there panting and exhausted as though we had sex. That reminded me to put things in perspective and I leapt up.

"I've got to go Jake" I said sadly.

"I know honey, but you know I will always be your friend," he said with a smile.

I smiled and started to go to the door.

"When should I come back?"

"Whenever you feel like showing me your bad side again" he replied with a wink.

"Jake this was a one time thing. No more" I said firmly. I put my blouse back on.

"Sure sure,"

I smiled slightly. "I guess I was pretty naughty huh?" I turned and slapped my ass in front of him.

He groaned "Bella..". I saw him starting to grow harder.

"Bye!" I giggled and ran out the door.