First attempt at writing a fanfic, ever! So read at your own will and take it easy on me..
(I do not own Grey's Anatomy or any of its characters as they belong to Shonda. R /ABC...)
"Where the hell is Arizona?" Callie asked with every bit of worry washing over her face as she checks her phone for the umpteenth time since she completed the surgery with Hunt, Webber, and Ben. Not able to just sit around and not know if her wife was okay with all hell breaking loose outside she left Meredith and Derek and set out to find her wife.
"Arizona," Lauren manages to get out after Arizona pulled away from their quick hot make out session when the storm knocked the lights off in the hospital. Arizona now reaching for the door to exit the on-call room before she something else she may regret later. "You are allowed to lose a little bit of control," Lauren says as she feels it will make Arizona stay.
Arizona takes a deep breath, locks the on-call room door and spins around to face Lauren. All previous concerns or reservations Arizona had were now tossed aside as she lost control of her mind and body and gave in to the temptation that she had been trying not to give into (not hard enough apparently). Arizona captured Lauren's mouth into a greedy, passion filled kiss and started removing the layers that kept her from Lauren's hot tanned skin. She trailed wet, open mouthed kisses down the other woman's neck and down to her chest. If the locked door didn't give Lauren the go ahead that certainly did. In an instant Arizona is on her back as Lauren climbs on top and takes control.
"Hey, Avery have you seen Arizona lately?" Callie had been searching every place she could think of that Arizona may be.
"Uh come to think of it, no, I haven't seen her since we finished the surgery. Check with Dr. Boswell, she's probably seen her." Avery said with no thought. His mind somewhere off thinking about April.
"Okay that's great actually. I'm sorry I missed the rare surgery but was called in on an emergency surgery with Hunt and Grey. Man I wanted to scrub in on it and see you guys work. Good now I a chance to hear what I missed out on." Callie said as she visibly lit up when she talked about the surgery she missed. "Where's Boswell?"
"She said something about staying close to the patient so my guess would be the on-call room on the PEDs floor." Avery continued to half listen to Callie but managed to catch the last question she asked and absently answer.
"Okay, thanks" she returned as she continued her search for her wife.
Arizona laid comfortably in the small on-call room bed with the hot blond who had stolen her eye away from her wife and embraced the waves of pleasure running through her with her head thrown back and her eyes shut. As the intensity and the waves of ecstasy wore off she dared to open her eyes for fear of what she might see. When Arizona's eyes opened they were greeted with emerald eyes instead of brown. Eyes that contained adoration and it made it all the more hard to look at them. So many emotions overcame Arizona in that moment that she wasn't sure how she felt. Then and only then did she realize that there was a raging storm happening outside and thought of Callie and Sofia. Shit. Callie. She forgot about Callie. Realization finally hit and she sat up and searched for her leg. She got her leg back on and searched for her scattered clothes and tried to get dressed as quickly as she could.
"Arizona," Lauren said as she tried not to look hurt by the other blonds quick change in attitude. At the sound of her name spoken with such longing and affection that she hadn't heard from anyone but her wife in a while, Arizona shuddered. She suddenly stopped what she was doing and sat on the couch in the on-call room almost defeated. How did this happen? She threw her head into her hands and tried not to lose control again, seeing how it worked so perfectly before. She felt disgusted with herself. She just willingly cheated on her wife. A wife who had been nothing but patient and supporting and loving with her. Everything she had asked of her. And this is how she repays her. Arizona doesn't have time to continue her internal self reprimanding when hears Lauren make her way over to her.
Lauren, now starting to fill her own share of shame and guilt, makes her way over to Arizona in an attempt to comfort the hurting blond she was sweet on since her arrival at Grey-Sloan Memorial. "Don't," Arizona spat out. "I have to go, I can't do this right now," she continues as she stands, gathers her coat and left the room before Lauren could say anymore.
"Oh thank God," Callie whispers under her breath as she lets out a sigh of relief when she sees Arizona exit the on-call room she was headed towards. Rushing over to Arizona and pulling her into a tight embrace Callie says, "I've been paging you. I was so worried that something had happened to you when you didn't respond." Callie grabs Arizona's arms and holds her back to look her over to make sure her wife was all in one piece as she continues to express how scared she was when she didn't know where Arizona was, "I thought maybe you were hurt," satisfied that her wife didn't seem to be physically hurt she pulled her into another tight embrace as she kept on talking. "My mind just started to think of the worse when I couldn't find you. I'd never been so scared since Hunt told me your plane had crashed. Don't every scare me like that again, okay?! What were you doing?" Callie finished, this time giving Arizona a chance to speak.
"Callie," Arizona started but didn't know how to tell her wife something that she knew would hurt her even more than any of the things she said to her after she cut off Arizona's leg combined.
Callie, now a little calmer since she knew Arizona was safe, sensed that something was wrong and pulled back to look her wife in the eyes. In those crystal blue eyes that she had seen almost every emotion possible now displayed an emotion she couldn't quite put her finger on. "Arizona what's wrong?" Callie asked now getting worried all over again.
Arizona knew there was no easy way to say this. She also knew that nothing would prepare her for what happens after she confesses to her wife the worst possible betrayal a person could commit. But Arizona knew that she had to be the one to tell Callie. So she swallowed the lump that had formed in her throat and just said it, "I slept with Lauren,".
Of all the things that Callie had thought had been troubling her wife, that, had not been one of them. Nothing could have prepared her for what she just heard her wife say. Praying that she had heard wrong Callie said the only thing she could think of, "What," she felt an uneasy smile pull at the corners of her lips. This had to be a joke right? She couldn't have possibly heard Arizona correctly. When Arizona didn't say anything and averted her eyes from her she knew she had heard right. "No," she shook her head slowly at Arizona and took a step back. "Arizona no. Tell me I'm hearing things, tell me you didn't just say what I think you said." Callie was met with more silence but Arizona brought her gaze back to Callie. When Arizona looked at Callie what she saw broke her heart. The way Callie looked at her as if to look through her. A look of complete horror as it hit her that she had heard Arizona correctly.
It took a minute for Callie to snap out of the trance she had slipped into. An image of her wife having relations with another woman quickly took Callie out of the trance. She looked at Arizona and shook her head once again. Arizona finally spoke once she saw Callie's mind come back. "Callie I know there is no way to make you believe me when I say I am so sorry. I am so deeply, deeply sorry for hurting you again. I don't know what came over me," Arizona said as tears started to form in her eyes before being cut off by Callie.
"I can't believe this is happening to me again," Callie spoke more to herself than to Arizona. "I can not believe that this," she started to repeat herself this time much louder, "...you begged me not to ever leave you when you found out your rock, Nick, was dying. You begged me! And I promised I wouldn't. You begged me again not to run at Bailey's wedding and again I told you there was no way I was leaving your side. When you found out I was pregnant with Mark's baby you threatened to beat the crap outta me if I slept with anyone else but here you go, sleeping with someone else. Ironic huh," Callie chuckled a little to herself before looking back at Arizona who was looking like a dumb dear in headlights. "I never left you but yet you're constantly leaving me Arizona. What am I suppose to feel? Huh? Tell me because I can't," Callie let her sentence trail off. "Why, Arizona? Was it me? Was it something I did wrong? Am I not enough," Arizona cut Callie off before she could continue to blame herself, "No! This had nothing to do with you can't you see that?" Not exactly what she was expecting to say to come out but it was too late to get those words back.
Callie jumped a little caught off guard since she was not expecting Arizona to snap at her like that. At first Callie looked offended by her wife's outburst, but then it only made her lose a little control over her fiery temper. "Well excuse the hell outta me," Callie spat, her words dripping with anger. She was livid!
"For once I did something that was completely about me!" even that surprised Arizona as it escaped from her mouth. She didn't seem to have any control over anything anymore. Callie jerked her head back as if Arizona had just said the most offending thing she had ever heard. Just then Ross came running around the corner and told Callie that there was a crash and Dr. Bailey needed her help. As Ross ran in the direction he had come from Callie unfolded arms she hadn't realized she had folded and started to go in the direction she saw Ross disappear into having to walk past Arizona. She was no longer looking at Arizona now, she couldn't look at her anymore.
As Callie walked past Arizona Arizona turn around and called after her, "Calliope," she said with all sincerity, and longing, and sorrow all at the same time and Callie stopped dead in her tracks but did not turn around. Arizona started to walk slowly up behind Callie but before she could reach her Callie spun on her heels and if looks could kill Arizona would have be right along with Mark somewhere by now because the look Callie gave Arizona was definitely meant to kill. After burning a hole into Arizona's face with the intensity of her stare Callie said, "I can't do this with you anymore Arizona. I can't keep letting you push me away and treat me like this. Like you I have to do something that is for me," Callie slid her ring off of her finger and looked at it. "I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you. I'm sorry I couldn't give you what you needed. And I'm sorry I cut off your leg, but I can't anymore." And with that she placed her ring in Arizona's hand a disappeared off to help Bailey before Arizona could say anything else. Leaving Arizona with her mouth slightly open as she tried to understand what just happened and how it was all her fault.