Disclaimer~ I don't own ff people *cries* maybe one day I will =)

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A note: this is from Rikku's point of view… first chapter very short more up soon
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In life you can love someone but know you would never receive the same feelings back. Knowing you would have to keep how you felt about that person inside, Our you would shatter others hearts. In life you can know something, have none tell you to tell none but you can still know not to tell. My life as a child wasn't good in fact my life hasn't been good till 3 years ago but in those three years I have had ups and downs but I have been scared for life, been raped was my total down, I still remember it… and it was by someone I was falling slowly in love with.

Oh Tidus, if only I could tell you that I love you. If only Tidus I could tell you that Yuna doesn't love you that she loves matt! I wanted to shout as I saw Tidus kiss Yuna before they went their separate ways. Yuna was going to Matts Tidus didn't know thins like many things about Yuna. Poor Tidus she was always running off not saying a word… plus she was bloody cheating on him! Tidus told Yuna EVERYTHING she know him head to toe… yet he knew nothing.

Tidus was talking me to the stadium we I was to meet with Lulu and do some shopping with her. Tidus was going to hang out with wakka for awhile they didn't want to go shopping with Lulu to be honest. She is crazy now on shopping she pregnant you see and she buys so much stuff for her baby. Poor Wakka! There house is full of it!