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Chapter 1: Meguro Counseling Center

I stared out the window, the twinkling lights coming from the city; it was soothing to watch them at night. It was the only thing I had to keep me occupied. Especially since Sesshomaru and I had been sitting in the waiting room, for about half an hour now. He sat on the far side of the room. I kept staring at him, but he evaded my gaze. We didn't speak as much as we use to. We haven't had sex in months. We even drove here in separate cars. We've been going to therapy trying to figure out what the problem is. Truth be told, I already knew. The problem was me.

A short elderly woman approached me. "Dr. Masaharu will see you now dear."

I saw him stand up, quickly walking into our therapists' office. I followed suit, sitting in the chair opposite of him.

"All right." She began. "Why don't we pick up from where we left off two weeks ago."

I nodded, as did he.

"Kagome, why don't you tell Sesshomaru why you won't marry him."

"No more lies." Sesshomaru interjected.

I inhaled deeply. "I just feel as though it would ruin everything." The moment I'd said it I instantly wished I hadn't. His face was plastered with hurt and pain.

"Ruin everything? We've lived together for years; and have had a child together. Yet I cannot touch you and we rarely speak. You're closing yourself off from me. I say things have already begun to ruin; to add insult to injury you still won't marry me. Do you not love me anymore?"

"No do! I just..."

"Go on, tell him why." Dr. Masaharu said.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "The last time I accepted a man's marriage proposal everything went to complete shit!" I could feel the tears brimming. "I am afraid Sesshomaru! Afraid that marrying you will ruin it all. Marriage will only get in the way. I'm afraid that-"

"That I'll turn out to be just like him?" he'd said cutting me off.

"No, I-"

"You what?" he spat out.

I buried my face into my palms hiding my tears; afraid that I'd only make the situation worse if I'd said anything else.

"It's been seven years Kagome. he's dead, and he isn't coming back!"

"I know that! I just have this feeling that's somehow... it isn't over.."

"God damn it woman move on! I love you and I want to marry you! I risked my life to be with you. I've waited years for you; I'll be damned it if I let the ghost of one man ruin it all."

With that he stood up storming out, leaving me there dumbfounded.

I splashed the cool water on my face. hoping it would somewhat hide the fact that I'd been bawling my eyes out; it didn't. I sank to the bathroom floor, mulling over what had taken place in Dr. Masaharu's office minutes ago. I should've just kept my mouth shut. I was letting the past conflict with my future. Sighing, I collected myself the best I could. Standing up I headed towards the parking lot, hoping things wouldn't get any worse.

Stepping off of the elevator, I kicked off my shoes walking to my apartment door. I pressed my ear against it, listening for any sounds later Sesshomaru was home. It sounded like the coast was clear. Slipping my key into the lock, I turned it pushing the door open. I stepped in, closing the door behind me. I flicked on the light switch. To see Sesshomaru standing in front of me. I should've known better.

"Where is Kanna?" I asked him.

"She is still with my father, she wished to spend the night."

"Oh, I see."

Several minutes passed while we just stared at one another.

"Marry me." He'd said.

"I-I can't."

"I'm not him Kagome. I never will be. Don't let him have a hold over you any longer. You've gone this therapy crap already; now here we are all over again." He sighed. " I'll never hurt you, I'd do anything for you. I even went along with the lie about us eloping and having a shotgun wedding. All because you said you weren't ready. I should've known better; when I brought up marriage all those years ago. You seemed standoffish about it, but It's been years Kagome.. how much longer will I have to wait?"

I hated that I was causing him this much pain. Anyone else would say I was being difficult but, they wouldn't understand.

"Sesshomaru I love you. I swear I do, but, I'm not ready."

"You're letting a dead man get in the way of our happiness."

"I know that and I'm deeply sorry for it... It's just a stupid piece of paper Sesshomaru. It doesn't prove how much I really love you."

He reached out for my hand; hesitantly I slipped my hand into his own. In one swift movement, I was enveloped in his arms. God, he smelled good; and he was so warm. I missed this.

"I'm sorry for the way I keep snapping at you. I just feel as though I'm losing you."

I clung to him. "I'm not going anywhere."

I felt him kiss my forehead. "No more talk of that man. Let's forget about him for good." He said.

I nodded, but I knew it was easier said than done. He pulled me to the couch, laying down with me. I listened to the beating of his heart; it was so calming.

Then, there was a knock at the door.

"Uugh. I'll get it." I told him.

I swung the front door open shocked to see who was standing there.

"Detective Onigumo, what are you doing here?" Sesshomaru interjected, snaking his arm around my waist.

"I'm sorry to bother you at your home so late, but there is something you two must know."

"What is it ?" I asked. The look on his face made me uneasy.

He looked me dead in the eyes. "Midoriko Eno is being released."

A.N: I dropped subtle hints in Tough love about the whole marriage thing. Maybe I should've hinted on it a little more; like how in chapter 28 she says it was kinda a shotgun wedding... it was meant to seem a little strange. Sorry if that confused anyone.