Numb

"You're Not Mukuro."

Chrome has heard those words a thousand times before. She has known this forever. She's not Mukuro. Not then, not now, and not ever. Too bad most people can't see it. Especially Ken and Chikusa. Chrome sighed. She knows that Mukuro made them feel like they belonged, but they don't have to keep pointing out that she's not Mukuro. When they do point it out, she feels like her insides are going numb and her heart breaking.

'I wonder if they even care about me.', thought Chrome. She was lying on her bed, after taking a long, hot shower. Boss's family was kind enough to buy her an apartment, which they would pay all the bills for. 'I did to get rid of the silence.' Chrome reach for the CD that Haru got her. Looking at the cover, she saw that the band name was Linkin Park and the CD was METEORA. Shrugging her shoulders, the 13 year old popped the CD into the radio that Kyoko gave her.

Just picking a random number, which happened to be 13, Chrome waited for the music to begin. Looking at the back, she became aware that 13 was 'Numb'.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless

Lost under the surface

I don't what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure

Of walking in your shoes

Caught in the undertow/ just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is

Another mistake to you

I've

Been so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is to be more like me

And less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly

Afraid to lose control

'Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

Caught in the undertow/ just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is

Another mistake to you

Caught in the undertow/ just caught in the undertow

And every second I waste

Is more than I can take

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is be more like me

And be less like you

But I know

I may end up failing too

But I know

You were just like me

With someone disappointed in you

I've

Become so numb

I can't feel you there

Become so tired

So much more aware

I'm becoming this

All I want to do

Is to be more like me

And less like you

Chrome at this point was sitting up, staring at the radio. That song was so much like how she felt about people comparing her to Mukuro. The CD rewind back to the beginning. Chrome stopped it before the song could begin, and turned out the lights. Smiling, she thought about one last thing before going into the land of dreams.

'I'm Chrome, and that who I'll always be.'