Choices September 19, 2009
Title: Choices
Fandom: House MD
Characters/Pairing: Gregory House MD./James Wilson MD
Completed: Yes
Rating: R
Notes: Written for prompt 23. Choices at lj user="ships50".
Warnings: Contains bspoilers/b for b5.24: Both Sides Now./b
Summary: There were always choices, except for when there weren't. Wilson wants to be chosen.
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There were always choices.
Wilson had known this from the beginning of his life, from the moment his mother had told him he could either choose to be miserable when it came to having to neglect his friendships in order to celebrate religious holidays or he could cause his family to be miserable by missing out.
So it hadn't really been a choice, his mother had been far too quick with the guilt trips.
In other aspects of life there were non-choice choices. People presented situations as though he had a choice in the matter, like they were trying to make him feel better about himself when in fact it just made everything feel worse.
House did that a lot.
He would ask Wilson to stay, when the pain became a little too much and the lines around his eyes would deepen until they seemed like healing lacerations. In the same breath House would tell him to leave.
Wilson wasn't good at leaving. He never had been.
He had tried, he had left House for Amber and then when he lost Amber in part due to House he tried to leave entirely.
Wilson always came back.
House ended up being the one to leave, after it all became too much, the drugs and the pain, wearing on his mind and causing hallucinations beyond any he'd ever seen before.
His goodbyes had been received in House's apartment, punctuated by brutal, angry kisses and a desperate grip on his tie.
This time there was not even the illusion of a choice, not as he stood in the street and watched House disappear into the foreboding building.
Wilson didn't know what he was going to do without his best friend for however long it took for House to get better.
It would be boring.
It would be amazingly hard to wait.
All he had left to do in life was wait, and hope that when House came out of that place his choice would be simple.
Hopefully he would choose life.
Hopefully he would choose Wilson.
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