TITLE: The Joys Of Attachments

SUMMARY: Anakin turned to the dark side. But instead of dying after childbirth Padme survives. The twins aren't taken from her – Obi-Wan promised to protect her and the twins in exile. A deep friendship eventually turns to love.

Darth Vader had proclaimed that no marriage had ever taken place between Anakin Skywalker and Padme Amidala. That the child that Padme had carried even in death was never Anakin's.

Both Padme and Obi-Wan learn the joys of attachments through Luke and Leia.

CATEGORY: Friendship/ Family/ Angst/ Hurt/Comfort/ Romance/ Drama/ Suspense/ Spiritual/ Tragedy/ Crime

RATING: T

CHAPTER ONE

THE BIRTH OF THE TWINS

Padme screamed in pain as tried to keep from pushing. She knew that it was much too soon for her child to be born. After all her opening was still closed up tight. It hadn't had a chance to split open because she had been closed to death when her birthing pains started. Her body hadn't had a chance to allow the water to break the opening – because it had been shutting down as her life spirit had wanted to leave her soul. Her child's life spirit through held on tightly to her womb – trying to fight for her to remain with him or her.

If Obi-Wan hadn't come back when he did than Padme, and baby Skywalker would have been with the rest of the spirits. Even now with the baby fighting to leave her body she felt like they would be with the spirit. "Cut me open all ready damn you." She stared into the medical droids eyes. "Get my child out of me." She saw black and she squeezed the hand at her side hard. Tears rolled down her cheeks. "I may be dying but I won't have my innocent child die with me." Anakin's hate filled eyes filled her eyes.

"Oh God my sweet baby is going to die at the hands of his or her father." Padme wept as her eye sight came forcefully back.

"You baby is going to be safe and sound Padme. With you." Obi-Wan said looking down into her teary sweat strained face. He brushed back her sweaty hair from her forehead. "You are going to live and love your child for a very long time."

"How can I live without Anakin?" Padme moaned. "He's my life." She felt a deep tear at her opening. She felt water rushing through out her in droves. She screamed in pain as she felt herself pushing with all her might. She crashed back onto the hard bed. "Oh God." She whimpered.

"Twins." The medical droid said looking the woman whom was about to give birth.

Obi-Wan swung his head around to stare wide eyed at the machine. Than down at Padme. "Do you here that Padme you are having twins." He said with a tear rolling down his cheek. "You have two more reasons to live."

"There's still good in him Obi-Wan." Padme said not hearing what the droid or he had said about her babies.

"Yes Padme, there is good in him. In his children. Anakin's goodness will live in his children." Obi-Wan said with such promise in his voice.

"Children?" Padme whispered. Her mouth opened to ask more but a scream took her breath away as she felt herself truly begin to push the baby out of her. She felt Obi-Wan's strong arms wrap tightly around her as she pushed herself forward. She felt the sweat fly off as she screamed in agony as finally the life being was pushed from her small petite body.

Padme feel back against Obi-Wan's chest as she glazed at her still round womb. "W-hy am I still big. The child is out of m-me." Her teeth clattered loudly inside her mouth.

"Your son's sibling is still inside preparing him or herself to being born." Obi-Wan said in her ear. "You just need to find the strength to push a few more minutes Padme."

"My son." Padme breathed. She felt the pain began once more as she arched her back away from Obi-Wan's chest. "Anakin wanted a ..." She felt everything rip out inside her. Why wouldn't this child be born easily like his or her brother? Why is this child more stubborn?

Obi-Wan held Padme tightly against him. "Just a few more pushes love, just a few more pushes than your baby will be safe in this world."

"Anakin..." Padme whimpered out just as she gave one last push and a scream filled the air.

"Your daughter has arrived." The medical droid said as it handed the infant girl to the droid at his right. The droid that held the infant boy was too the left. He went back to the human woman in front of him as he carefully started to clean the blood away from the wide opening. He had to stitch her up before she lost too much of unneeded blood. Too bad humans can't be like droids – no fear on bleeding too death in the life of a droid.

Padme fought to keep her eyes open as screams of her children filled the room. My children. Anakin's children. My sweet and innocent babies. When the two droids moved to the side of the bed with her infants in their cold arms she winced. "I have to hold them. They look so lost." She reached out and slightly touched her son's cheek.

Obi-Wan heart leapt. She wanted to hold her infants. Her babies. He very gently took the boy from the droid and placed him in his mother's left side. He turned and gently picked up the girl and leaned forward to place her in her mother's right side. He helped Padme bring her arms closer to her chest so her two babies could rest their little heads on her chest. They stopped screaming as they realized that they were in their mothers arms, and that they were together once more.

Padme looked into her son's sky blue eyes. "Luke." She breathed out. "Your name shall be Luke." She bent her head and kissed her son's forehead. She turned her head and looked into her daughter's brown eyes. "Leia. Your name shall be Leia." She leaned forward and met her daughter's forehead with her lips.

The droid typed in the names of the infants. He paused at the last name. "What shall I say their surname is?"

Obi-Wan looked down into Padme's panicked eyes.

"Skywalker. But droid you are to hide these records so far deep among the achieves – that no one can possibly be able to find them." Obi-Wan looked straight into the eyes of the medical droid.

"As you say." The droid said noting the information about the twin infants down. "Who is the father?"

"Unnamed." Obi-Wan flatly said.

"Unnamed." The droid looked up and met the human male's eyes. "Aren't you the father?"

Obi-Wan's breath hitched. He looked quickly down at Padme but she wasn't pay any attention. She was just looking at her children. He breathed a little easier. He looked over at the droid, "No, I'm not the father. The father wants to be remained anonymous."

"Father unnamed." The droid tapped that into the database. "Well the human infant twins may have issues with their growing up. If no one knows the human father's medical history."

"I know the the father's medical history. The twins will be just fine." Obi-Wan said in a firm tone.

"As you say human male." The medical droid rolled from the room leaving him and Padme alone with her infant twins.

"Promise me Obi-Wan." Padme's weak voice spoke.

"I'll promise everything too you." Obi-Wan looked down into the dullness of Padme's eyes.

"Promise me that you'll always be there for the twins. Don't ever separate them." Padme said a rough edge to her quiet voice.

"I promise." Obi-Wan promised.

"Promise me that you'll look after the twins always. Don't let them be Jedi – at least allow them to have a real childhood." Padme went on.

"I promise." Obi-Wan replied. He had a feeling that he himself was no longer a Jedi. He had a feeling that the Jedi Order was finished – perhaps for all time. But he knew the twins were strong in the force. He could feel their shining beings deep within him. He knew Master Yoda could feel the same.

"Promise me that you'll tell them that their father truly loves them. That he may be lost right now – but he'll find his way back to them." Padme allowed the tears to roll down her cheeks.

"I," Obi-Wan paused. How could he promise this to her. Anakin had firmly turned to the dark side. There was no way Anakin Skywalker – no Darth Vader would ever return. How could he when Obi-Wan had left Anakin to die.

"Promise me Obi-Wan." Padme whispered.

Obi-Wan looked deeply into the young mother's eyes, "I promise." He lied.

Padme looked down at her sleeping children. "I love you birth with all my heart. But I'm sorry that I can't be around for you. I'm sorry that I'm so weak that without your father beside me – I just can't see the reason to live." She kissed first Luke's forehead, then Leia's, "There is good in your father. I just am not strong enough to wait for him to come back to us."

"There is good in Anakin still, Padme." Obi-Wan said with such urgency in his voice. "With his children. Look at your son and daughter – they are what is good in Anakin Skywalker. He lives still through his children." He placed a gentle hand on her cold right cheek. "You still have much to live for Padme. You must live for the twins. They need their mother. They have lost their father. But they can't lose their mother." He felt his breath hitch in his throat.

"I can't live without Anakin." Padme moaned.

"So you'll just leave your babies alone in the galaxy?" Obi-Wan demanded unbelieving.

"They will have you." Padme sighed as she looked into his eyes.

"I won't be enough." Obi-Wan hissed low in his throat. "I won't be enough for them. They need you!"

"I need Anakin by my side." Padme whispered as she closed her eyes. "Tell them that I love them. Even in death I love them."

"So you chose to be selfish!" Obi-Wan said with such hatred in his voice. "You chose to dwell in your own personal heartbreak and denial your children of their only savior in the galaxy." His right palm pounded the mattress beside her. "When they come and ask me about their mother; I'm going to tell them that she willing died because of a broken heart. I'll tell them that their mother didn't love them enough to fight to live for them." He breathed heavily. "I'll tell them that their mother was a selfish person to the very end of her short life."

Padme eyes opened and her chocolate brown eyes flashed. "How dare you." She hissed. "How dare you threaten me like this. Y-y-you Jedi you." She pulled the infants closer to her. "I don't need you to protect them Obi-Wan! You just proved that you are not able to care for another soul but your own precious Jedi Order. The order that destroyed Anakin."

"If you die Padme, then either I have custody of the twins. Or someone else has them. If they aren't with me then the Siths will have them so much earlier than what their destiny calls for. If the Sith gets them as innocent babies then all hope is lost." Obi-Wan said in a dead voice.

"My children aren't meant for the destiny that you have set them for." Padme hissed. "They are just babies Obi-Wan. I will not have it."

"You don't have any say in the matter. But if you remain alive you can prepare them better than I or anyone else can." Obi-Wan sighed. "They need you. They need their mother's love."

Padme looked deeply in Obi-Wan's eyes. "Thank you." She simply said.

Obi-Wan sighed deeply. "I didn't think you would make me keep my promise so soon." He ran his fingers first down Luke's head, than over Leia's. "Can't wait till these two are old enough to put in play their mother's manipulations also. I see I'll have my hands full."

"I don't manipulate!" Padme voice squeaked.

"Oh says the Queen whom posed as a handmaiden on Naboo. Oh and posed as a handmaiden on Tatooine?" Obi-Wan's right eye brow rose comically on his forehead. "You are the one whom manipulated to being able to roam freely on Tatooine. Do you realize what could have happened too you if you wandered away from my master!" He couldn't keep the hardness from his voice. The fear that he had fourteen years previously when he learned that the handmaiden that he knew as Padme – was actually Queen Amidala. He allowed the fear to over lace his soul finally.

Padme blinked in surprise at the fear that was overwhelming Obi-Wan. "I didn't realize." She softly said. "I just knew that I had to see how the people on Tatooine lived under the Hutt's. I had to see for myself of what people had been telling me for fourteen years. I had to see how I could help them as much as I could." She sighed, "I wasn't thinking of my personal safety. I was with a Jedi master – I knew that I would be safe."

"That's what is wrong with you Padme Amidala. You don't think of your personal safety. At all!" Obi-Wan palmed the mattress next to Padme's left side. "You don't even think of it even lastly. You just go full steam ahead with whatever crises you are in. You don't think what your death would mean to the people closets too you."

"That's not true Obi-Wan." Padme calmly stated.

"You aren't a Jedi Padme." Obi-Wan went over her voice. "You aren't meant for a life without any attachments."

"And you are?" Padme demanded softly. "What about Luke? Leia? I am too lose my precious babies when they are old enough to train in the Jedi way of life?"

"There is no Jedi Order any longer." Obi-Wan steely stated. "Anakin made sure of that!" He couldn't keep the fire from his eyes.

"There's still good in him." Padme insistent-ed. "We have too give him time to find his way back to us. He'll come back."

Obi-Wan forced the 'He's dead by my hand.' from his throat. "I'm going to have you and the twins moved to a room that is right next to the room where Master Yoda wants to have a meeting in. Matter of fact the only way in and out of your room will be the room where we'll be in." His hand stroked her cheek. "No one will be able to harm you."

"I'll be able to rest easily know this." Padme nodded her head.

The medical droid rolled back in. "The room is ready."

"I'm not going to leave your side until you are comfortable in the room." Obi-Wan promised as he moved aside so the medical droid and the other droids could work on moving Padme,. And the twins.

END CHAPTER ONE