Bitter
A Kuroshitsuji love story
Chapter One:Feasting
I remember it well; better than my last Christmas in fact. I was weak, greedy, and wanting power of all of the scum who had violated not me but the Phantomhive family name. I was not a doll; I was not to be brutally handled in a way that would break my spirit and all out faith. I am not a rabid animal; I am not to be locked up in a cage and whipped and stripped of my clothing.
But then again I was not an Earl; I was a mere child being exposed in the most unpleasant of ways. What had my family, or I for that matter, ever done to be treated in such a brutal fashion that would cripple an average person. I; the Earl of the Phantomhive family, the last of the name, was the one who crippled in pain, I gave up on faith, and the teachings of God and religion from my parents; an abomination to the name if one were to figure out.
I cried out to a demon; he was dark and ruthless, he warned me there was no turning back that from here on out my path was eventually going to dwindle down into the fiery depths of hell. I understood that; I gave up so what was the point of it, but even after all these years he has stuck with me ever so patiently never breaking the contract. What I also understand is that he is not mine, because eventually he would be the one feasting on me.
Of course my fiancé had no idea or clue of Sebastian being of the supernatural and that was to stay as is, but nor did the human servants; my servants are here for two things and two things only, to perform their jobs and to protect me when the time comes. After all I am the person in England with the biggest target on my forehead, so they were to protect me at all costs. Even if it meant that one of them had to die while doing so..
Lately Sebastian has been fidgeting around the mansion trying at all costs to prevent making eye contact with me; he wouldn't.. no he couldn't lie to me. Plus he couldn't have broken any of the expensive vases or busts, I would of heard about it through the servants. So what was he hiding from his master? It is so hard to figure out what is going through the demonic servant's thick skull.
"Sebastian.. come here." I said forcefully watching him as he walked through the mansion's corridor. I could sense the shock on his face, "Y-yes my lord?" He said puzzled and stuttering. "Why are you avoiding your master?" I said shifting my gaze from my book to his eyes and he looked down slightly, "You didn't break anything did you?" I said raising my voice an octave too high and I felt my voice break midway. "My lord are you ok?" he said startled and came to my aide.
I nodded and said "Answer my question!" but my mouth was only moving no sounds were coming through. "Ohh my I think the Earl has lost his voice." He said and patted my back softly. I raised up out of my red leather bound chair pushing it back as I got up, I frantically searched for a blank piece of paper and wrote with my pen 'Sebastian answer my question. NOW!' I was tired of waiting. "No master I have not broken of the vases, it's just that.. It's almost that time of the year." He said pointing towards the calendar. I looked at him with disapproving eyes, nonsense is not allowed in my study, "Well around the time of your parents' death you seem to show disgust with me." He said bowing his head slightly.
This was the first time I realized, that I do tend to show hatred towards him during this particular season. I fell back in my chair and nodded and mouthed "I guess I'll take my bathe then retire early tonight." He nodded and bowed "Yes my lord." He whispered smiling that stupid smile of his that always appeared on his face. He followed me out of the room and into the bathroom across the hall. There was a strong tension in the air and something about it seem terribly ungraceful.
The tension and silence followed as Sebastian was undressing me to prepare for my bath. He had a small smirk appear on his face. "What is it?" I managed to squeak out. "Well my lord, it appears you have not lost you're voice. Ciel you're going through puberty." He said snickering softly and I looked at him shocked and blushed in embarrassment, "You're the butler you're not supposed to pay attention to such facts…" I said looking away and still with rosy red cheeks. "Yes my lord." Sebastian said whipping the smirk off of his face.
Once the terrible experience was over and done with I realized something; I wasn't tired. Not even a yawn out of my mouth, Sebastian was buttoning my night shirt as usual when he stopped in the middle of buttoning my shirt, "Ohh my, I have forgotten to feed my lord. You must be starving by now." He said looking up at me.
Right then I felt my stomach growl and I nodded, Sebastian finished buttoning my shirt then got up and walked out. I wanted to follow but my body wouldn't let me, Sebastian stopped at the doorway and then walked back in and threw my body onto his back and I wrapped my slender arms around his neck, wresting my head on the base of his neck while my slim legs were being held up by Sebastian's hands.
"See what happens when I forget dinner? I get a sleepy Earl with an empty belly. Well this lesson is learnt." Sebastian said carrying me down to the dining hall. He sat me down in the chair which was to hold the man of the house. I closed my eyes for a second and when I opened them up a full meal was on the table consisting of; champagne bread, fish, rice and other light foods. I was used to the fact that he would do that when he and I were alone in the dining hall.