Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious
"I thought I would hurt forever the day our love died. Every blow struck into my heart like a poison dart. I cried not for minutes. I cried not for hours. I cried for days. Every time I wiped my tears more would come. You didn't care.
"Maybe you thought I was annoying. Maybe you thought I was boring. Maybe you were just plain tired of the way I was. It was as if you couldn't even see my tears. Long after I thought the pain faded it remained. The good feeling never showed up. You didn't care.
"You used my fear of losing you to control me. You would threaten not to talk to me if I didn't 'chill'. You would ignore me when you thought I was annoying or rude. I hated it but I put up with it because I loved you. Then I lost you. That was the harshest blow of all. I thought that truly was the 'last one' because I thought it would do me in but you didn't care.
"But I slowly started to heal. I got out of bed. I started to learn to laugh again. I started to learn to smile again. I realized that I could get through the day and at first it was just getting by. The sting and the hurt in my heart was still strong but I knew something now. I don't need you.
"I don't need you to love me. I will always love you. There is something different about myself though. I love me without you loving me. I can smile without you. I can laugh without you. I don't need you.
"I don't need you to feel good. I don't need you to be okay. I don't need you to have confidence in myself. Finally the pain is gone. I can relax. I will shed a tear sometimes for the love we lost but I will be fine. I don't need you.
"You may be the best but I don't need you. Without you I will be alright. You taught me that I don't need you anymore. You taught me that I can get along without you. Go ahead and ignore me. You taught me that I don't need you. For that Beck I will always love you."