Title: Secret Garden
Rated: K+
Pairing: KakaIru
Summary: Everything Kakashi ever wanted or needed was just a million miles away (KakaIru)
Disclaimer: Me no own
A/N: After listening to Secret Garden over and over I had to right this!
I could tell from the moment I laid eyes on him that he was forever away from my reach. My love was strong, but my grip was not. Suddenly I found myself letting go of something I never had a hold on. It made me feel almost human in a sadistic sorrowful kind of way.
I was obsessing over a loss that was never there. I felt as something died inside me every time I saw that pony tail bounce up and down when he walked. I felt a piece of myself fall apart when I saw him smile. I felt my heart turn cold when I see him glare at me playfully after I turn in something late again. Everything I ever needed was a million miles away.
I know if I was better then he would let me in his house. If I could prove myself responsible enough to teach his former students, or save his life, then I would be able to get his attention. I would knock late at night knowing he was lonely, and he'd let me in with no question. But I have lost my students to other teachers that were so much better then me, and I was never given the opportunity to be his knight in shining armor.
I know if I could say the right words, maybe I could have a kiss. Maybe I could expose my face to him, and maybe I could tell him my secrets. I would just hold him tight all night long, and kiss him as many times I wanted. But I was never good with words or people for that matter so it never worked when I tried to tell him my deepest feelings.
Oh if only I knew what my lonely dolphin wanted I could give to him. Then maybe I was allowed to know what he felt. I would look deep inside his heart.
But he hides himself in his secret garden, away from anyone.
Who knows, maybe I don't want to know how sorrowful he is. Maybe it would be to painful to me to take, and would bring me down with him. Well, it wouldn't matter, at least I would be there with him.
Or maybe I could just wait outside the school every morning when I don't have missions and just watch him. Sometimes I hope I do get caught, at least I have his attention. Sometimes it seems so hopeless, but I think it's the only way.
Or maybe I'll just have to get into his secret garden where he can't deny me.
So I'll travel a million miles to see it.
I'd give anything to be inside, for one last moment.
I'll track you down just to remember I'll never forget your face.
And soon I know you'll lead me down the path, and shake my world.
You'll give me a reason to hope for love.
And we stop as I walk closer, so I know that your still there knowing I'm watching you. You smile at the tree I'm sitting in, as I watch your children play. You walk up at the tree and you say, "Morning Kakashi-sensei!" Just so I know you're right there.
I say good morning back and try to leave, but you won't allow me the privilege to escape your beautiful brown eyes. They haunt me.
"So do you want to hang out with me? Or are you going to keep stalking me like you have for the last few months!"
I know you're letting me into your secret garden. This is where everything I ever wanted or ever needed…
Was always just a million miles away…into your heart.
A/N: Please let me know what you think!