Dear Asuka,
I am no hero, I am no savior, and I am just me. I say I'm sorry, I am not
invincible. I hurt when you look at me, I love when you are around me,
and I am whole whenever you touch me. Even if it is only for a brief
moment, I live for those moments. The ones when you don't shut me out.
You push me away, and I don't even try to get close to you. I am a
coward. I say that I want something and never take initiative. I love you, I
hate you, and I am confused. Too much emotion that I've never felt
before. To many ways to be broken, that has yet to be exploited.
Everyone leaves me, maybe that is my destiny, but a touch from you
makes it good to live. Makes me want to live! I would rather live those
brief moments than receive a thousand praises from my father. You are
my life, as stubborn as a mule with a barrier that is bigger than the Great
Wall of China.
If you would just give me a chance I could make you see. You are the
world to me and I would never let you go. I would no longer be spineless
baka invincible Shinji, I would be your Shinji-kun and I would try to
make everyday perfect, because only perfect is good enough for the most
perfect girl in Japan. You are beautiful and intelligent, you have
confidence enough for a small country, and you understand me! Even
though you may not understand, you are the only one that gets me Asuka.
That is why I am writing this, not to tell you but to show you how much I
feel. How much I have felt since that fateful day, when my Dorothy came
back from over the rainbow. You are my everything and you must know
this; in the end it doesn't matter how you treat me I will love you always
and forever.
Always yours, through everything
Love always,
Baka-kun Shinji