Here I was being condemned for one little mistake, after I had done everything for these people. I led them to safety, to this prison where there was food and secure protection from the Walkers. It's funny how when you do one thing wrong, people suddenly forget all the good you did, you just become your mistake. These people no longer needed me to lead them, to keep them alive, because I was responsible for Anne's death, no matter how many lives I had saved. Didn't they know I felt guilty enough?

"We're sorry Allie, we just don't wanna follow your lead anymore." Maggie announced, not looking at me, just staring at the floor with Glenn at her side. The sun was peeking through the small prison windows, almost making the day bearable.

I shook my head in disbelief. "After all I've done for you? After I've put my neck on the line to keep you fuckers alive? So I failed to follow protocol for Anne, I will learn from my mistakes, you can't lose faith in me now."I looked around the cell block, asking for support with my expression. I got none. "Fine." I stated and shoved past Carol to go to the other cell block. I'd had enough. I was so wound up and needed to calm down. Since there was no Vodka, sleep would have to do.

I woke up the next few hours, not really sure how long it was since time was virtually not existent in this state. It had gotten dark outside so I assumed a good few hours I had been out. I got out of the bed and scanned the cells, everyone was asleep. Good.

I had a dream, or more like an epiphany. Laura, my sister who had died a couple of months earlier, and I were talking about how whatever happened, we would get out of this together. This brought up something that I hadn't been able to put my finger on before. Ever since she died, I had felt like I was floating through the group, not really belonging, even though I was leading. I realised why. It was because Laura wasn't here anymore. I felt miserable, not because of these people, I loved this group, they were my family, but I didn't want to be here anymore. I realised that I want to leave, I've got to leave. If I don't survive it out there, so be it. This was fate right here. Packing a bag consisting of food, some weapons and a first aid kit, I left a note in my cell saying

Dear All,

I'm not mad about the whole leadership thing, honestly. I've left because it's the right thing for me to do. Please don't try to understand why or worry, I'll be fine. Worse comes to worst and I'll be with Laura. Just know that I love you guys so much, you've done more for me than my biological family. You are my family and that's the way it's going to be for me.

I love you all and stay safe,

Allie.

I was near the exit gate when I heard someone say "what are you doing?" It scared me half to death but I turned around and saw Rick walking out of the prison entrance. He stood a few feet from me, confused and walking towards me eyeing my bag. I saw him slowly putting the pieces together as his face melted from confused to angry "what are you doing Allie?" He looked handsome in the moonlight, he looked handsome anywhere. God I would miss him.

I tried to quickly plan what I was going to say in my head but it was no use bullshitting Rick. "I'm leaving". He scoffed and shook his head in disbelief.

"why? Because the group don't want you as a leader anymore, if so, this is a bit of an overreaction, don't you think?"

"I love you guys but...I just feel like it's time for me to move on". There was silence and I took this as my cue to get going. I walked towards Rick, hugged him and kissed his cheek then walked back toward the gate.

"Unbelievable" he mumbled just loud enough for me to hear.

"Excuse me?"

"How can you be this selfish? You're not just anyone to this group anymore, you're family" He yelled and ran his hand through his hair frustrated. "Do you think about how this is going to affect everyone? Carl, Carol, Maggie...me?"

"I'm sorry bu-"

"No, there's no buts. You walking out there is suicide, we might as well shoot you now." I was annoyed. I scoffed and headed to the gate again.

"Wait. I'm sorry" He said grabbing my arm. "But please, don't leave, I can't lose you too" He grabbed my face and stared into my eyes intently. He was right. I was being selfish. This was my family; imagine if Laura had done this to me, I'd be devastated.

"Okay okay, I'll stay" He smiled after hearing this and brought me into a tight hug and then picked up my bag and lead me back into the prison.