Summary: Hikaru remembers 'interesting' encounters with Touya. Touya remembers as well. Will they end up together? Hikaru POV
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I honestly don't know what happened or how it even happened. It just did.
Flashback
(Go Salon incident)
"Shindou! How could you possibly miss that!" a clearly irritated voice yelled. The sound resonated throughout the room.
"Yeah, well the move I made wasn't that bad!" another voice retorts. The second voice was mine.
With the Go salon completely empty, save for the two of us, our usual bickering seemed louder than usual. The salon was closed for the day but Touya got permission to use it for practice. We met in the afternoon here and played for a few hours before this argument started.
"What do you mean 'wasn't that bad'! IF you had moved here, you would've made a comeback!" Touya gets up from his seat and gestures at the board vividly.
"Yeah, well if you read deeper, than you would've realized that if you attacked me here, that move would've lost its meaning. I would've lost even quicker than I did!" I shout back, jumping up from my chair and pointing to the top right corner.
/Either way I would've lost/ I think sourly.
"Shindou…you're going for your first title, how can you play so carelessly and poorly!" he practically lectures.
"Gee, you think, Sherlock Holmes! I know I'm going for my first title, so you can stop repeating it like a freaking parrot!" I snap angrily at him. With the stress getting to me, I was really feeling the pressure.
So I guess I can't blame myself for what I did next; it was on total impulse. I don't even know why I did it, perhaps it was because I was really getting aggravated at his attitude towards me, or maybe it was the fact that there was no one around us.
I pushed him. Lightly. But not gently enough that he didn't stumble back. His green eyes widen in shock, but he immediately retaliates. With a growl, he shoves me back, hard, and I fall down on my butt.
"Itai…" I moan as I hit the floor. I'm surprised at his suddenly strength towards me and look up, ready to start going at him.
As I look up, the words die somewhere in my throat.
His eyes were full of…something. But this was not a good something. I feel a shiver run through my body as he suddenly looks me up and down. Like a predator…And then, a slow deliberate smirk appears.
Then it hit me like a brick.
Lust
That's what it was.
Slowly, I could feel my face grow warm as he continued to stare me down.
"Anou…Touya…what-" I don't get a chance to finish what I was going to say as he suddenly kisses me. My eyes widen in shock as I feel a pair of warm lips cover my own. His lips were gently massaging against mine and I swore I felt the tip of his tongue gently tracing my lips.
I didn't respond right away though; I had to get over the realization and shock first. About after a second, I was over it and opened to give him entrance. My first kiss was nothing I dreamt it would've been. It wasn't a shy, inexperienced clumsy where-the-hell-are-your-lips-kiss, it was more of a straddle me, pin me down, and play tonsil-hockey kiss. Soon we were practically eating each others' face as we almost violently battled for domination
And then he…just pulls back.
I couldn't help but whimper at the sudden loss. He had this really smug look on his face as his eyes locked onto mine. As our eyes locked, I stopped breathing for that moment.
"What… what was that?" I finally got remembered how to talk and got some blood flowing to my brain to make a comprehensible sentence. If possible, he looked even smugger.
"You see Shindou? You're so careless it's easy for anyone to take control of the game," his voice mocked me. I was seething with anger inside.
But his words held a double meaning, and I wasn't sure which one he meant: the game, or …
I blush as I realize that he was still on top of me. I recover quickly and hastily push him off to get up. Brushing the invisible dust off my pants, I glare at him.
"Well sorry if I wasn't expecting you to practically rape me. Don't worry, next time I'll bring pepper spray," I retort sarcastically, rolling my eyes at him.
"Hikaru, it's not rape if you enjoyed it," he says in a tone as one would use when explaining something simple to a child.
And before I knew it, his was hand cupping my chin guiding it to his mouth while his other hand was at my waist pulling me closer. I'm ready this time and I resist, trying to push him away but he's stronger than I am. He then somehow maneuvers me so that I'm yet again pinned under him, but on the wall of the salon.
My struggles are futile as he presses his lips against mine trying to invoke a response. Grinding our bodies together, his hands roam my back …and then lower. I can't help but gasp as he gropes my ass not so subtly and he takes advantage of my open mouth.
As his tongue slid against mine, I moan as I finally give in and melt into the kiss. We kiss for the second time, but this time more intimately. We explore each other's mouths slowly, tasting each other completely and then wanting more. I soon feel a familiar stirring in the pit of my stomach and grate my hips with his, making him groan with pleasure. I smirk inside knowing that I was able to please him a bit.
And then, just like the first time, he suddenly stops.
I manage to refrain myself from grabbing him and make him continue, so I lean against the wall for support. My legs feel like jell-o, and my heart's pounding so loudly I could've mistaken it for a hammer. I'm in a daze, and I subconsciously touch my lips where I could still feel the sensation.
Without a warning, I can feel his breath tingling against my ear and I shiver visibly. I can practically hear the laughter in his words as he murmurs, "You really should learn to read deeper, Hikaru. You never know what your opponent will do next."
Then he was gone, leaving me standing there hearing those words repeat over and over again in my head. I finally snap out of my reverie and realize that he had left and that I was alone.
/What…in the world was that/ My mind and emotions in turmoil, my eyes somehow wander back to our game where it all started. I keep staring at the go board and the stones and then realize that he left without helping me clean up!
"Akira!" I growl aloud to no one in particular. /Matte…when did I start calling him Akira/
"You really should learn to read deeper, Hikaru. You never know what your opponent will do next." His last words come back to me.
/And when did he start calling me Hikaru/
More than bewildered at how a simple argument did this, I start to clean up. I can't help but keep thinking about the kiss. /How his lips pressed against mine, the taste of him, the feel of his body…Argh! Stop it/ I shake my head and try to disperse the thoughts as I place the final stone in its respective go-ke. I take one last look before closing the light in the salon and locking it, as I've seen Aki – no, Touya do so many times.
End flashback
Sometimes, I swear I'm imagining it. But then again, when I see that look he has on his face, I know I'm not. Wishful thinking though.
Flashback
(Elevator Incident)
It was early in the morning and a few pros were called to the institution for some kind of meeting. I, unfortunately, was one of them. I couldn't, for the life of me, know what it was for. All I heard was that I had to go there and I blocked the rest out.
I entered the buildings doors and walked to the elevator, pressing the 'up' button. I stood there waiting for a few seconds before I heard the front doors open. I turned and saw Waya there, practically sleep walking.
"Ohayou," I greeted him as he stood beside me.
"Hng." He grunted some kind of response. He turned to look at me, and I guess he finally realized who I was, and he practicallywoke up.
"Yo Hikaru!" He grined widely. "You got called here too?" he questioned.
"Yeah, got the call at like 5 a.m." I yawned as I finished the sentence and he chuckled quietly.
He's about to say something when we both heard the front doors open again. We turned simultaneously to see who else was called at this godly hour and my eyes widened in surprise as I saw Touya. I expected Waya's expressionwas almost a mirror of mine, except masked with more hate than shock.
Before any of us could talk, the elevator doors opened and we all stepped in. Waya determinedly ignored Touya. The moment Waya stepped in, he turned his head away from where Touya was standing so he couldn't see him. Waya stood in one corner of the elevator while I stood in the middle and Touya…he just stood somewhere. Awkward silence was an understatement.
We rode in silence with the lights flashing as we climbed the floors when I saw something shifted on my right side where Touya stood. I discreetly looked at him and realized that he was slightly closer. Or maybe it was just me.
Nope, it wasn't me. He just did it again.
We stopped at a floor as a man stepped in which made Touya move even closer to me as he 'made room' for the other man. I moved back but he only moved closer, closing the distance between us.
I could feel the hair on my neck raised as he shifted a bit closer to me, almost touching me. Or I really could be imagining it.
/Please let me be imagining it/ I prayed silently.
My eyes widened as I felt something brushed against my bottom. I managed to hold the gasp that was threatening to sound and I looked cautiously around. Waya was still looking in that opposite direction so I doubted he realized what was happening. The other man was probably not even looking in this direction
/But if they looked.../
I turned my head sharply to glare at Touya. He's not even looking at me. My glare faltered as I saw his look of impassiveness and I almost doubted what happened, until he took that very moment to turn and smirked at me. I felt my cheeks heating up and turned my head the other way. I tried to push down the blush that was slowly revealing itself.
I inched away from him just a bit and I looked up pleadingly at the elevator lights. /Three more floors! Yes/ I cheered happily inside.
And then … we stopped. Yes, we just stopped. I also stupidly somehow lost my balance at the sudden halt and Touya somehow ended up catching me before I fell. /Crap/
Then the lights went out and we plunged into darkness. /Shit/
That's when it started. /OhMyGod/
I could hear Waya cursing at our bad luck and crying for help with the other man joining him. It was impossible for Touya orI to make any noise as he took this opportunity to start ravishing me while I could only do my best not to make any sounds. A few seconds later, the lights flickered on and off and then stayed on. The elevator then continued to move upwards again.
Luckily, no one noticed what happened because Touya wrenched himself away from where he was standing before. I just barely managed to stand properly without looking like I was just making out two seconds ago.
"Uh…Hikaru? Are you ok? You look…rather distraught," Waya said carefully as he looked at me. I could only imagine why he said that. My face was probably rather flushed while my hair was in a mess which resulted from Touya running his hands through it as he kissed me and my clothes were probably a bit crooked as Touya tried to take them off.
My face only got redder as I carefully replied with a straight face. "Yeah I'm fine. I just got a little…freaked out when it happened. I'm kind of claustrophobic as well as afraid of the dark and when they both got put together…ehe...yeah," I lied. I then try to tame my hair and straighten my clothes. I stolea glance at Touya…and he looked perfectly normal! Not even a strand of hair was out of place!
And hewasn'teven smirking at me or anything! I really think I'm going insane. Maybe that was all just some sick fantasy in my head.
Then again, my shirt doesn't unbutton itself.
"Aw man that sucks," Waya gave me a look of sympathy.
"Yeah I know…it really does," I replied.
The bell dinged and we all left the elevator.
End flashback
Every time he somehow manages to catch me off guard. He just comes and goes as he pleases. He's like a freaking Houdini. Honestly.
Flashback
(Onsen incident)
"AHHHHHHHhhhhh!" I exclaim loudly as I sink into the hot steamy water. I close my eyes gratefully and just let the tension melt off my body. This week was extremely busy, not to mention stressful. With two title matches and four tutoring matches, and that one interview with Go reporters, it was just a bit more busier that my usual schedule.
I was thankful when Akira told me to go try the new onsen house near the go institution. He told me that he went once after a really intense battle and it felt like heaven. I just had to go try it out! Now sitting here, with my mind idling, I can't disagree with him. But I do wonder why Akira suddenly mentioned this to me suddenly. Mention would be putting it lightly. He practically begged me to.
We were playing our usual match of go, and he somehow managed to get us started on this topic. It seemed as if he was practically begging to get me to go, like a salesman. I finally gave in just so we could finish our game. I really hope it wasn't satisfaction that showed on his face afterward.
I sigh again loudly and splash some of the water onto my face. I lean against the stone wall when I heard something. I take a glance to see if anyone was there, but all I could see was the steam and smoke in the room. Silence settles down and I shrug off that uneasy feeling. I close my eyes and attempt to relax and I swear I hear it again.
My eyes snap open and I leave my spot in the water, grab my towel, and get up to look around.
/What the heck? Is someone there or not?...mou, it's not like I mind…why bother being so sneaky about it/
I take one final look and I sigh in defeat, heading back to the water. I enter the water and sit down…on someone. On a male someone. Very male. My whole body freezes. And then…
"EIYAHHHH!" I shriek and jump off. I nearly drown in the water as I lose my footing and fall, still screaming. A hand pulls me up before I lose all consciousness. Gasping for breath, I manage a "thank you".
Sputtering, I finally get a good look at the person. My eyes feel like they're about to fall right out of their sockets. /AKIRA/
"What…what…WHAT!" I stutter. /Oh my god…/
My face pales as I see who it was, then goes red once I realize what I did. He just smirks at me and tilts his head in a questioning manner as if he didn't even notice.
/Very cute. No—I mean …uh not cute! Damn him/
I quickly pull my arm away from his hand as if I had been burnt. "Uh…erm….anou…" I gibber. It was like my brain went on vacation and sent me a card.
"What?" He says in a very innocent manner. And then raises one of those fine eyebrows.
I check the sender address from the card and drag my brain's sorry ass back into my head. "What the hell are YOU doing here!" I finally manage.
"Well why can't I be here? After all, it is a public bath," he says looking slightly annoyed. I growl at his tone. /Well I guess it's a good thing he's ignoring what happened…/
"Fine. Whatever…just…don't try anything…" I narrow my eyes at him suspiciously.
"Me?" he says a bit conceitedly and scoffs. "As I recall, I'm not the one who practically gave me a lap dance." He leers at me.
I turn red. "What! A a-a-What! I did not give you a LAPDANCE! I just accidentally ended up sitting… on…" I trail off as he looks at me with a raised brow and I don't finish my sentence. What I was about to say didn't seem like it was going to help.
/Damn him/
"Just…just stay away…" I say hesitantly and go sit somewhere far from him.
I tried to relax but it seems every muscle in my body was tense. I felt like the string on a bow stretched too far for its own good. Its funny how I managed to unwind in 10 minutes, but after 5 seconds I got all wound up again. I was on the edge, worried if anything else will happen and I'm this close from being pushed off. Considering all the incidents that happened between us and the fact that we're now in an onsen house…I fear the results.
/Just…relax…nothing will happen…yes…nothing will…/
And just like Murphy's Law, it happened. I thought I would've detected it, or at least even noticed something before he slammed me against the wall, but… he got me once again.
"Akira! Dammit, didn't I just say--" he smothers outthe rest of my words as he forcibly kisses me. Unlike all the other times, this one is amorous, full of lust and want. He demands --- no needs a response from me and he wants it NOW. And like every other time, I cave in to his needs.
I practically purr as his hands roam freely over my almost naked body, pinching and teasing. I arch to his touches and moan loudly, wanting more. His hands trace my whole body, as if he was memorizing all of my curves and contour. His fingers lightly pinched my already sensitive nipplesenticing a sudden gasp from me.
Throughout the empty onsen, the only sounds that could be heard were our heavy breathing and moans, from probably me. I can feel our cocks rubbing together and feel pleasure shoot straight up my spine. I'm barely aware of what he's doing now; everything seems to only heighten my pleasure. So, of course I wasn't aware that his hands were now…exploring lower regions.
I suddenly feel his hand trail along my inner thigh before reaching its destination. I gasp audibly as he cups my balls. He waits for my permission. Thatis an unexplored territory that we never crossed before.
"Akira…" I say slowly, unsure.
"I can give you more," he whispers in my ear. "I want to give you more…" he murmurs and I shiver at his words. I close my eyes and subtly nod my head, giving him a 'yes' sign.
His fingers find the tip and slowly tease it, rubbing it and feeling thewetness that forms.I close my eyes as I can only just take in everything he gives me. Then, his fingers wrap around my cock and I instinctively thrust my hips up towards him. My hands hold on so tightly to his arms that I'm sure I'll leave nail marks there. I can feel his harsh breathing against me and he tilts my head up and steals a kiss. I'm pretty sure my lips are swollen-like.
His strokes started off slowly, but he speeds up and I can barely hang on. I can feel his eyes as he watches my face as I tilt my head back and gasp for air. I feel his mouth at my neck, attacking the exposed skin with kisses and sucking. Soon I can feel myself reaching completion and I barely hold back my scream as I come. Stars seem to explode and I can only see white.
I sag against him, my breathing quick and shallow, not believing what just happened. I'm barely conscious, still reeling in the aftermath. I wrap my arms around his neck loosely and almost hug him, when I feel his whole body go rigid. I look up at him questioning, wondering why. I almost stop breathing when I see his expression: it was almost of indifference.
I almost cry when I saw that look.
/So…did that mean nothing to him/
I guess he must've realized what I was thinking because he's kissing me again. I let him in easily, but I don't respond. He stops shortly after and flashes me an attempt of a smile. I lean against the stone wall numb, as he soon gets out and leaves. I close my eyes and feel liked dying. I feel so used, did he even care? Was it for fun?
/What the FUCK was that/
End flashback
I close my eyes as that last memory resurfaces and shudder internally. I…I don't know how to deal with this anymore. Does he want me…or not? A silent tear streaks down my cheek. I wipe it away immediately hating what he's doing to me. And to think, I have a convention to attend…and he'll be there with me.
Itai – ouch
Matte - Wait
Onsen – a place where people go for hot springs.