Title:Buffy's song
Rating:Dunno, PG-13?
Disclaimer: Don't own nothin'. Characters belong to Joss, songs belong to Blink 182 and Bryan Adams.
Feedback:Yes please!
Buffy Summers laid spralled out on her bed. Graduation was over and they survived. But if the survived then why did she feel like she was dead inside? Angel was gone. He left her alone, all alone.
*I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depresed to go on, you'll be sorry when I'm gone*
It seemed as if the song was being played just for her. She tore a sheet of paper from her diary and grabbed a pink gel pen from her bedside table. She began writing, and all the words that she wrote came straight from her heart.
*I never conqured, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was watching
Hate to try
The tour was over we'd surivied
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone*
She couldn't pretend that her life was perfect anymore. Ever since Prom she wanted to die. That first night after 'the breakup' she took 900 milligrams of sleeping pills, only to throw them up. She wished her life could be easy. She wished she had never become the slayer. She wished that her life wasn't so hard.
*I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault*
A tear fell onto the paper smearing some of the words.
"Sh*t."She wispered wipping away tears.
"No."She scolded herself,"You are not weak Buffy. You won't cry."
But that's what she wanted. She wanted to stay in her room for ever and never come out. Just cry for days. Weeks. Months.
*I never conqured, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was watching
Hate to try
The tour was over we'd surivied
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone*
Life was so hard. Sure every teenager say's that but her life, was. It was harder then any teenagers. Prom night wasn't the first time she thought of suicide. After she sent Angel to hell, she almost stabbed herself with her stake. Mr. Pointy was almost her way out of this life. But she didn't. She felt something go over her and she couldn't do it.
*I never conqured, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is watching
The time goes by
The tour is over I'd surivied
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone*
She signed the letter as the song ended and she folded it in half. She pulled a knife out of her dresser drawer and took a deep breath.
I can do this. I can.she thought.
She slowly began to run the knife over her wrist as the radio announcer said "And now we have a dedication to a recent high school graduate Buffy Summers."
Buffy's head perked up as she heard her name.
"Buffy,if you're listening this goes out to you from Angel. He want you to know that he's sorry and that he owes you his life."
*It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on
So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do
One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...*
Rating:Dunno, PG-13?
Disclaimer: Don't own nothin'. Characters belong to Joss, songs belong to Blink 182 and Bryan Adams.
Feedback:Yes please!
Buffy Summers laid spralled out on her bed. Graduation was over and they survived. But if the survived then why did she feel like she was dead inside? Angel was gone. He left her alone, all alone.
*I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depresed to go on, you'll be sorry when I'm gone*
It seemed as if the song was being played just for her. She tore a sheet of paper from her diary and grabbed a pink gel pen from her bedside table. She began writing, and all the words that she wrote came straight from her heart.
*I never conqured, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was watching
Hate to try
The tour was over we'd surivied
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone*
She couldn't pretend that her life was perfect anymore. Ever since Prom she wanted to die. That first night after 'the breakup' she took 900 milligrams of sleeping pills, only to throw them up. She wished her life could be easy. She wished she had never become the slayer. She wished that her life wasn't so hard.
*I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months, I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault*
A tear fell onto the paper smearing some of the words.
"Sh*t."She wispered wipping away tears.
"No."She scolded herself,"You are not weak Buffy. You won't cry."
But that's what she wanted. She wanted to stay in her room for ever and never come out. Just cry for days. Weeks. Months.
*I never conqured, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was watching
Hate to try
The tour was over we'd surivied
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone*
Life was so hard. Sure every teenager say's that but her life, was. It was harder then any teenagers. Prom night wasn't the first time she thought of suicide. After she sent Angel to hell, she almost stabbed herself with her stake. Mr. Pointy was almost her way out of this life. But she didn't. She felt something go over her and she couldn't do it.
*I never conqured, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is watching
The time goes by
The tour is over I'd surivied
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone*
She signed the letter as the song ended and she folded it in half. She pulled a knife out of her dresser drawer and took a deep breath.
I can do this. I can.she thought.
She slowly began to run the knife over her wrist as the radio announcer said "And now we have a dedication to a recent high school graduate Buffy Summers."
Buffy's head perked up as she heard her name.
"Buffy,if you're listening this goes out to you from Angel. He want you to know that he's sorry and that he owes you his life."
*It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on
So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me
This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do
One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...*