I Notice it Now
By TaCe
Summary: Maybe it just happened along the way, and I was just to blind to notice it. I notice it now.
Dedication: This is to my muse, to Pamela, and to the wonderful world of BtVS. Also to Luxie, Meg, and Ana. You guys didn't know this was happening, but I luv y'all anyways. And lastly to Microsoft Word Spell Check, my best friend in the whole wide world.
Pairing: Spike/Willow
Disclaimer: I don't own it. I'm not getting money from it. Please don't sue me!
Feedback: Yes, please. I want to know what you think. However, flames will be used to light vanilla scented candles and/or roast yummy sugar-y marshmallows.
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I don't know when it started. Maybe it was when he kidnapped me and threatened to shove that bottle into my face. Maybe it was when he couldn't bite me, but assured me he would not hesitate to if he had the chance. Maybe it just happened along the way, and I was too blind to notice it. I notice it now.
When Xander and I walked in and saw him trying to stake himself, I almost started crying. I know I put up a front, but in truth, I didn't want to see him gone. If he had dusted himself, it would have destroyed me. He shouldn't have tried to kill himself. Drusilla isn't worth it. And Buffy? Goddess, how could she do that to him? He is so not beneath her! If anything, she's beneath him.
I guess, if I'm honest with myself, I've always known. I've always known I loved him, and I've always known he didn't love me back. So, it's time to leave. I took a knife from Giles's weapon chest, and I'm ready. There's nothing more for me here. I've left them all notes so they know that I cared, but I just can't live this lie anymore.
Goodbye, beloved Spike, my lovely William. Your heart is purer that that of anyone with a soul.
I took the knife to my chest, resting where my heart was. If it could kill vampires, it could kill me. My hand started to shake, and I felt tears form in my eyes. I raised the knife, and plunged it into my flesh. A piercing scream filled the silence of Ravello Drive, and after a second I realize it was my own. As I pushed the knife further into my chest, a searing pain tore through me, blinding me. And then, there was nothingness.
Summary: Maybe it just happened along the way, and I was just to blind to notice it. I notice it now.
Dedication: This is to my muse, to Pamela, and to the wonderful world of BtVS. Also to Luxie, Meg, and Ana. You guys didn't know this was happening, but I luv y'all anyways. And lastly to Microsoft Word Spell Check, my best friend in the whole wide world.
Pairing: Spike/Willow
Disclaimer: I don't own it. I'm not getting money from it. Please don't sue me!
Feedback: Yes, please. I want to know what you think. However, flames will be used to light vanilla scented candles and/or roast yummy sugar-y marshmallows.
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I don't know when it started. Maybe it was when he kidnapped me and threatened to shove that bottle into my face. Maybe it was when he couldn't bite me, but assured me he would not hesitate to if he had the chance. Maybe it just happened along the way, and I was too blind to notice it. I notice it now.
When Xander and I walked in and saw him trying to stake himself, I almost started crying. I know I put up a front, but in truth, I didn't want to see him gone. If he had dusted himself, it would have destroyed me. He shouldn't have tried to kill himself. Drusilla isn't worth it. And Buffy? Goddess, how could she do that to him? He is so not beneath her! If anything, she's beneath him.
I guess, if I'm honest with myself, I've always known. I've always known I loved him, and I've always known he didn't love me back. So, it's time to leave. I took a knife from Giles's weapon chest, and I'm ready. There's nothing more for me here. I've left them all notes so they know that I cared, but I just can't live this lie anymore.
Goodbye, beloved Spike, my lovely William. Your heart is purer that that of anyone with a soul.
I took the knife to my chest, resting where my heart was. If it could kill vampires, it could kill me. My hand started to shake, and I felt tears form in my eyes. I raised the knife, and plunged it into my flesh. A piercing scream filled the silence of Ravello Drive, and after a second I realize it was my own. As I pushed the knife further into my chest, a searing pain tore through me, blinding me. And then, there was nothingness.