Blank… I watched you, and your expression was blank…
And the view cannot go from my mind, from my nightmares
You could have looked pained, betrayed
Or angry
Not blank like that
For I threw my trust
For I forgot your promises
"Kurama…" Two bodies lied beside each other, enjoying the afterglow. "What're you thinking?"
"Will you kill me tomorrow?" A question.
"Perhaps." An answer.
"You said you'll let yourself lost and I'll spare you and we'll be together after this is over…"
"I'm not gonna lie to you, Kurama. Toguros threatened to kill me if I lost."
"… So?"
"Either I'll win but I spare you, or I kill you then kill myself after."
Widened eyes. "What kind of choice is the second? No! We'll live together!"
A gentle kiss. A deep one. A chuckle. "Trust me. By tomorrow I'll tell you what decision I made."
An insomnia. For both.
So stupid I was to eavesdrop
To hear the threat from Toguro Ani that he'll kill you
Not just if you lost
But if you don't kill me
To be uncertain
To doubt you…
"I won't kill you, Kurama. I promise that. You'll live."
To not noticing that you said "You'll live" instead of "We'll live"….
Blank… your expression was blank…
Why do I survive? I thought we'd die together
Because I don't trust you
I'm afraid you kill me but not kill yourself like your second choice
I'm afraid even if you spare me, you'll be killed eventually by Toguros
Now what? Do you possibly wait for me to kill myself?
Karasu…
I'll really do if I am still Shuuichi Minamino
But now Youko Kurama's power is in me, not letting me doing suicide
And I wonder why he values pride so much although his love dies
I am sorry, Karasu. But I love you.
Blank… No promise, no hope, no trust, no pain, no anger
T_T