A/N: Collection of Near x Mello one shots! Angst – yay!!!! Plz review!
Story 1: Now and Always – Mello's POV
Near, I hate you.
I hate you.
Yet I could never bring myself to ever kill you.
Is it because I want to beat you at your own game?
No….I've been "unfair" at times – blackmailing, killing, kidnapping…
And intending to do my worst.
I hate you.
Of all people, you ought to know that.
I still couldn't kill you.
I wonder if all this time, did I really hate you?
I've always thought I did. And that it would easy, too easy, to kill you.
But you…were different.
Your icy demeanor, your cool attitude, your brilliance - leaves me trailing behind you, never being able to catch up…
Why does it feel so lonely?
But I've already chosen my path.
Even now and always, nonetheless and nevertheless…
I'll go my own way. And I'll get closer to you. I'll win.
I'll struggle and pull ahead. I'll do anything to beat you.
Maybe one day you'll be able to accept me. You'll truly notice me.
So I'll keep pushing ahead. I'll try to be the best.
For now and always.
I hate you. But why do those words feel so wrong?
A/N: Stick around to read the other chapters!