Whoever said life was easy I would like to personally kick them in the face.
Don't get me wrong, compared to some people my life is a walk in the park, but compared to others...
It is true though, what people say, life is like a roller-coaster. One minute it's up one minute it's down and the next it feels like you are free falling into the ground which is going to swallow you whole.
So as I sit here nodding my head politely, pretending that I'm listening to the "advice" my councillor Mrs Dry is giving me, when really she is just repeating the same thing she does every week.
"it's okay, I understand"
Or
"don't worry yourself too much"
Which is complete and utter bullshit, she doesn't know what it's like- no one does, and how the fuck am I not meant to worry!
Stupid bitch, I think as I collect my bags and make my way out of that hell hole.
I grab my timetable to see what I have first...
Science...
Great that's just great I think as I walk into the classroom.
"would you like to explain where you have been for the last half an hour Beatrice?" my teacher Mr Edward spits out with venom.
God doesn't anybody give me a break!
"no not really and it's Tris Sir" I say meet his eyes and stare right back at him, challenging him.
"you might want to watch your attitude young lady one day it is going to get you into serious trouble!" he shouts
Before turning back and continuing with his lesson.
Whatever I think as make my way to my seat next to Christina, and sit down.
"u okay?" she whispers
I just nod and reply "course I am"
Which of course I'm not, but she doesn't need to know that... no one does.
People have a hard enough time already without having to worry about what's going on with me, and even if they didn't and I did my some miracle tell them what was going on all I would get is there sympathy, which makes me feel even worse than I already do.
For the rest of the lesson I copy down the notes and try to take my mind of everything that's going on, which is to be easier said than done. How can I just forget what has happened, what is happening...
The bell finally rings and I escape as quickly as I can with Christina right beside me.
"what a dick" Christina exclaims
"yeah, tell me about it" I reply as we head to the canteen
Thank god Mr Edward didn't ask for me to stay behind because I can't be doing with that shit today...