P/N: hello ya'll! This is my first Twilight story! I normally write sasuhina fics for Naruto, which are fairly popular. If you get a chance check them out but here I have a new story! My Broken Sunshine. Now I'm getting my lovely friend Tessa to post this for me so show her some love and read! I may not update a lot though because of my addiction to Breaking Dawn.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. If I did it would be nowhere near as good as it is now. I also don't own Bullet with Butterfly wings which belongs to the Smashing Pumpkins and I don't own Almost Lover by A Fine Frenzy either!
Chapter 1: Almost Lover
What have I become? A figment of a child's vivid imagination or their most terrifiying nightmare? Beauty and skill beyond compare and immortality...imagination yes. Suffer from constant thirst and eternal damnation...nightmare yes. This is what I wanted, what I desired most. I have become what I wanted. A monster. Yes.
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"Isabella your on in five minutes!" a stage director called but I just blankly stared at myself in the mirror.My long mahogany hair was in loose curls down my back and my piercing rich topaz eyes were rimmed heavily with black eye liner and masscara. I was wearing a black spagetti strap shirt with a mesh overlay that came over my long pale hands. My pants were black skinny jeans with many chains hanging off of the loops and I had on a pair of black and white DCs.
"Come on Bella! We need you." Came the smooth and buttery voice of my bass player Donavin.His blood red eyes stared into my topaz ones. Donavin had perfectly messy black hair and a squared and chisled nose and jaw, but his pale skin and eyes marked him for who he was. A monster. I had met Donavin when I came into the music industry, he was a great friend and he really knew his stuff. He was very intelligent and was fun to be around but he drank human blood. That was his only turn off.My band mates made fun of me for not drinking human blood, for opting to lower myself to drink from animals. I don't let it get to me though, sometimes I wonder why I don't drink human blood when the rest of them do but every time I try I just can't. Maybe its because of my "family" from the past but I won't drink human blood. Donavin held out his pale hand to me and I gingerly took it.
I could hear the rush and noise of the audience as he led me behind the curtain to the stage.Annabelle and May were walking graceful towards us with smiles on their identical faces. Both had long auburn hair that came past their waist and blood red eyes. They were clad in baggy jeans with holes at the knee, black turtle necks with no sleeves, clunky combat boots, and loads of black bracelts. I always thought it would be nice to have a sister, a twin sister at that. The twins were lovely girls but they like to play tricks on everyone. You never wanted to be one their bad side.Annabelle went over to the drums behind us and May picked up the black electric guitar on my left while Donavin put on the black bass guitar that was to my right. I sighed and took my place at the microphone. The curtains went up and the crowd of unsuspecting humans went wild. Cheers of I love you and you rock filled the air and I loosened up a bit.
"Hello ya'll! How are you tonight? Of course your fine because your here to see us so you've gotta be rockin! Don't get too high now and lets rock!" May said into the mic in a twinkling voice only she could achive.I wasn't good at speaking with the audience, I could only sing and I was comfortable with that.
"Our first song is called Bullet With Butterfly Wings! Enjoy!" May said I took a deep breath and began to sing.
The world is a vampire,
sent to drain
Secret destroyers,hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain?
Betrayed desires,and a piece of the game
I loved singing to people. It calmned by nerves and made me happy. My voice always mesmorised our audience. It was my power. Some of the people who knew this song sang along with me while others just cheered. This song was inspired by my life before I became a vampire and my life now combined
Even though I know
I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold
like old job
Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say
what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I'm naked,
nothing but an animal
But can you fake it,
for just one more show?
And what do you want?
I want to change
And what have you got,
when you feel the same?
Even though I know -
I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold - like old job
Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was the only son, yeah.
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was the only son for you
As I sang I got the strange sensation that someone important was watching me I glanced at vampire speed to Donavin and at the break of the song his twitched his nose. That was our signal that other vampires were in the audience or somewhere near by. I tried to scan the audience but even with my vampire vision everyone still looked so tiny.
Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage
And someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage am I still just a rat in a-
Despite all my rage am I still just a rat in a-
Despite all my rage am I still just a rat in a cage
When I screamed the last line the crowd went wild. I knew their blood was boiling from my voice.
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was the only son for you
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
And I still believe that I cannot be saved!
As I sang the last part most of the crowd had joined in. Sure the last few lines were a little atheist but I wasn't going to hell anytime soon. May twitched her nose at me as Donavin strung the last cord. There were vampires. And they were close. We were going to have to cut the concert short and send the other band out early. Oh well if we send out fruit baskets they will be fine. I cleared my throat to announce the next song. When vampires are around my band mates can't speak or else they will lunge off the stage and reveal our identities to the world.
"Well you guys here is our next song. Its a song really special to me and I would like you to hear it." I said softly and the crowd cheered as I walked gracefully over to a keyboard that was in the center of the stage.I sat down at the stool and positioned the mic quickly and then like magic my hands flew across the keys. This song was for Edward. My Edward. The Edward from my memories who loved me, or at least said he did but then left me. I took a deep breath and the sang along with the music I was playing.
Your fingertips across my skin
The pine trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
My home in Forks, Washington was coming back to me. The forset greenerary and the constant smell of rain and wet soil. The permant clouds and occasional sun that would penetrate through.
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
Edward. When he left I never got to say goodbye. That was part of the reason I joined this band. I was hoping that one day he would hear my song and come back to me. If he has I don't know but now I'm trying to give up on him. But its so hard! Jacob was right about one thing. Edward never loved me. But I can still hear his song for me ringing in my ears.
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No,
I remember the day he left me in the forset all alone. That was the day I died. Emotionally that is. I didn't really die until a few weeks later. I would never had expected Edward to leave me like that, I thought he cared for me but apparently I was wrong.
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I finished the song and at vampire speed Donavin gave the signal. A brush though his hair was all it took to set me off. I stood up and grabbed the mic with trembling hands.
"This next song is-" I stopped and collapsed to the floor of the stage.
"Oh my GOD! Bella!"Annabelle and May said at the same time and rushed from their places to my side and Donavin took me into his arms and our band rushed off stage and into our dressing room.May locked the door and Annabelle took a magazine and plopped herself on the couch.
"Well I actually wanted to play tonight." May said flipping through her book of trash.
"Whatever. Nice job Bella. I wonder who the vampires were..." Donavin said trailing off.
"Doesn't matter anymore Donny. They aren't our problem." Annabelle said looking through the mini fridge.Being vampire rock stars we can't get out to hunt very often, especially me. So Donavin came up with an ingenious idea. If one of us got the chance to go hunting we would bring bottles of blood back with us to take on the go. Of course I was the only one who hunted for animals, but that was besides the point. Well actually I have no point, I never do. A knock on the door interupted my thoughts and The twins gave each other looks.
"Um go away!" May said."We don't want fruit baskets!" Annabelle laughed.
"No we throw them out anyway so don't waste you time." May said.
"So leave Bella is in excrutiating pain!" Annabelle winked at me and I cued the bad theatrics.
"Owww! Oh god! I gonna die! I see a light but its not white! Its red and there are flames coming from it!" I let out high pitched scream that cracked the mirror. "Its hell! I'm going to hell!"
"Bout time too." Donavin chuckled and brought me to sit in his lap.
"Shut up! Don't go towards the light Bella!" May said."But if you do, by all means bring me back a t-shirt! Size small!" Annabelle giggled.
"I'm dieing! I'm dieing! I'm dead!" I said and we all paused for a second but then the door opened to reveal people I didn't think I would ever see.Carlisle, Esme, Emmett, Rosealie, Jasper, and Alice all stood at the door.
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P/N: okay ya'll! You've read now please review!
(T/N: 里Tessa! 再次，我没有编辑本章。 我为您也许遇到了的所有差错道歉。 希望您享用了Paige' s故事。 获得乐趣读休息… -哈欠玛雅人蜂! 雅人蜂! 我ya，匈奴!)(-haha. i no speakeh deh englais!)
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(T/N: Tessa here! Once again, I didnt edit this chapter. I apologize for any mistakes you may have encountered. Hope you enjoyed Paige's story. Have fun reading the rest... -yawn- Maya Bee! Maya Bee! I love ya, hun!)