A/N: This is my first Ouran High School Host Club fanfiction I've ever written. I dedicate this to my friend Amelia, who helped me through the editing process when I felt like giving up. Thanks Amelia. :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Ouran High School Host Club. If I did, I doubt I'd be writing this.

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Without You: Prologue

You're gone. I miss you so much; you have no idea how hard it is…without you…. Why have you done this? Do you even know how much pain you've caused me? Do you even notice me anymore? Lately, you're always off with her. You used to tell me nothing would ever come between us, but then she came. She was the only one we ever met (and probably will ever meet) who could tell us apart. As much as I don't want to admit it, that made me happy. Finally we were more than just 'the twins', we were individuals…we always had been, people had just never cared to notice. Have you noticed, Hikaru, how different we are? All the little details that make me Kaoru and you Hikaru?

I realized how happy she made you. As much as it hurt me, it made me happy. I was happy to see you smiling and laughing, even though deep down it was tearing me apart. Do you know how much of my heart died every time I had to fake a smile or a laugh? But it was all for you, Hikaru. It was worth it. I was happy to see you laugh like you never had with anyone else before, besides me. But it killed me to see you give her those smiles; those smiles that had once only been for me. All those times after school at the Host Club when we would 'act' for the customers, it was never an act for me. I wouldn't lie to you, Hikaru. But you lied, and it hurts. It hurts because I know that at one point, however long ago, you weren't lying. You had meant every word you said, even if you hadn't kept it.

The happiness I show to everyone is just a façade to hide the deeper pain you've caused. Don't you know me well enough to realize that I would never hurt you? Getting jealous or making a scene wouldn't make you happy. It would only disappoint you…no one expects me to make a scene, since I've always been the more mature twin. So, I keep it to myself. But it hurts that you don't even notice that something's wrong. We've lived together our whole lives. We're twins. I can always sense when something's troubling you. Then again, I always was the one better at controlling my emotions.

You used to tell me our love would never die; that nothing could ever force us apart. You lied. You lied about a lot of things, Hikaru. I've never lied to you – never. It hurts so much that I can barely stand it. I don't know what to do anymore…without you…. It's hopeless to think of living without you. I have to leave; to get away from it all. I have to escape the pain. I have to get away from her…from you…. After what I saw, there's nothing you can do to stop me. You've betrayed me. I'll always love you, but I can't forgive you.

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A/N: Thank you for reading! I know this was extremely short and I apologize. Hopefully I'll have the next chapter up by next week and I promise it will be much longer! Please review?