Dear life, old friends, and pained loves;

I Cry inside

Tears of the eternal pain

Oh how do you love the pain you see?

When you make me wither beneath you

When the soft touch makes its way towards me

When you know that you could break me

I wouldn't fight you even if I could

You love it don't you

The pain in knowing that you made me betray my friends

I've betrayed myself in order to feel loved

But this isn't love

This is obsession

Tell me why I didn't leave when I could

Please don't use me anymore...

Guess I was right...you don't love me

You used me

Even abused me

I can't find what it is that draws me towards you

You are evil and cruel

Is that what I want?

Do I want pain in my life?

Do you want me to feel real pain?

I can't tell anymore

I stopped caring a long time ago

You laughed at me and my caring ways

You said I would die from them

Again you were right

I am dead

Dead I will always be

I can't come back to life because no one would save me

Aren't I pathetic, I still need to be saved?

Wouldn't I have learned my lesson by now?

I guess not

I was stupid to trust you, wasn't I?

I wish I could run back to my friends again

Beg for them to protect me

Do you think they would?

I don't

I saw the look in there eyes when they found out about us

Ha

Us, there was no us, there was you and me in the dark

I was naive and you took advantage of that

If we were to do it all again I don't think I would make the same mistake

Yes I admit it you were a mistake

We were a mistake

I was mistaken

Life has no meaning to me now

I bet you'll laugh at this when you read it

I bet you won't even bother to let my old friends know

Then again you might, just to see them get angry

Even if they aren't my friends anymore they'll still care

Not like you though, you'll laugh

I almost feel sorry that you don't cry

You didn't cry when your sister died

You didn't cry when you brother died

You won't cry when you see me dead

Yes this is a good bye letter

Haven't you figured that out by now?

I told you I was dead

My empty shell of a body will forever be asleep

I plan to go with the fishes

Do you remember the first time you used me?

At the docks

I felt so lost there

Worried about everyone but myself

This is a huge change

I have no one else to care for

Well... I don't think that's true

Even through all the pain you put me through

I still love you

I bet you weren't expecting that

I bet you're laughing now more then ever

That's alright you may taunt the dead

I am no longer there to receive the pain

This letter will stop with a good bye kiss to you... Malik

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Kind of depressing I think, but I liked. I hope you review and if you thought this was depressing then try reading one of my happier stories!! I've got some!!! Any way I had the inspiration to write this when I was practicing my poetry. Yes I am a poet, not a very good one but I'm getting better.

Anyways thanks for reading!!!

Lunar Dragon 209