"I don't know how to let you go."
"It's easy, you have already."
I haven't though, not where it counts. The box in the closet, - the one that is worn at the sides from being taken out frequently and perused - is a constant reminder of how much I can't seem to let go.
And if you have the urge to laugh at me right now, I won't hold a grudge. I am deserving of it for the wrong choice I made and for the lie you had to hear. The box matters and more importantly what the box represents do too.
"It isn't a mistake you know."
I know it isn't. I just wish I knew it then.
"Not what I heard."
You heard wrong.
"Goodbye."
I start to hold your hand, but you won't let me.
"Don't make this hard for us Lucas. Say goodbye, that's how you let go. It hurts less than hearing what a mistake it all was. Trust me on that."
You wound me one last time and I can't help but wish it meant you cared. You do don't you?
I love you Peyton.
"If it's any consolation, I think it's a mistake too. Goodbye."
Do what you have to do – Sarah McLachlan
What
ravages of spirit
Conjured this temptuous rage
Created you a
monster
Broken by the rules of love
And fate has led you
through it
You do what you have to do
And fate has led you
through it
You do what you have to do ...
And
I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you
go
Every
moment marked
With apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly
moving
Trying to escape this desire
The yearning to be near
you
I do what I have to do
The yearning to be near you
I do
what I have to do
But
I have the sense to recognize
That I don't know how
To
let you go
I don't know how
To let you go
A
glowing ember
Burning hot
Burning slow
Deep within I'm
shaken by the violence
Of existing for only you
I know I can't
be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with
you
I do what I have to do
And
I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I
don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go