Hi everyone! Here's something I wrote many, many moons ago. It's a small little story, but kind of heartbreaking. I'll be posting it relatively quickly as I just need to go through and do some editing.

Warning: There's a lot of heartbreak and depression in this story. Only read if you're up for it.

With All My Heart

Prologue

My husband, my daughter, and my grandson are the three most precious things in my world.

I have not seen them in 10,000 years.

Time no longer means anything, I mark change by the amount of animal life I have taken. The world, Earth, is so different from the day I became eternal. There are fewer people on this planet. Fewer vampires, even. There is no purpose to living. Some live in galaxies millions of light years away, others choose to live in a sort of fantasy life that can be purchased. People live long, healthy lives, due to medicine. There is little purpose to anything they do, though. No war to be fought, no passion to be had, no enemies, no friends, no real happiness, no families, just wanderers. Living, or half-living in the fantasy of their choosing, like a dream, only a dream you manipulate and live in, until your last heartbeat.

The human race had found every answer they could muster up. And the answers told a sad story of nothingness, hopelessness, and purposelessness.

The only question humans had left was what happened after life, after death. And that was the question many sought out in suicide. One of only two things that still killed people: human curiosity and vampires.

Chapter 1: Fading Hope

I've been working for a few hundred years on a time machine. I know the humans came close, but they couldn't actually make the journey, nothing could, not even a few curious vampires. But this was my last hope, something that maybe I could do to return to the precious three. My shield was not only mental, but physical, and through the millennia, it had grown enormously in strength and power.

If I used the shield through the journey, I could fix everything.

And most importantly, I could see my family one last time, on that last day, and end my life with theirs.

I never planned to outlive any one of my immediate family members, least of all my love, my mate, my husband.

Unfortunately, I was absolutely indestructible. Nothing worked. Nothing. Not abstaining from food, or for me, drink. Not fire, not shredding to pieces, not even the most powerful bombs known to man, absolutely nothing.

I wasn't the only one faced with this predicament on that infamous day.

Esme, Emmett, Alice, Jacob and myself were all this way. Our partners had all died for us, being slightly quicker than us to jump into the flames and their souls now guarded us. We were indestructible.

We all tried to jump in after them, trust me, but it didn't work. The fire wouldn't burn us, it felt like a hot blanket.

At first, Esme tried to convince us to live, that perhaps our mates would be reborn, that we would find them again. That kept us together, searching the world, looking, always looking. As the birth rate declined over the centuries, it became easier to see that no one was being born again. Each baby was a new soul, and held no resemblance to anyone we had seen in the past. Our perfect recall made us certain of this.

In the end, Jacob held on the longest, as his brain did not have perfect recall like the rest of us did. But the hope faded, in the end. Like it did for all of us.

After the first few millennia, we lost hope. Every single one of us was ready to go. Nothing held us to this Universe any more. We couldn't live near each other any more, as it went against the grain to help family end their lives. We made a pact to not leave Earth, when the opportunity arose. For every century or so, Esme would call us, to see if any one of us had come closer to something, anything, a way to the end. She wanted us to stay so she could still call us, even though they were old fashioned she liked having the link. Who were we to deny any ounce of happiness to this woman? We agreed to this, and parted ways. Esme was upset at us leaving but she knew she couldn't hold us together any more.

I lived in Europe, or what used to be Europe, and was now the "Center-North". Esme was in what used to be South America, I assumed on Isle Esme. Emmett was in what used to be North America, I think because hunting the bears there was his ounce of happiness. Alice lived in what used to be Southern Africa, and Jacob, somewhere in what used to be Northern Asia.

Jacob was different not only in that he was technically still human, but also in that he could still shape-shift. Not that he ever did anymore, for somewhere in the back of his head he held the hope that he would be able to age and die like a human. He never aged a second.

Let me know what you think!