Rose
He kisses me slowly. I kiss him right back. I love him. I know that now. But I can't stay. This Resistance, it's too much for me. It's where I lost Paige. It's where I 'fell in love' with someone who is in love with my best friend. Rey. That was a hard time for us. Fortunately Alderia, her twin showed me the truth. That I did not love Finn. I was in love with the idea of being in love with him.
"Ben." I say, on the verge of tears.
"Yes?"
"I have to go."
"What! Why? Where?"
"I can't take this anymore. I'm going back to where I grew up. The First Order won't bother us there anymore."
"You can't take what anymore?"
"This Resistance. It's too much." I start to leave, the tears slowly seeping out of my eyes and down my cheeks.
"Rose!" He shouts. "Please don't leave! I love you!"
"I love you too." I whisper that.
•••
Five months later, I'm happily chipping away at my latest project. I can't stop thinking about him though. But I'm away from all the sadness.
"Rose! There's someone here who wants to see you!" B, my boss, shouts.
"Send'em down!" I yell. "It's all safe!"
"Alrighty!"
"Rose." No. It can't be. But it is. I turn around and my worst nightmare/best dream is confirmed. The shoulder length black hair, the scar on his cheek his sister gave him, but most of all, the way he looks at me. My heart leaps.
"Ben. What are you doing here?"
"I came for you. I'm not going to give you up. I love you Rose."
"Ben." I plead.
"Stop." he holds up his hand. "You know what my sisters have. Rey with Finn. Alderia with Poe."
"Yes." Oh how I miss them.
"I want what they have. Someone to kiss hello. Someone to kiss goodnight. Someone to spend their time with and love. But I don't just want that. I want that with you."
I never knew he was so romantic. "But Ben, they're going to marry those guys. You and I both know that. They're already engaged."
"Actually, they already did get married." I missed Rey's wedding. My heart sinks. "I want everything they have, with you."
"Does that mean..."
"Yes." He gets down to one knee. A tiny sound escapes my tiny mouth. "Rose. I love you. More than anything. Please. Marry me."
I want to say yes. Everything in me says yes. But I say, "No." his face falls.
"I'm sorry, but I don't know you enough to marry you, Ben. I don't!" that's not the truth. I know it, and I hope he doesn't. He stands, and leaves, without another word. My heart breaks. I'm going to be without him, forever.