This actually is my first VA-FanFiction so please don't rip it apart too much! But to be honest, criticism is always very much welcome so feel free to reply …

Well, since I'm the absolute Rose and Dimitri fan, this story is just about them. Other characters are also having their play but not too much. Where this story might lead, I do not know yet. We'll see, won't we?

The story is set in the middle of the second book. Rosa finds out about Dimitri becoming Tasha's guardian. Right after the Christmas holidays in the mountains, Tasha and Dimitri leave for their new life together.

Well, enough said, let's start…

Of Pain, Suffering And Love

PROLOGUE

"Rose, can I talk to you for a minute?" Dimitri's deep voice still used to send shivers down my spine and made my heart race a little faster every time I hear it. He was standing so close behind me that I could smell his aftershave. A wonderful smell. I turned around to look at him. His dark brown eyes were distant which they had been very often lately and he had a small frown on his face.

"Yeah, sure." I answered, not so really sure if I wanted to know what was coming up.

He turned around and went to a nearby door which lead us outside. It was dark and the stars where twinkling in the black sky. It was a fantastic night to be romantic. But probably not for me. And not with Dimitri. And certainly not tonight.

"What is it you wanted to talk to me about?" I asked still gazing at the stars.

„I've decided ... I'll take the offer from Tasha and leave with her as her guardian." His voice was distant as if he would wait for my reaction.

But I wasn't in the state to say or do anything. I only felt my heart braking while I repeated the words over and over in my head as if I could find a hidden meaning. These few words made my world fall apart. Let it shatter like glass. Was there anything for me to say?

"I … I guess I have to congratulate. … I guess.", I stuttered totally so not knowing what else to say. I couldn't make myself feel happy. It just didn't work and I knew why. And Dimitri knew that as well as I did. There was just no more to say.

"Roza, … I know that this wasn't the decision you wanted to hear. You know how I feel about you … but with Tasha … It is the chance I will only get once in my life." He stepped closer to me and reached out to touch my shoulder. To turn me around so I would face him. I made a step aside and got out of his reach. His arm fell back at his side.

These words he has said to me didn't help me at all. And to cover the pain, I fell into a scheme, that has always helped me before: my sarcasm.

"Well, there is only one thing for me to do, right? I wish you two all the best." I looked in his dark eyes for the last time: "I hope you two will be happy!"

With that I turned around and stormed back into the lodge fighting really hard to keep back the tears.

"Roza, wait … !" His deeply pained voice was the last thing I heard from Dimitri Belikov.

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