Hello to anyone who decides to read this fic! Just a little note before you read my first ever SasuHina fic... I'm well aware my Sasuke is OC so make of that what you will... Also pls no hate in the reviews if you don't like the pairing don't read it! Im not making you :P
If you've decided you do want to read this fic however YAY! I've included a couple of songs in this fic to make it a little different to other's if you care to listen to the songs I've added then they're Evanescence - My Immortal. Gary Barlow - Dying Inside. Nashville Cast - I Will Never Let You Know and finally Alex and Sierra - Little Do You Know. 4 amazing songs that have helped me a great deal through my own grieving process! If you decide to listen to them let me know what you think in a review!
So...Welcome to my world of SasuHina and I hope you enjoy!
Kim xxx
Daily Life Prompt
"Well that's it for today everyone." Hinata sat as part of a circle in the room allocated to the grieving counselling meeting for the people of Konoha. Sakura had the idea when they had returned from the war just a couple of weeks ago. Since returning Hinata had become a shell of her former self, and judging by the amount of people in the room she wasn't the only one.
"For the duration of this course I would like you to keep a diary. I want you to write an entry every day include anything you want. The anger, the questions, even if you might not think its significant. Then at the end of the month, I want you to write a poem involving all those emotions." The counsellor told them handing out the bland black diaries that Hinata couldn't help but think how it mirrored her soul. Hinata clutched her's to her chest and walked home back to the Hyuga compound.
Grief had all but consumed her since returning to the village, she hardly ate or spoke to any of her friends no matter how hard she tried. She had always found she lacked confidence to talk when she was surrounded by her class mates, now with out Neji as part of the group she found she couldn't feel anything but loss. The love she once felt for Naruto was not necessarily gone but it was dulled compared to the grief she felt.
"Hinata!" Hinata stopped her strides and closed her eyes in pain.
"G-Good evening Naruto." She whispered looking to the floor seeing just his feet as he stood in front of her. When she noticed the second pair beside him she looked up puzzled and saw Sasuke Uchiha. "Sasuke."
"Hyuga." He nodded, the most greeting he'd ever given her that she could remember.
"It's late." Naruto commented. "Do you want us to walk you home?"
The whispering off Sasuke proclaiming he didn't want to didn't go unheard by Hinata.
"I'm perfectly fine thank you Naruto."
"We insist." Naruto continued ignoring his best friend. Hinata clenched her fists around her new diary, growing tired of people always thinking her weak and needing protection.
"I can walk myself home." Hinata managed to say through gritted teeth.
"Come on Hina-"
"I said I'm fine!" She shouted. Leaving behind a confused Naruto.
"She'll be fine Naruto." Sasuke sighed.
"Hinata's never shouted at me like that."
"Perhaps she's just tired."
"It's more than that. She lost her cousin who was like her older brother to her in the war protecting us." Naruto shoved his hands in his pockets and began to walk in the direction of his apartment. "Hey I have an idea. Why don't you help Hinata." Naruto said suddenly lighting up at his idea.
"And why would I do that Dobe?"
"Oh come on, who better than you to talk to her about loosing a brother."
"That's not happening."
"Don't be such a bastard -" That night Sasuke regretted ever agreeing to stay with Naruto.
Hinata sat at the table in one of the Hyuga rooms with a warm cup of tea beside her. Her sleep had been restless, like they always were now. She had flashbacks of the war, of Neji, of how his life could have been if he hadn't protected her.
Opening the diary she looked at the blank pages and picked up her pen. She might as well try this, it couldn't hurt any more than she was already feeling right? Thinking of the nightmares she wrote down the details of each one.
"Lady Hinata." A lady servant walked in. "Sasuke Uchiha is here to see you."
"Tell him I'm busy, thank you Natsu."
Hearing a commotion only moments later Hinata slide open the door to see Sasuke standing just on the other side.
"We need to talk."
"I-I."
Sasuke pushed his way past her and sat himself on the chair opposite the one she had just occupied.
"I won't be leaving until you hear me out, so I suggest you sit."
Hinata walked in a daze and sat in her original seat.
"Would you like some tea?" She asked automatically. Her training of being a good host to guests of the Hyuga household coming out before she even knew it. However before he could answer a group of Hyuga men came running into the room. The maid, Natsu, must have alerted them that Sasuke had gained entry without her permission.
"Lady Hinata!" Ko shouted.
"Your lady is fine, I pose no threat." Sasuke said rolling his eyes whilst grabbing himself a cup and pouring his own tea.
"I-I'm fine Ko I seem to have forgotten myself and Sasuke had an appointment this morning."
Ko frowned at the Uchiha not trusting him one bit.
"If you need us Lady Hina-"
"You heard her yourself. Your dismissed."
"Thank you Ko." Hinata gave him a small smile and nodded her head in assurance that she would call if she needed his assistance.
"What is this?" Sasuke scrunched up his face in disgust having tasted the tea.
"Calamine."
"Some on. We're going out."
"Why?"
"Look Hyuga. I promised Naruto I'd help you and to do that I need coffee."
"Help me?" She asked still puzzled.
"Naruto thinks, for some obscure reason, that I can help you with what you're going through."
"W-What if I don't want your help?"
"Then it's tough shit cos I made a promise to the Dobe and if I wonna actually sleep, which I do, he won't let me unless I help you. And believe me even if I moved out of his apartment and went to sleep somewhere else he'd come find me, I tried. So get your coat and let's go get a decent drink."
Grabbing himself a black coffee and a Chai latte for Hinata he sat down in a booth opposite her.
"So you're going to grieving counselling?" Hinata nodded whist siring her sugar in her drink.
"What?" she asked, Seeing his disgusted face.
"A latte with sugar? Don't you find it too sweet?"
"A black coffee? Don't you find that too bland and strong?"
"Touche."
"What?"
"Nevermind." Sasuke sighed. He forgets most ninja's handed explored the world like he had. "So what they got you doing at the counselling? Holding hands and shit?" Hinata giggled.
"No, thank Kami." She smiled. "We have to write down how we feel everyday in a diary and then write a poem at the end of the month."
"A poem? That's just as bad as holding hands." Sasuke scoffed. Hinata shrugged her shoulder's. "This is gonna be harder than I thought." Sasuke muttered. "Let me see this diary."
"No." Hinata protested. "It's- It's private."
"Hyuga I can't help if you don't let me see the damn diary." Begrudgingly Hinata handed the diary over to Sasuke. She felt her cheeks heat up seeing him read her first entry. This was the day their strange friendship started.
Over the weeks Hinata and Sasuke met at the coffee shop each morning, away from the prying eyes of the other Hyuga. Each morning Sasuke would read her entry and they would continue to get to know each other as if he hadn't looked in her diary. Hinata learnt a great deal about Sasuke, he despised fangirls almost as much as he hated sweet things. He seemed to like tomatoes although she wasn't 100% sure yet. He prided himself on his heritage, being an Uchiha. She knew these were little things to know about someone she met with with everyday considering they had been meeting for 3 weeks now however before these 3 weeks they hadn't spoken a word to each other, not that they could remember anyway. Also she had a feeling most people didn't get to know these little things that Sasuke was inadvertently letting her know about himself.
"Would you like to train with me?" Hinata asked shyly.
"I can defeat you easily." Sasuke stated. She knew he wasn't trying to show off, it was a fact, he could.
"I know. But I haven't trained since returning, and I thought -"
"Did you only ever train with-"
"Yes." Hinata interrupted. She knew he hated to be interrupted but she couldn't hear Neji's name without pain coursing through her. Sasuke watched her over his coffee, the shy blush covering her cheeks, how she would look at anything but him while she awaited his answer.
"You finished?" He pointed at her cup. Standing up seeing her nod he began to walk out the coffee shop. "Let's train then Hyuga."
"You're leaving yourself too open on your left side." Sasuke offered his hand to Hinata after hitting her again to the floor. The evening sun was beginning to set behind them now. Hinata was breathing hard, this was the most intense training she'd done, even before the war.
"We should stop. You've done well for today Hyuga."
Hinata brushed the grass off her knees upon standing.
"W-Will you come back and help me write the poem for tomorrow?"
"I'm not very good with that kinda felling stuff if you haven't guessed."
"I'll cook us a meal to thank you."
"Can you cook?"
"I'll guess you'll just have to find out." She smiled walking away. Sasuke's stomach grumbled making the decision for him.
"Hyuga, we'll go my place." Sasuke commanded grabbing hold of her arm and dragging her in the direction of an apartment complex. "I'll cook. You write."
"Can you cook?" She teased.
"I guess you'll just have to see." He smirked.
Sasuke opened the door to Naruto's small apartment and walked in to the kitchen opening cupboard after cupboard. Hinata gave a small smile seeing the obvious state the apartment was in, men's clothes were hanging off every surface, mainly orange but there were some navy shirts too. Sandals that were obviously kicked off lay in a pile beside the door, next to rather than on a shoe rack. Hearing Sasuke's grumbles coming from the open kitchen Hinata took a hesitant step towards the table.
"Well I hope you like instant ramen cos that's all the Dobe bought." Sasuke scoffed. "I tell him to go grocery shopping and he buys 40 instant ramen." Sasuke slammed two of the offending ramen pots down on the counter.
"Is there any veg in the fridge? We could always add some more veg and bulk it up a bit." Hinata offered. Hinata placed her diary on the table and opened the fridge door seeing a few onions and mushrooms.
"You tell me what to do while you write." Sasuke ordered. Hinata instructed him to chop up the veg she'd found in the fridge then to boil it with the flavouring sachets you get in the ramen pots. While Sasuke got on with that task, Hinata got on with hers of writing her poem.
Sasuke got to work with Hinata's instructions, however he wasn't the best of cooks, which he hated to admit, but desperate times such as this calls for desperate measures.
"Errr Hyuga, should it look like this?"
Hinata looked at him puzzled then walked over to the pot and couldn't help but giggle at the contents. The veg was all stuck to the bottom of the pan, some of it was burnt in places. Needless to say it was a mess.
"Did you pour water on the veg?" She inquired.
"When was I suppose to add water?"
"What else do you boil veg in?" Hinata couldn't help but laugh seeing the confused look on Sasuke's face. "So I guess I found out you're not a good cook then." She teased.
"I guess so." He said keeping his voice flat, trying to keep his embarrassment out of it. "So can you save it?"
"I think it's a lost cause. Maybe we should order in?"
"Did you at least get some of your poem wrote?"
Hinata nodded.
"Hey!" They both turned in the tiny kitchen to see Naruto walk into the apartment, kick his shoes off and throw his dirty jacket on the couch. "What the fuck is that smell?" Naruto asked seeming to not notice Hinata, which was made apparent when he went to take off his shirt.
"Oi Dobe!" Sasuke shouted, making Naruto look in the kitchen to see Hinata standing there. Sasuke could see how uncomfortable Hinata was becoming seeing Naruto strip off and decided to take action.
"Oh Hinata. What you guys up to?"
"Trying to rectify the fact you only bought ramen with money I gave you for groceries." Sasuke scowled.
"That's not what you meant?"
"Sakura's right. You are an idiot." Sasuke rolled his eyes and took Hinata's hand. "Come on Hyuga let's go eat somewhere else."
"I thought you were in love with him?" Sasuke asked, over his coffee. Hinata looked up from her caramel latte shocked, knowing full well who 'him' was. "I may not feel emotions Hyuga, but I can read them."
"It's not that." She whispered. "It's just, I find it. Hard." She sighed. "To feel anything other than missing..." She trailed off.
"I see. Does he know?"
"I have confessed before the war, but I never expected anything to become of it."
"He never gave you any hope that he felt the same way?" Hinata shook her head.
"During the war, when his father asked him who Sakura was to him he said his girlfriend." She looked at her uneaten cinnamon bun.
"He's an even bigger idiot than I thought." Sasuke sighed. "You need to eat to keep your strength up, if you want to keep training with me." This statement had his desired effect a moment later Hinata began eating again.
"Lady Hinata would you care to share with the group your poem?" The counsellor asked the following night. Hinata looked around the room of all the other people in the room, many of them had shared their poems.
"I-I hope you don't mind but mine is more of a song instead."
"I'm sure we would all love to hear it." The counsellor encouraged. Hinata gave a small nod and walked to the small piano that was located in the room. Hinata had been taught the piano from an early age by her mother. Her father had never seen a reason for her to learn but at times like these Hinata was glad of it. She was able to loose herself in the simple cords of the song. Sitting behind the piano she concentrated only on the keys and not on the eyes looking at her. Starting the intro of the song Hinata took a steadying breath and began to sing:
(Evanescence – My Immortal)
Sasuke was perched outside the window of the Hokage tower where the counselling session was taking place, he placed a genjutsu over Hinata so she could not see the people looking at her, he knew her shy personality. Hearing Hinata's haunting song brought back memories of himself and Itachi but it also made him proud hearing Hinata having the courage to sing, perhaps he was helping her after all? However what Sasuke didn't know was Hinata was aware she was under a genjutsu and how to escape it, after all her team sensei had been a genjutsu specialist. Hinata smiled knowing this genjutsu wasn't the work of her sensei but of Sasuke Uchiha, maybe she wasn't as quite alone as she had thought?
During their second month of their 'get togethers', they had yet to define them a name. Hinata found herself opening up more about her everyday feeling to Sasuke. He never judged her when she became angry, instead he made he channel her aggregation in training. When she was depressed, he would buy he a cinnamon bun or anything sweet to cheer her up at least for a little while.
Hinata lay in bed the nightmare taking over her dreams again. She stood in the middle of the battle field the only survivor. All around she saw the faces of her beloved friends; Kiba, Shino, Ino, Tenten to name but a few all with their in pure agony. The ground was a sea of red, of red blood, their blood. Hinata looked at her shaking hands covered in the offending red.
"It's your fault Hinata." The ghost or Neji began to walk towards her on the sea of blood. His white trousers and bare feet staining red. "They all died protecting you." He sneered, coming closer. "The pathetic Hyuga princess." He whispered in her ear. "The weak Hyuga princess that let's people die for her."
"No Neji I didn't mean to." She sobbed. The pain of her guilt making her fall to floor.
"I died protecting a weak leader."
"I never wanted you to die for me."
"But I did!" He shouted standing above her. "And now you'll pay!"
Hinata woke with a start. She felt her heart beating impossibly fast, her covers clung to her cold sweat drenched skin and she felt the warm tears streaming down her face with out her being able to control them to stop. Running out of bed she grabbed her jacket and opened her window. Using her Byakugan she navigated her way past the Hyuga guards and ran to the only person who could possibly calm her down.
Sasuke and Naruto were sat on the couch playing some stupid ninja game, they did this most nights late into the night, which was probably why Sasuke always found himself needing coffee when meeting Hinata.
"HA! You can't even beat me in a game." Naruto taunted. Sasuke just shoved his friend with his foot causing Naruto to lose his concentration and giving him the opportunity to kill Naruto's character on screen. "You bastard that's cheati-" Naruto stopped hearing the knocking at the door. "I demand a rematch." Naruto declared opening the door. Naruto looked to see Hinata in some three quarter length jogging pants and clutching a violet and cream jacket to herself. "Hinata?" He whispered.
"I." She began. But seeing Sasuke stand up off the couch behind Naruto she stepped past him and ran to the Uchiha and began to sob. "I'm-I'm sorry." She tried to get out between sobs. Naruto just watched on as the guy he once thought emotionless and uncaring dropped his game controller and placed an arm around Hinata.
"Nightmares?" He asked her. Sasuke felt rather than saw Hinata nod. Looking at Naruto he indicated with his head to give them some privacy. Naruto left baffled by not only Hinata's arrival at such an hour and her state but at his suddenly caring best friend.
"Hyuga I have to warn you, you've come to the worst possible guy to cry on." Sasuke stated after a few minutes of hearing her cry.
"Why?" She asked, still crying on his shirt.
"I don't know how to handle girls and their...emotions." Hinata couldn't help the little laugh that escaped her lips and backed away.
"Oh Your shirt." She stated seeing the wet patch she'd left from her crying. "I'll wash it and buy you a new." She promised.
"It's not important." Sasuke sat on the couch patting the space beside him for Hinata to sit. "Tell me everything." So she did.
Just over an hour later Naruto quietly walked into the lounge area. He'd been fighting with himself if he should or not, but curiosity was killing him, and if Sasuke said anything to him he could always claim he wanted a drink of water right? What he didn't expect to find was Hinata and Sasuke laying on the couch sound asleep, Hinata was lay so she had her head leaning on Sasuke's chest and her body tucked under his arm and both Sasuke's arms wrapped around her as if to shield her from the world.
"Hyuga where are you dragging me?" Sasuke rolled his eyes. Feeling her small hand around his he knew he could stop her from dragging him anywhere but seeing her this joyous he found himself unable to do so.
"I know you were there when I sang during my counselling.-"
"I-"
"And now you've heard me sing so I think it only fair I get to hear you."
"Hyuga." Sasuke stopped his feet slamming Hinata in front of him. "There's no way I'm singing. I don't do that shit."
"But you heard me." Hinata faced him still holding his hand. "It's just for me Sasuke. You can place a genjutsu on the room so now one will know it's you. I won't tell anyone I promise."
"I can't... sing." Sasuke looked around the corridor they were standing in making sure no one was in ear shot of them.
"All the same I'd like to hear you. Please Sasuke."
"Puppy dog eyes won't work on me Hyuga." Sasuke began to walk away from her.
"If-If you don't I'll tell everyone what we did the other night." Sasuke stopped in his tracks , hearing the gasps of people in the corridor around them. Sasuke turned slowly around to face the Hyuga woman with her smug look. She knew she had won when Sasuke looked at the people in the corridor looking between himself and Hinata. By her words they had assumed something more intimate had happened between himself and Hinata, what they didn't know was Hinata had actually been talking about how she had finally won in a spar against him. And what she didn't know is the only reason she had won is because Sasuke had found himself distracted by her long midnight hair blowing around her.
"Fine." Sasuke caved.
Hinata lead Sasuke into the counselling room and towards the piano and pulled out her diary from her back pocket. Sasuke sighed and grabbing a chair sat beside her.
"I'll play and you sing ok?"
"Do I have a choice?"
"No." Hinata giggled. Sasuke smirked and rolled his eyes.
"You tell anyone about this and I'll kill you." He joked.
"I know." Hinata smiled. "You ready?" Sasuke nodded.
Hinata began the the simple cords and nodded when Sasuke was to start.
(Gary Barlow – Dying Inside).
How can I make sure no one notices me?
I don't wanna conversation with nobody.
And it hurts too much to say how I feel,
What you don't know, is all I know.
How can I make sure that I fool everyone?
Gonna wear a suit and tie and put my bravest face on.
And it's far too deep to show you this wound,
No it won't heal no time soon.
Nobody knows, what I'm going through.
[Chorus]
I'm dying inside.
Who knows what I'm thinking?
What I'm trying to hide.
Yeah I'm dying all night.
I'm breathing but I can't feel life.
I'm smiling but I'm dying inside.
How can I make sure I'm invisible?
Or find just a simple phrase that may say it all?
Cos it's far too soon and not the right time,
What I've seen, was for my eyes.
And how can I make sure no one worries for me?
'Cos I don't need a helping hand and don't want sympathy.
Don't know what I need, but know what I don't.
What you can't see, it feels so broke.
That you can't see, is how I'll cope.
[Repeat chorus]
Want everyone around to think that I'm alright.
Hope they assume I've left the dark and found the light.
Want them to think that I don't cry myself to sleep at night.
[Repeat chorus]
Hinata played the last cord, she'd been watching Sasuke sing the whole song and found herself close to tears. She had been right, the song which she'd wrote for her, he knew how she felt too.
Sasuke and Hinata had become the talk of the village, their friendship was starting to make the villagers question if their friendship was just that. Kiba and Shino, Hinata's former team mates, couldn't believe their ears when they had heard the baker telling his wife that he'd heard Hinata himself all but confirm Sasuke and Hinata had been intimate. This reason alone was why Kiba and Shino were prepared to search the whole village for Hinata. They were going to confront her and damn well demand she tell them the truth. They had been trying to give her space since after the war and everything that had happened with Neji. Now Kiba regretted that decision immensely.
"Yo Naruto!" Kiba called through down the main road, seeing their orange clad friend just a bit in front of them.
"Hey kiba!" Naruto called back.
"Forgotten again." Shino grumbled.
"You seen Sasuke?" Kiba asked stopping in front of Naruto.
"Er yeah. Him and Hinata are training at our usual training ground." Kiba and Shino ran off. "Oi! Why?" Naruto called. "Wait for me!"
"Come on Hyuga again!" Sasuke shouted. Hinata rolled her eyes feeling exasperated at the silly exercise Sasuke had her doing.
"Why must you call me that?"
"Cos it's your name. Now again."
"No my name is Hinata. You only call me Hyuga cos you can't remember my name and the reason you know my last name is Hyuga is cos of my eyes."
"Just hit the damn water Hyuga." Hinata sighed, knowing when to defeat and when to stand her ground when it came to Sasuke and his stubbornness.
"I don't see what good this is doing." She grumbled doing as he'd commanded.
"Cos no one will suspect a Shinobi who's good at archery."
"But I'm not."
"Not yet." Sasuke corrected.
"Sasuke this is ridiculous."
"I don't remember you complaining this much during the academy. Fine get up. You don't think this is doing anything but I'll prove it." Sasuke instructed her to pick up the bow he had brought with him at the start of the month. The one Hinata had yet to have the strength to be able to pull back to its full potential.
"Get the arrow ready." Hinata did as she was told and felt Sasuke stand behind her correcting her stance. She felt his breath on her neck and trying not to react to the goosebumps it caused she pulled the bow string back. Hinata was shocked she was able to bring it back to the desired place, with the string held between her three middle fingers and up to the corner of her lips.
"Breath." Sasuke whispered in her ear. "And when you have your target release the bow."
"Oi!" Sasuke looked behind him to see two guys, who looked to be about his age and Naruto at the rear. Seeing The marking on the front guys face he digressed he could be no other than part of the Inuzuba clan. The guy after him looked rather weird in his sunglasses and trench coat making it impossible to see all of his face at one given time.
"Get away from Hinata!" The Inuzuba shouted drawing nearing to Sasuke.
"Who are you?" Sasuke asked, hating to be interrupted during training. Hinata never warned him she had admirers.
"Arse hole! I'm Kiba and this is Shino we're Hinata's team mates." Sasuke went to look away until he felt a punch to his jaw. "Oi I'm talking to you Uchiha bastard."
"I did it." Hinata whispered. "Look Sasuke, look!" Hinata shouted pointing to the arrow having hit the target. Turning around to see Kiba with his fists clenched and Sasuke with a cut and bleeding lip.
"Kiba? What did you do?" She asked puzzled dropping the bow and turning standing in front of Sasuke and placing her hands on either side of his face to inspect his lip.
"Is it true?" Kiba asked through gritted teeth. Seeing Hinata tending to the Uchiha.
"Is what true?" Hinata looked in her backpack grabbing a clean piece of cloth and placing it on Sasuke's lip.
"Hyuga I don't have a glass jaw." Sasuke rolled his eyes at her.
"Do you want your lip to swell up? Just let me tend to it please." Sasuke nodded his head at her and placed a hand on top of her's adding more pressure to stop the bleeding. Turning her head she looked to see Naruto, Kiba and Shino watching her tend to Sasuke. "Explain to me what the hell is going on Kiba."
"Are you or are you not in love with Sasuke Uchiha?"
"I-I." Hinata didn't understand where this was coming from, but found herself angry at him for asking. Shino and kiba had all but abandoned her after the war. "That it none of your business." She finally got out over coming her shock.
"So it's true?"
"Why would I tell you if I was or not, it's been 3 months since we've returned and this is the first time you have both come to seek me out."
"We-We had our reasons." Kiba looked at the ground feeling guilt wash over him. "We thought you'd want to be with your family...Not hanging around with him."
"Hyuga you should go talk to your team." Sasuke advised. Hinata searched Sasuke's eyes for what she didn't know and finally slipped her hand out from under Sasuke's and nodded her head.
"I'll come round tonight to check on that though." Indicating his lip and picking up her bag she left with Kiba and Shino.
"So are you in love with Hinata?" Naruto asked.
"Why? Are you?" Sasuke avoided.
Hinata sat at the paino again ready to sing at the counselling session again. What she wasn't aware of this time was Sasuke sitting outside the window. Learning his lesson from the previous time he decided not to place a genjutsu on her. Hearing her sing her song he couldn't help but join in the parts he remembered reading in her diary that evening:
(Nashville – I Will Never Let You Know).
(Hinata)
I will hold my head up high,
You will never see me cry.
I'll smile and say I'm good,
But I will fall apart if I could.
(Both)
I'm inside out shot through the centre,
Feel this scar of where you entered,
Took my life and turned it upside down.
I'm burned to ashes split down the middle,
If anyone asks it hurt just a little.
I died inside the day I let you go,
But I will never let you know.
(Hinata)
All this time the sky was a liar,
They say that the moon don't shine,
It's just the light from a star,
Well maybe that's the way we are.
(Both)
I'm inside out shot through the centre,
Feel this scar of where you entered,
Took my life and turned it upside down.
Well I'm burned to ashes split down the middle,
If anyone asks it hurt just a little.
I died inside the day I let you go,
But I will never let you know.
I'm burned to ashes split down the middle,
And if anyone asks it hurt just a little,
I died inside the day I let you go.
But I don't want to let you,
I cannot forget you.
I will never let you know.
Hinata sat on the bar stool. she had been tricked, and she'd fallen for it stupidly. She sighed to herself, she was so gullible. Hinata had been training with Sasuke just that afternoon when Ino had come running up the hill claiming she needed Hinata. At first Hinata was hesitant but when Ino had all but guilt tripped her by saying how they never got to see her anymore and how much Ino and their friends wanted to spend time with her Hinata had agreed to go. Now a few hours later she found herself dressed in provocative clothing, that wasn't her's! With make up caked all over her face and sat in a club with Sakura, Ino and Tenten.
The music was playing so loudly she couldn't hear herself think, just to have a conversation she had to shout over the music.
"So what's going on with you and Sasuke?!" Ino asked (shouted). Hinata had been dreading this question because actually she didn't know herself. At first she had been meeting with Sasuke out of habit and he was helping her. Now? Now she had been noticing herself feeling...things for the Uchiha that were more than friendship. The other reason she had been dreading this question was she didn't want to hurt her dear friend Sakura. Everyone knew Sakura was madly in love with Sasuke and if Hinata being in love with him hurt her friend she didn't know if she could ever be in a relationship with him. Seeing a friend hurt because of her made her feel guilty and she already felt she had enough guilt on her hands.
"We're- We're just friends." Hinata awkwardly answered.
"Really? Cos I've never know Sasuke willingly spend time with anyone other than Naruto." Tenten looked puzzled. Hinata looked at Sakura to see her down her drink.
"It's not like that." Hinata looked down at her own drink and downed her own too. "I need a drink." She stated walking away to the bar.
"How can someone with the all seeing Byakugan be so blind?" Ino laughed to Tenten and Sakura. It was then Ino realised her pink haired friend was hurting. "Sakura, I'm so sorry."
"It's fine." Sakura slammed her glass on the table. Looking around she saw Sasuke walk through the door of the club. She watched as her surveyed the club and found his target: Hinata. Sakura could take no more! Hinata had yet to notice Sasuke so Sakura stood and walking between the large amount of bodies positioning herself in line of Sasuke making his way towards Hinata.
"Fancy seeing you here?" Sakura smiled seductively at him.
"Sakura." He nodded. "Are you drunk?"
"Not drunk enough." She smiled and leaning towards him she dangled her arms over his shoulder's.
"Sakura, I'm not in the mood for games." He grabbed hold of her arms and tried moving them off him without hurting her.
"What if I want to play with you?" The dirty undertone of her insinuation didn't go amiss by Sasuke.
"Sakura." He growled moving her off him and barging past her.
"She loves Naruto you know!" Sakura shouted angrily. "She'll never love you like I do!" Moving in front of him again she forced his head down and kissed him.
Hinata turned around to see if her friends also wanted a drink. Seeing the shocked looks on Tenten's and Ino's faces looking to their left Hinata followed the direction of their gaze. Seeing Sasuka and Sasuke kissing Hinata gasped. Feeling tears form in her eyes Hinata swallowed trying keep in her emotions. Turning to grab her purse she looked around for the nearest exit.
Sasuke pushed Sasuka off him in disgust. How dare she force herself upon him. How dare she -
"Hinata?! Where are you going?" Sasuke heard Tenten shout. Then seeing Hinata push the fire exit door open and escape out of his sight.
"Stay the fuck away from me Sakura or so help me I will kill you for real this time." He threatened.
Hinata ran. Running through the cold night air she dared not stop in case her friends were following her. She had no idea where she was heading, she couldn't go home looking like this. She was suppose to be staying at Sakura's but that plan was well and truly out the window. Her feelings had all but been confirmed like a slap in the face. A cold hard and painful slap when she'd seen Sasuke and Sakura kissing. When she had started to fall for him she didn't know, could you ever pin point the exact moment you fall in love with some one?
"Hyuga!" Hinata glanced behind her. Even though she knew his voice, even though she knew only he called her that. Knowing it was futile to run away him, he could sense her from anywhere no matter how much she hid her chakra. "Why'd you run?"
"I saw you." Hinata quickly wiped the offending tears off her face. "I saw you kissing her."
"She kissed me." Sasuke shoved his hands in his pockets.
"And you happened to be kissing her back?"
"No! I pushed her off. She means nothing to me."
"And I do?"
"I-Well." Sasuke looked to floor. "I care for you Hinata."
Hinata gasped and took a step closer to him.
"Say it again?" She pleaded.
"I care for you." Sasuke blushed.
"No." Hinata smiled. "My name."
Sasuke smirked and wrapping his arms around her small waist. He moved her hair over her shoulder and whispered in her ear. "Hinata." Then delicately kissed her neck.
"Sasuke." Hinata whispered taking a step back. As much as she wanted this she couldn't do it knowing this would hurt Sakura. "I need a little more time."
Sasuke nodded, holding her hands in his.
"I'll wait as long as it takes." He kissed her forehead.
"Why did you come to the club?" She asked.
"To save you. I knew you'd hate it in there. Ino isn't very discrete with her plans so I found out off Sai and the thought of other guys looking at you made me...It doesn't matter...You look a mess." Hinata laughed and nodded in agreement. "Come on let's go back to mine and you can get changed out those revolting clothes and get that shit off your face." Hinata blushed at the innuendos. "Not like that Hyuga." He flicked her fore head.
Sasuke sat in the coffee shop while Hinata ordered their usual drinks, looking at her last entry in her diary he smiled reading her confession of her feelings but also of how she still felt guilty that she got live and Neji did not. Reading further down he read how she was hesitant to start a relationship with him knowing it would hurt Sakura. Slamming the diary closed not wanting to read anymore the image of killing Saukra crossing his mind. Sasuke watched Hinata make her way over to their booth with their drinks.
"You seemed to sleep better last night." Sasuke smirked seeing her blush.
"Mmm." She agreed looking over her cup at him.
"No nightmares?" Hinata shook her head still blushing. "Why would you think that is?" He teased. Hinata kicked him under the table and they both laughed.
"You know I never have nightmares when I sleep at your apartment, maybe it's cos of Naruto's presence." She teased.
"Er Hinata." Sakura approached their table sheepishly. "Can I talk to you in private please?" Hinata hesitated then slowly placing her cup on the table she stood and nodded her head. Sasuke watched as Hinata and Sakura walked out the coffee shop with Sakura doing most of the talking. She seemed to be explaining something to Hinata. After some time Hinata gave her a small smile, nodded and they hugged.
"What was that about?" Sasuke asked when Hinata returned and sat back back down, thankfully without Sakura
"Sakura just wanted to apologise for last night and...Give me her blessing." Hinata smiled.
"About?"
"It's nothing." Sasuke nodded letting it slid.
Sasuke and Hinata spoke the rest of the morning about her last session of counselling that was happening at the end of the week. Hinata had been struggling with her last song. She had found it so easy to write when she was depressed but now she was feeling more herself than she'd felt in a long time, the writing was suffering from her happiness.
"I can't do it!" Hinata threw her diary at the wall later that night in Sasuke's and Naruto's apartment. Sasuke picked up the diary and threw back on the kitchen table.
"What have you got so far?"
"Nothing." Hinata sighed banging her head on the table.
"Maybe I can help?"
"I thought you said you're not good at this stuff."
"I never said it would be good." Sasuke stated sitting beside her. "Hyuga you got this. If you can get through a war you can write a damn song." Sasuke reached over and squeezed her nearest hand. Hinata tuned her head, still resting on the table and smiled.
"Thank yo-" The door to the apartment flew open and Sasuke's hand quickly retreated from Hinata's like it was burning him.
"Hey guys." Naruto gave them a small smile while kicking his shoes off and throwing his jacket over the chair. "What you up to?"
"Nothing much, you?" Sasuke inquired seeing his friend in an unusual state.
"Nothing." Naruto sighed sitting on a chair next to Hinata. Hinata watched as Naruto looked blankly at the table then looking to Sasuke she noticed his serious expression.
"I'm just gonna go and sit on the couch and write." She offered giving the two friends chance to talk. Waiting till Hinata was out of ear shot Sasuke flicked his friends forehead.
"Dobe, what's going through that peanut size head of yours?"
"Huh? Oh nothing."
"I'm not idiot like you, you can't fool me that easily."
"Its just... Don't get mad ok? You love don't you?" Sasuke stared at his best friend with a blank face.
"It's a little early to be talking love don't you think?" He started.
"But... I've never seen you like this with a girl. I mean you let her sleep next to you -"
"You jealous?" Sasuke joked.
"No! But You care. More than I've ever seen you care about any one or anything."
"Are you asking me or telling me I'm in love?"
"Don't be such a wise arse. I know that's you defence mechanism. Can't you just say yes or no?"
"It wouldn't matter if I did. Hinata isn't ready for a relationship."
"You've talked about it?!"
"Keep your voice down." Sasuke spoke through gritted teeth. "Look why are you asking me this? Would you have a problem if, and I mean IF we did have certain feelings for each other. Cos if you would have a problem with it you know I wouldn't date her."
"Awww look my Sasuke-Kun has grown a heart." Naruto joked using his finger and thumb to pinch Sasuke's cheeks.
"Get off me." Sasuke pushed him lightly. "I'm being serious."
"I know." Naruto looked from Sasuke to Hinata sat on the couch tapping her pen on her diary then back to Sasuke watching her with a small smile on his face. "I had my chance with Hinata and I let her slip through my finger's. You cherish her like she deserves. Hinata has been through a lot while you were out of the village at the hands of her own family. And then the war happened. You make her happy, and she makes you happy and that's all I want for my friends. So don't let me be a reason you're not together."
"Well good. I thought I'd have to have a secret relationship with her for a minute there." Sasuke joked.
"You're a bastard." Naruto laughed.
"You're an idiot." Sasuke replied getting up from the chair and walking to sit beside Hinata. Naruto watched as the pair smiled at one another keeping their eye contact for what seemed like a long time. Sasuke pulled the black book on to his lap while he placed an arm around her shoulder's and absent-mindedly played with a stand of her hair. Hearing Hinata giggle at something Sasuke had said, then Hinata flicked Sasuke on his ear and laughed when Sasuke threw the book on the space beside him and began to tickle her uncontrollably. Naruto smiled to himself and couldn't help but think how he hoped he could find that kind of happiness, one day.
"Why'd you bring me here?" Hinata asked to Sasuke taking a step in the counselling room. Since this morning Sasuke had been acting rather strange. When Hinata had gone to lift her diary off the coffee table, since she had slept with Sasuke on the couch at the apartment again, Sasuke had quickly grabbed her diary and placed it in his back pocket telling her she wasn't allowed to see it.
"I told you I'd help you with this...song thing. So while you were sleeping last night, I finished it." Hinata's face lit up the whole room with her smile. "Look I'm not saying it's good or anything but..." He trailed off.
"I can't believe you did this for me?" Hinata whispered.
"There's more." Sasuke gulped. "I got a guy to come play for us. He knows the bit I wrote, so you need to inform him of how you envisioned your part then we can sing it...together." Moment's later, as if on cue one of the villagers walked in with a guitar on his back. In fact Hinata knew him, he was the bakers son where she bought her cinnamon buns from.
"This is so exciting." The excitable teen walked over shaking both Sasuke's and Hinata's hands. "I mean working with THE Sasuke Uchiha and Hinata Hyuga."
"That's very sweet of you Toshio." Hinata blushed.
After formalities and once all three were settled. Hinata instructed Toshio the cords she wished to use for her part although she would be starting it off on the piano. Sasuke wasn't really musically trained so Toshio assured him he'd follow Sasuke's lead.
"Do you remember the words you wrote?" Sasuke whispered in Hinata's ear. Hinata looked at him puzzled and nodded. "Good." Sasuke pulled the diary from his back pocket and opened it to the desired page. "When it get's to my part stand beside me, so you can read what I wrote for us to sing together.."
"ok?" Hinata sat at the piano while Toshio sat on a stool next to her and Sasuke stood on her other side. Once they all felt ready Hinata began:
(Alex and Sierra – Little Do You Know).
(Hinata)
Little do you know,
How I'm breaking while you fall asleep.
Little do you know,
I'm still haunted by the memories.
Little do you know,
I'm trying to pick myself up piece by piece.
Little do you know,
I need a little more time.
(Hinata stood away from the piano and as Sasuke asked she stood beside him. Seeing his shaking hand Hinata held on to it and gently squeezed it. Why was he so nervous? She thought. It's not like she hadn't heard him sing before).
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside.
I've been holding back for the fear that you might change your mind.
I'm ready to forgive you but forgetting is a harder fight.
Little do you know,
I need a little more time.
(Sasuke took a steadying breath. He couldn't believe he was doing this! He turned to Hinata to watch her reaction to his words).
(Sasuke)
I'll wait, I'll wait,
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait.
I promise you don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait.
The love is here and here to stay,
So lay your head on me.
(He gave Hinata a small squeeze of her hand hearing her gasp when he'd told her he loved her).
Little do you know,
I know you're hurting while I'm sound asleep.
Little do you know,
All my mistakes are slowly drowning me.
Little do you know,
I'm trying to make it better piece by piece.
(Sasuke moved the book so it was in-between them and Hinata could read the lyrics he'd wrote for them).
Little do you know,
I, I love you 'til the sun dies.
(Both)
Oh wait, just wait,
I love you like I've never felt the pain,
Just wait.
I love you like I've never been afraid,
Just wait.
Our love is here and here to stay.
So lay your head on me.
I'll wait (I'll wait), I'll wait (I'll wait)
I love you like you've never felt the pain,
I'll wait (I'll wait)
I promise you (I) don't have to be afraid,
I'll wait.
The love is here and here to stay,
So lay your head on me.
Lay your head on me.
So lay your head on me.
(Sasuke)
'Cause little do you know,
I, I love you 'til the sun dies.
"Holy. Crap!" Toshio sprang up off his stool. "That was amazing! You guys could be famous...well more famous than you already are."
Saskue and Hinata were in their own world looking at one another.
"I've done making you wait." Hinata whispered. Taking a step towards Sasuke and standing on tip toes she placed her arms around his neck and spread her fingers through his hair. Sasuke felt the shiver run down his back feeling her hands in his hair and gently touched one of her cheeks.
"I'm done waiting." Sasuke whispered in her ear.
Hinata moved her head so their foreheads were touching the others and their moths were in line with one another breathing in the others air. They each closed the gap their lips brushing against each other, then Sasuke wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled Hinata hard against him. Their lips and bodies were so close their was no gap between them. Sasuke's other hand gently held Hinata's head in place as he began to open his mouth a little, Hinata copied his movements allowing Sasuke to sneak his tongue against her's. Sasuke didn't like sweet things, or at least so he'd thought, but that had been before he had tasted Hinata's sweet tongue gliding against his. This sweet taste he found he could get addicted to and fast. Sasuke and Hinata broke their kiss, with them still touching foreheads they both breathed heavily against the other.
"Where's Toshio?" Hinata whispered.
"That's what you're thinking about after that?" Sasuke smirked. "He left when we started-"
"I love you." Hinata interrupted him and jumping up wrapping her legs around Sasuke's waist and carrying on where they left off.