I do not own Law and order is my first fanfic and be aware that English is not my mother tongue, so please bare with me. Thank you. Oh, and I love Nick Amaro...
I won't give up
Chapter 1- A night out
I was so excited for my friend Bobby, he worked so hard and he finally got the job he wanted at Special victims unit. He was on the force for about seven years, so it was a «tour the force» to get that promotion as fast as he did. But, then again, I always knew he was really talented at his job and he proved it one more time.
We were friends since I was three and he was six and we always got each other back…Except, when I pushed him away years ago…But, when he learned why he understood, I think, and he promised me he would never let me be get hurt again. I know he feels responsible but he shouldn't and I won't let him be my bodyguard 24/7. After all, he has his life to live and I want him to be happy, find a wife, have some kids of his own…The whole nine yards, he deserves it. In my heart, I believe he became a cop in part because of what happened to me and then, he discovered it was his true 's just a feeling though, he never told me that in so many words but we know each other so well that I can feel it. Now, becoming a detective at this squad is a dream come true for both of us. I know he will be able to do some good out there to these victims that don't always have a voice. Plus, the reputation of that gal, Olivia Benson, makes it attractive to , I have a feeling she could give my best friend a run for his money. We, women, like to let men prove themselves before giving them the green light. If this Olivia lives up to her reputation, Bobby will have to work harder than he ever did to meet her standard…I can't wait for that to happen!I'll be the first to admit, my Bobby can be so full of himself sometimes, so some humility will be good for my buddy.
Suddenly, my cell phone rings and I see my best friend's name on the screen. It's almost 10 o'clock at night and my kids are asleep so I rush to answer.
«Hello Bobby, you are calling late tonight.I thought you would be tired after your first week at work.»
«Bella Christina, how are you sweetheart?»
Hum…ok he sounds a bit tipsy..Where the hell is he?
«Well, Darling (sarcastic tone), I am reading a book while my children are sleeping and…»
«Can you come and pick me up?I don't think I can drive tonight…I just celebrated my …(background noise)…with my co-workers and…»
I cut him off because I know him and when he's like this, he can talk, talk, talk…
«Of course, Maria will look after the children. Give me the directions and I'll be there as soon as I can.»
I guess he will be crashing at my place like he often does…Not sleeping with me, but at my place. Some people don't understand how can a man and a woman can be best friends without crossing the line…Why do people think sex has to be involve in a relationship between a man and a woman? We just find it funny and we let these persons think what they want…After all, it's nobody's business wether we sleep together or not.
As I drive to the address Bobby gave me, I feel a certain tension because I will meet his co-workers. I wasn't expecting it and, frankly, tonight I would have prefer to stay at home…Ah, well when your friend needs you, sometimes, you do things just for them.I arrive at the pub where Bobby is at with his colleagues and I find a parking lot, wich is very difficult considering it's Friday and people are out in town …So, I walk over there and I find that it's nice Irish pub with a band playing a music I enjoy. I promise myself to come back another time. As I am looking around, someone comes behind and put his hands on my hips. I turn around, a bit startle when I realize it's Bobby who is laughing because he knew I don't to be touch like that…I Laugh too as I was preparing to scare away the jerk who made me jump…I can't be angry at him for playing a trick on me, we do it all the time.
«Chris, I want you to meet my fellow detectives at the svu.»
I make a face because I don't really feel like but, because he's my best pal, I follow him. As we walk over there, I see six pairs of eyes staring at us and I suddendly feels unconfortable.I have never like this kind of attention, the opposite of Bobby who likes to be front and center. I look around and my eyes meet the one of his colleagues, a really really handsome latino guy with the most amazing eyes I've seen in a long time. I am glad that the light is dark enough so he can't see me blush. I feel my cheeks on fire and my heart starts pumping a little bit too fast for my taste. What in the world is happening to me? I have not felt like this in a long time, not since…
«Chris, where are you darling?,» Bobby ask with a teasing tone.
«Well, sweetheart, you talk so much I almost felt asleep,» I tell him. Everyone laughs and I suddenly feel less tense. I am avoiding the hot guy's look as I am afraid he will see how unconfortable he makes me feel.
-«Chris, this is my boss Captain Cragen.»
-«Nice to meet you,» I reply.
The captain makes a small smile before he says : «Well, Roberto, you never mentioned you have such a nice girlfriend.» I must look horrified because Bobby starts laughing and nobody's understand why.
«Don't tell her that captain, she might bite.»
«Stop it, I have manners contrary to someone I know.» I turn around and says to his boss : «We are best buddies, but dating, nah, I would have to be really desesperate.»
A blond woman smiles and shakes my hand.
_ «I am glad a woman is not falling for Roberto,» she says. I am Amanda Rollins». I take her hand and smile back at ther. She seems nice and direct, wich I like very much.
«Ya, I know, Bobby thinks he's irresistable but I know better. In fact, we go way back when…»
«Chris, don't tell lies about how we met.»
«What lies? That you tried to make me eat sand and how you didn't succeed.»
«Ya, I still got a mark from the kick you gave me…»
An older man, a detective I suppose walks towards me with smirk on his looks amuse by this little banter.
«-It's nice to see another side of Bobby, he has been so serious on the job. Especially with the perp we catched .»
I must looks confused because he adds quickly : -«The man had rape his own daugthers and Bobby looked like he took it pretty hard.»
I glace fast at my friend and our eyes meet, we understand each other without saying a word. I regain my composure fast though.
«I know, this man can be passionate about his case but he should learn to let it go sometimes.»
«-You are right about that, »Olivia add before holding her hand to me. –«Nice meeting you,» she says.
I shake her hand and she smiles at me before adding
«So, you and Bobby met a long time ago?»
«Yes, we met when I was three, wich means we have know each other for a quarter of a century…»
«Wow, she goes, that's a long time.» SHe turns around and says to Bobby : «You didn't tell us that.»
Bobby replies :« Well, we haven't had time to discuss it this week but I'll tell you all about my dear friend and the things we did when we were younger…»He turns around to look at me with a smirk on his face. Gosh, he can be a real pain in the ass when he wants to.
The only one who hasn't talk to me is the cute guy, but I when I look up I catch him glaring intensly at , I think to myself, I have to look normal, just breethe, you can do this…My god, I feel like I am 15 and met my love Dany…It feels like a century even if it's been only 13 years..What's happening to me? I don't ever want to go that path again, not ever again. I must regain control of myself.
The man moves his hand towards me and says : - «Since Bobby won't introduce us, I will do it myself. I am Nick Amaro.» I take his hand, trying to appear in control but, instead, I know he thinks I am cold…A cold bitch. This is what happens when I don't want people to see through me…wich happens quite often.
«Nice meeting you Nick. » then, I turn around.
-«So Bobby, are you ready to go?» Nick is taken back because I greeted his co-workers much better than him but I can't help myself…If I don't get out of there fast, I won't be able to appear in control. I don't want him to see my cheeks go red. Bobby is not foul, oh no, he stares at me with a grin. I want to smack him but I can't because I know he will make a remark that will embarass me. So, instead, I bite my tongue and he follows me outside. We walk side by side without saying a word.
I am lost in my thoughts. For the love of me, I can't quite understand why this Nick Amaro had this effect on me…After all, there's a lot of cute guys in New York but something about him made me feel like a schoolgirl. I still imagine his beautiful eyes staring intensely at me, as if he were undressing me…I feel hot having these thoughts, I must regain some control over me. Bobby walks besides me without saying a word, he knows me and he wants to give me some space. But, after a few minutes he can't help himself.
-«You know, Nick is divorced, his wife left him to take a job in Washington.»
I glaced at him with a cold look (I hope).
-«And this would concern me how?», I ask.
-«Chris, I know Nick made some really good impression on you,» he says.
- «I can't deny he's handsome but you know I can't get involve with anyone.»
He turns around and he seems a bit angry.
-«You can't stay alone for the rest of your life, you're young and you know that Ra..».
I cut him off.
-«Stop it you know my reasons, there's plenty of people who choose not to be in a relationship. Plus, my children need me more than ever after what happened…»
I can't finish my sentence, emotions get the best of me even if I try to control them.
Bobby looks at me with a sad look and takes me into his strong arms. Suddenly, I feel a single tear going down my cheek. God I wish things were different…Bobby holds me tight and tells me everything is going to be fine. I want to believe him but I had my heart broke so often by those close to me that I am not sure if I can trust it. I don't want to wind up broken like when Danny left me…It still hurts so much…As my friend confort me, some images of this handsome Nick pops into my head…What am I going to do now?