A/N: I know, a weird pairing so don't read if you don't want lol. But I just love these two. So, in this Charlotte is adopted so not related to the Dilaurentis's at all. She's about 20 here and living in an apartment in Philly where Jessica visits her secretly every now and then because nobody else knows about her (she still went to Radley and stuff). Multi-chapter so it's all going to unravel. Let me know what you think!
Chapter 1.
"Did you have another nightmare?" Jessica murmured, drawing her teenage daughter close.
Charlotte nodded into her mom's shoulder, "Yes," she whispered.
"Shh," Jessica ran a hand through blonde hair, "It's alright."
Charlotte bit her lip as she took in the comforting smell of her mom and nuzzled into her chest.
"Was it the same one?"
Charlotte nodded, "Yes," she whispered, "There's so much blood… mom, it doesn't feel like a dream… it feels like… a memory."
Jessica closed her eyes, "Honey, it's just a bad dream."
Charlotte remained silent for a while before speaking, "What if it is a memory, mom? What if it's… something that happened before you took me in."
Jessica felt her body tense.
"Sorry," Charlotte mumbled.
"Don't be sorry, Charlie," Jessica sighed, "I know you've been thinking about your… parents."
Charlotte drew back and shook her head vigorously, "You're my parent, mom. I know that. Blood doesn't make you family. Like dad," her tone darkened, "He's not my family, mom. You are."
Jessica smiled at her daughter, "Wise words."
Charlotte returned the smile before nibbling on her lip, "Mom, can I sleep in here tonight?"
"Of course you can," Jessica placed a hand on Charlotte's cheek, kissing her forehead, "Always."
"Always," Charlotte repeated quietly, "Even when I'm older and meant to be all mature…" her face screwed up in thought, "I guess I'm already pretty old…"
Jessica chuckled, "You'll never be too old to be my little girl."
Charlotte smiled happily and nuzzled back into her mom's chest.
Jessica balanced her groceries as she unlocked the door and let herself in. Charlotte rushed up to her and took some of the bags.
"Thank you," Jessica smiled.
"I missed you," Charlotte tried not to pout as she placed the bags in the kitchen.
Jessica sighed, "I know, I missed you too sweetheart."
Charlotte wrapped her arms around her mom, "I love you."
Jessica hugged her tightly, "I love you too, baby," she touched her daughters face, "Have you been okay?"
Charlotte nodded, "I'm okay. I just wish…" she shrugged, "I just miss you. I get bored here all by myself all the time."
"I know, honey," Jessica looked at her daughter, "But I'm here now."
Charlotte smiled a little, "Yeah," she said softly, "You are."
Jessica ran a thumb over Charlotte's cheek before kissing it.
"You know, I always miss you," Jessica spoke gently, "I never stop thinking about you. Please remember that when you're feeling alone."
Charlotte nodded, "Okay."
"Come on," Jessica walked into the lounge room, "Why don't you pick a game to beat me at?"
Charlotte laughed, "Okay!" she nodded, "Maybe I'll go easy on you."
Jessica rolled her eyes.
Charlotte crossed off another day on her calendar. She sighed; still another week before her mom would be back. She lay on her back and close her eyes. It didn't last long before she was up again. She paced the whole house from room to room. Trying to find something to do but there was nothing. There was always nothing.
Until her mom would visit.
So she sat down and started flicking through the tv channels absently. She tried to switch her brain off. Her eyes were fixed on the screen but she wasn't really seeing it. Eventually, she managed to fall asleep on the couch. Another lonely night.
Jessica was glad when she separated from Kenneth. It meant she could stop living a lie, in a way. The first thing she did when he left her was go and visit her daughter. It seemed clear to her suddenly, that she'd been wasting time with Kenneth. Charlotte was her number one. Always had been. She'd tried to connect with Alison. Even with Jason. But somehow, it just wasn't quite the same. It had never been the same.
"Mom!"
Jessica couldn't help loving the way her daughters' eyes lit up when she came through the door. She took her daughter into her arms.
"I have news," Jessica sat down on the couch, Charlotte beside her, "Your father left me."
Charlotte bit her teeth into her bottom lip, wide eyed, "Are you… okay?" she asked cautiously.
Jessica smiled, taking her daughters' hands in her own, "I'm thrilled," she half-whispered.
Charlotte's face broke into a grin, "Oh, good! I am too then! He's never been good enough for you, mom."
"He's never been good enough for either of us," Jessica said, "And now I get to spend more time with my favourite girl."
Charlotte grinned, "I'm just glad you're happy."
"Are you happy, honey?" Jessica squeezed her hands, "All I want is for you to be happy."
Charlotte nodded, "I'm happy, mom," she said quietly, "I'm always happy when you're around, you know that."
"Oh, honey," Jessica ran a hand through Charlotte's hair, "I am always happier around you too. I love you so much, I always have. You're my precious girl."
Charlotte smiled and watched her mom's eyes, enjoying the feel of her mom's hand in her hair. She could smell her mom's perfume. It was nice. She always smelt so nice. Intoxicating. Her smile was so radiant, her lips looked so soft.
They felt soft too when Charlotte leant forward and pressed her mouth to her them. Jessica blinked slowly, surprised. Charlotte flinched, realising what she was doing and pulling away, eyes downcast. Silence hung between the two for a moment.
"I'm sorry," Charlotte mumbled, "It's just I feel so close to you and we're not biologically related and you smell so nice and I love you so much – "
"Shh," Jessica's reached a hand to Charlotte's cheek, silencing the younger woman.
She leant in and pressed her lips softly to Charlotte's. Charlotte kissed back but was hesitant until Jessica pushed harder, her hand on Charlotte's jaw. Jessica smiled when Charlotte bit her lip gently with a quiet moan. Jessica pushed her tongue into Charlotte's mouth, eliciting yet another moan. Charlotte's hands pulled at the hem of her mom's blouse.
The two broke apart as they ran out of breath. Jessica could see the conflicting fear and lust in Charlotte's eyes. She smiled at her, playing with her hair reassuringly. She kissed her lips again gently.
"Mom," Charlotte said quietly, her eyes wide.
Jessica stroked her daughters cheek, "It's okay," she whispered.
Charlotte couldn't help it, she lurched forward, attaching her lips to Jessica's fiercely. Jessica responded just as enthusiastically, pushing Charlotte onto her back and crawling on top of her. She traced her lips over Charlotte's jaw and down her neck. She sucked on her daughters' neck, one hand running down her body.
"Are you okay?" she murmured, pausing momentarily.
Charlotte nodded, "Yes," she whispered, a little shakily.
"Are you sure?" Jessica watched Charlotte closely.
Charlotte nodded again, "I'm sure," she whispered, "I love you."
"I love you too, sweetheart," Jessica whispered back.
Charlotte pulled at Jessica's blouse again. Jessica smiled through the kisses she was peppering on Charlotte's neck.
"Mm," Charlotte moaned, her eyes fluttering, "Mom."
Jessica bit into Charlotte's skin gently. She knew she shouldn't like the sound of her daughters' moans but she couldn't help it. It only spurned her on. She began lifting Charlotte's shirt before pulling back and looking the younger woman in the eyes. Charlotte simply nodded. Jessica continued to lift Charlotte's shirt over her head.
Charlotte bit her lip. Her fingers nervously played with the hem of Jessica's blouse. Jessica chuckled and removed her own blouse. Charlotte grinned, her fingers tickling her mom's waist.
"You're so beautiful," Charlotte whispered.
Jessica smiled, "No, sweetheart, you are," she touched Charlotte's face.
Charlotte turned her cheek into the touch. Then suddenly, she flipped Jessica onto her back, switching their positions. Jessica laughed in surprise at the sudden move. Charlotte giggled. She pressed her lips to Jessica's. Then she kissed her neck, hesitantly at first. She moved her lips over Jessica's collar bone, slowly becoming more confident. She heard a sharp intake of breath above her as she moved to the older woman's breast, pulling her bra strap down.
She only became more confident when she felt her mom's hand in her hair. She grasped her nipple between her teeth before sucking it gently. Then harder. Jessica's fingers massaged Charlotte's scalp through her hair. Charlotte traced her lips down Jessica's stomach and back up again. She began sucking on her mom's neck again.
Jessica rolled over, switching their positions again. She smiled, pushing a strand of hair behind her daughters' ear. She lent her lips close to Charlotte's ear.
"Promise me you'll tell me to stop if you want," she whispered.
Charlotte shivered as Jessica's hands trailed down her stomach, "I promise," she breathed.
Jessica still looked hesitant.
Charlotte could see the conflict in her mom's eyes, "Please, mom. I want this," she paused, "Do you?"
Jessica smiled, "I do," she whispered, "I just want you to be sure."
Charlotte leant up and kissed Jessica's lips, "I'm sure," she said firmly.
Jessica kissed back fiercely, unable to contain her lust any longer. Her hand pushed through her daughters blonde hair to rest behind her ear, pulling her as close possible. Her tongue tangled with Charlotte's and she moaned breathily. She ran a hand over her daughters' bare stomach before it rested on the crotch of her jeans. Charlotte took a deep and shaky breath before licking her lips. She kissed her mom's cheek, before biting her own lip. Jessica smiled at her innocence and kissed her lips quickly.
Her hands unbuttoned Charlotte's jeans slowly, giving her plenty of time to pull away if she so wanted. Charlotte shifted her legs.
Jessica looked at her, "Do you want me to stop?" she whispered.
Charlotte shook her head, "No, no," she said quickly, "It's just… you make me feel… you know," she mumbled.
Jessica smiled at the red tint on the younger woman's cheeks, "You make me feel like that too," she whispered.
Charlotte grinned, "Really?"
Jessica squinted at her, "You don't believe me?" she asked, taking Charlotte's hand in between her own and rest it over her heart, "Feel that?"
Charlotte nodded, "It's fast," she said quietly.
"Yes," Jessica agreed, "Because that's how you make me feel," she moved Charlotte's hand and put it inside her underwear, "Feel that?"
Charlotte's mouth went dry, "Uh-huh," she nodded, feeling Jessica's dampness, "But I don't know…how to… what to…"
Jessica pulled Charlotte's hand away from her and rest her hand on Charlotte's cheek, "It's okay, you don't have to."
"But you could…" Charlotte bit her lip sheepishly.
Jessica chuckled, "I could," her hand traced teasingly over Charlotte's underwear.
Charlotte swallowed tightly, "Please, mommy."
Jessica kissed her, "Okay," she whispered, "Tell me if – "
"I know," Charlotte whined.
Jessica smirked, "So impatient," she murmured.
She pushed a hand into Charlotte's underwear, taking a sharp breath as she felt how wet the other woman was. She felt Charlotte shaking beneath her.
"Hey, it's okay," Jessica kissed her cheek, "Are you nervous?"
Charlotte nodded, "Yes," she admitted quietly, "I want to though," she rushed, "I'm just…nervous."
"I'll take care of you," Jessica promised.
Charlotte smiled, "You always do."
Jessica pressed her lips to Charlotte's, moving her fingers gently through the younger woman's folds. As Charlotte began to relax and respond more freely to the touch, Jessica moved her fingers faster. She flicked Charlotte's clit experimentally. Charlotte gasped and squeezed her mom's hips, nuzzling into her chest. Jessica ran one hand through Charlotte's hair. She rubbed on Charlotte's clit a little longer before she tickled her entrance faintly.
"Mom," Charlotte groaned, her hips bucking slightly.
Jessica kissed the top of her head, "Tell me something, Charlie," she murmured, "Do you ever do this to yourself?"
Charlotte struggled to contain her breathing and nodded against Jessica's chest.
Jessica smirked, "Does it feel good?" she whispered.
Charlotte nodded again.
"What do you think about when you touch yourself?" Jessica asked curiously.
Charlotte groaned, "Mommm," she whined.
Jessica chuckled, "Have you ever thought about… me?" she wondered.
Charlotte bit her lip, hesitating before she nodded, "Yes," she answered meekly.
"Oh, sweetheart," Jessica placed a hand under her daughters chin and tilted it upwards, "I'll tell you a secret. I've thought about you too."
Charlotte's eyes shone, "Really?" she moved her legs unconsciously.
Jessica noticed the movement with a smile, "Yes," she whispered and easily thrust two fingers into Charlotte.
Charlotte moaned, clutching tightly at Jessica's waist, her nails digging into soft skin. Jessica pumped her fingers slowly, her thumb teasing her clit. She sped up her movements as she felt Charlotte's body begin to shudder. Charlotte walls began to clench around her fingers tightly and she flicked her clit and increased her fingers speed again. Charlotte moaned long into the older woman's shoulder, her nails cutting into skin as she rode out her orgasm. Her body shook for a while as she lay on her back and watch Jessica lick her fingers clean.
Jessica lay beside her, kissing her gently.
"Are you okay, darling?" she mumbled into her ear.
Charlotte nodded, turning to her, "Fantastic," she whispered shyly, "I love you."
Jessica touched her cheek, "I love you too, beautiful," she kissed her forehead.
"Mm, that felt… amazing," Charlotte's eyes fluttered.
Jessica chuckled, still stroking her daughters' cheek, "I'm glad," she murmured, "You're so precious to me."
Charlotte smiled lazily, "I'm sleepy, mommy."
Jessica drew her close, "I know, close your eyes," she kissed her head again, "Go to sleep, angel."
"Okay," Charlotte let her eyes close and fell asleep in her mother's embrace.
Charlotte awoke with a start, her eyes snapped open and her body jerking slightly. She blinked quickly, but calmed down when she realised she was still in her mom's arms.
"Charlie?"
Charlotte bit her lip, looking up at her mom, "Sorry, did I wake you up?"
"No, I was awake," Jessica murmured, "You okay, sweetheart? You're jumpy."
Charlotte nodded, "I'm okay, I must have been dreaming or something," she smiled, beginning to ramble, "You know when you wake up like you were falling or something and your body jerks and you open your eyes and feel like you're still falling because you must have been dreaming… that you were falling or something – "
Jessica chuckled, "Shh," she hushed, "I know what you mean. You're doing that rambling thing again."
"Sorry," Charlotte mumbled, blushing.
"Sweetheart, are you okay… with what happened last night?" Jessica watched her daughter closely, "It's okay, you can be honest with me."
"Um," Charlotte nibbled on her lip, "I liked it," she said quietly, "I really, really love you, mom. And I know I'm not meant to love you… like… that… " her brow furrowed in thought, "But I can't help it. You're really pretty," she began rambling again, "I know I'm not meant to think of you like that but then I think it's not so bad because we're not genetically related but you're still mom and I don't know, it's still – "
"Deep breath," Jessica placed a hand on each of Charlotte's cheeks, "It's alright."
Charlotte nodded, inhaling deeply, "Okay," she hesitated, "Um, what about you?" her voice cracked a little, "Do you… regret it?"
Jessica's expression softened, "No, honey, I don't. I just don't ever want to do anything that you don't want to do."
"But I do want to do!" Charlotte blurted before sucking her bottom lip into her mouth as she blushed.
Jessica couldn't help smiling, "I just don't want… to take advantage of you," she whispered, "You are my daughter, you know we've always said family is more than just blood," she sighed, "But the connection I've felt with you has always been different than with the others… and not because I think any less of you… You know how much I love you," she paused, "You do know how much I love you, don't you?"
Charlotte smiled, "I know, mom. You always make me feel so special. I don't think you're taking advantage exactly… though I don't think I'd mind if you did," she giggled, "But really… maybe it's because I didn't get to see you so much… when I was in Radley… so maybe my brain forgot you were supposed to be my mom or something so it thought it was okay to be attracted to you," she frowned, "I don't really know, mom," she sighed, "Maybe I just have mommy issues."
Jessica looked away, gathering her thoughts, before looking back at her daughter, "I'm sorry I wasn't around as much as I should have been," her face fell, "I'm sorry you're still hidden here like…a secret. You're not…I'm not ashamed of you – "
"I know, mom," Charlotte took her hand and squeezed it, "It's complicated. It doesn't matter, you got me out and I'm glad. I don't need anyone else."
Jessica smiled sadly, "I am so blessed to have you in my life," she half whispered, stroking her daughters' cheek absently.
Charlotte nibbled on her lip, "Mom, can I ask you something?"
Jessica nodded, "You can ask me anything, Charlie."
"Um, do you think I'm… do you… are you attracted to… me?" Charlotte asked, eyes downcast.
Jessica laughed, "Silly girl, what do you think we've been talking about?" she watched her daughters' fiddling hands, "Honey," she lay a hand on Charlotte's, "I wouldn't have done what we did last night if I wasn't attracted to you. I think you're beautiful," she ran a hand through Charlotte's hair, "I showed you how you made me feel last night, didn't I?"
Charlotte nodded, "Yeah…" a smile came over her lips, "Oh yeah."
Jessica rolled her eyes, "Oh yeah," she mocked.
Charlotte grinned sheepishly, "Um, can I… "
She leant forward and pressed her lips to Jessica's. She wrapped her hands around the back of Jessica's neck. Jessica kissed her back passionately, her hands on Charlotte's waist, pulling her flush against her own body before the two broke apart.
"Yes," Jessica whispered, "You can."
Charlotte giggled.
"My sweet girl," Jessica murmured before kissing her lips quickly, "I love you."
"I love you too," Charlotte whispered, "But you're going to leave again, aren't you?" she tried not to pout.
"I have a few days," Jessica said, "Kenneth wanted a few days with the kids so they've gone up to see him."
Charlotte nodded, "Cool. Mom, how's Ali?"
Jessica smiled, "You asked me last night, honey. She's doing really well."
"Good," Charlotte smiled, "I'm glad. Does she get good grades? Does she have a boyfriend yet? What about Emily?"
"She takes after you, she's very smart. And I don't think she has a boyfriend but she probably wouldn't tell me if she did," Jessica pointed out, "And her and Emily are still attached at the hip – "
"Do you still think Emily likes her? Has she told her? Does Alison know?" Charlotte fired question after question.
"I think she does… and I'm not sure if they've spoken about it but you know Ali, she has a way of knowing things," Jessica placed a hand on Charlotte's cheek, "You know, Cece hasn't been around for a while."
Charlotte sighed, "I know, mom. I want to, I just get… tired of pretending. It's exhausting. But I miss her."
"I know, honey," Jessica stroked a thumb under Charlotte's eyes, "I really do want… I just… I know how much you care about your little sister. If you want to visit her…"
"As Cece," Charlotte nodded, "I know."
Jessica bit her lip, watching her daughters' saddened expression, "I'm sorry," she spoke quietly, "Do I still get a kiss?"
Charlotte smiled, "Always," she whispered before kissing Jessica's lips, "Mm, you taste…"
"Morning breath," Jessica pulled away.
"No," Charlotte laughed, "You taste yummy. I like it."
Jessica chuckled, "Now, why don't we get up and get something to eat?" she pushed the covers off.
Charlotte pulled her back down and crawled on top of her, "Or we could stay here a little longer."
Jessica grinned, "Whatever are you implying, sweetheart?"
"Um, I'll show you," Charlotte pressed her lips to Jessica's neck.