I Can Lie, and I Can Cry

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Mona (P.O.V)

I hurt Hanna, which is the last thing I have ever wanted to do.

I'll admit, I am not completely sane, but I have help with that now.

The reason I became "A" in the first place was because I thought those bitches- I mean girls- stole Hanna from me. I didn't realize that me terrorizing her friends would result in me pushing her away myself.

I lost her. I wish that I didn't hurt Hanna. I wish things didn't get as serious as they have gotten. But most of all, I wish I regret becoming "A".

It isn't like I enjoy being hated, but at least I won't be pushed around anymore. I am over Ali's bullying and I mean it, but it isn't like I would want a repeat of that.

I didn't want to hit Hanna with my car, but I didn't want her to find out that I was "A", either. That is why I visited her in the hospital and became her friend again.

When I was first found out as "A", because of Spencer, I was scared of what Hanna would think of me, and I was relieved that I wouldn't have to sneak behind her back anymore.

I recruited Toby for the A-team with good reasons and bad reasons. For one reason, I knew he is in love with Spencer so I knew he would try to protect her. On the other hand, we could set him up so Spencer would find out and that would destroy her, as well as him.

Being "A" had stopped being fun. I ended up having to take orders, which I don't do well with. I left the so called "team" when red coat started targeting me as well.

I have teamed up with the girls, but they still don't trust me. I can see in their eyes, even Hanna's, who has tried her best to stick by me after all I've done to her.

I really am Hanna's friend, and whatever I do is because I love her like a sister, but how I show says otherwise. Now, she has Caleb, who refuses to leave her alone with me.

He never liked me in the first place, but now he treats me as if I am still "A", not that I blame him. I wouldn't trust me either, in fact, I don't.

When Hanna called me to help her confess to the cops about Wilden's murder in order to get her mother freed. I never wanted big "A" to go after Hanna's mother, and I told Hanna that.

I continue to think about this as I walk inside of the police station and to the front desk.

"I would like to talk to a detective, about a murder." I tell the first cop I see at the desk. I knew Caleb wouldn't let her go. I didn't even want her to confess. So, when I went over, she thought we were rehearsing what she was going to say, but in reality, I was deciding how I would.

"Follow me, please." He says.

I am led to an interrogation room where a couple investigators are.

I sit down and once I do, I see Hanna, Spencer, Aria, Emily, Caleb, and Jake are staring at me with shock while give them a smirk as the shades drop.

Hopefully they will trust me a little more, for I have paid my debts.

A/N: I was thinking about what to write in the sequel for "Apologies & Forgiveness" when this story just popped into my mind. I just realized that I do like Mona. She is a really mysterious and interesting character. I just don't trust her. But then again, I don't trust anyone on that show, not even the four main girls. As much as I love Spoby, I don't trust Toby. There is just too much evidence that he joined the A-team before they said he did. (But I still love Toby)

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