Warnings: Angst. And lots of it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. In fact, Gravitation is one of the few animes I wouldn't care about owning, because they already do everything I like in the show. =^_^= Or the manga.
Sense
Pt. 1: Hear
There is the sound of an argument coming from upstairs. I frown and pause in my knitting to listen. It isn't often that something interesting ever occurs, and when it does, I could surely take some time away from my monotonous life to eavesdrop a bit.
"-say it!!"
A young voice, filled with anger and annoyance. It is a little high pitched, but obviously a boy. I can almost envision him- short, taller than me, but short in the terms of the world… hair cut so that it fell around his face… it would be dyed of course, as is the 'rage'- blue or green or pink. Wide innocent eyes, but accusing for the circumstances…
"I don't know why it's such a big deal!"
Ah! The second voice… softer and harsher at the same time. Although the volume clearly indicates he is yelling, his tone was that of one whispering death threats. Poison fills his words and I shuddered just hearing them. What kind of person… the immediate image that came to mind is a wizened crone that had lived his life in solitude, away from the prying eyes of society. But there is a seductive quality to it as well and pitch says that he can't be older than twenty-five…
"Well of course you wouldn't understand!"
"Why don't you enlighten me?"
The second voice still carries that frosty attitude, but the first is almost trembling. With a start, I realize I am hearing a lover's quarrel. I chuckle slightly. Kids these days.
"What's the point? It doesn't matter anyways!! I know you think I'll always come back no matter what you do, so you don't listen at all!" Yes, he's trembling. I can almost see tears clouding his eyes.
"But you do always come back."
A muffled sob.
The second voice, infinitely more gentle. "Don't- don't cry like that…"
There is a thump, as if one of the bodies has collapsed. I think I can guess which one.
Words come again and this time I have to strain to hear them.
"Yes," the first voice says bitterly. "No matter what you do, I'll never leave. No matter how badly you treat me, no matter what you say, I can't leave. Do you know why?! Because I love you!! I love you with all my heart and sometimes it hurts so bad that I wish I didn't. Sometimes I think about you and I just die because I know you'll never love me the same way- that despite all my efforts all I am to you is an annoyance and a distraction- a good one at times –but a distraction nonetheless. You even lie to me about how you feel, but you don't have to, you know that-"
"Stop." Commanding and fearful at the same time. Like a young child knowing he's about to stumple upon something big but helpless to prevent it.
"I love you more than life itself… I would die if you asked me to…"
"Stop!"
He is crying now and there is a sharp pang in my heart. "You fool," I whisper, knowing that no one can hear me. "You foolish boy… look what he has given you and look…"
"I can't do this now, Shuuichi. I'm sorry."
I hear a door open and close. The soft click of the lock seems to be the cue for 'Shuuichi' to let it all go and sob his heart out into floor.
I feel a strange ache in my chest. I pity the boy, I pity his cold lover who left him there, and I hate whatever the world gave to his lover to make him withdraw like that. My hands are shaking and I try to compose myself… silly really, to get all upset over two people I didn't even know.
Upstairs, I hear the sobs turn into whimpers, and then silence. I hear Shuuichi dialing on the phone and I hear him say in a shuddering voice,
"Hi-Hiro…? Can I come over for a while?"
I am sure his friend's answer is yes because he sniffles an 'OK.'
I sigh and wish him the best, then return to my knitting for the drama is over for now at least.
-Fin-
What do you think? I had a few extra parts planned, but if you don't mind it as a standalone, I'll leave it as such. Please review!! =^_^= I will love you forever.
-ryo0oki
"God I hate 56k modems…"