DIARY OF JACK SHEPARD
MAY 17th, 2005 10:05 PM
Still on the damned island. Jin is sick with fever. I don't know
what's wrong with him. Sun is sitting beside him, patting his forehead with
a damp cloth. He mumbles nonsense every few minutes in Korean. He is shaking
and I wish I could help, but there's really nothing I can do. He's just got
to sit it out and let it go away.
Claire's baby is healthy and so is she, but it never shuts up. Day
and night it cries. I know that's what babies do and it's no one's fault, but
it's something we'll all need to get used to. Also, if Charlie sings him "God
Save The Queen" one more time I just might explode.
The raft is coming along pretty well. I was somewhat relieved to
see that Kate decided to stay. Sometimes life on this island gets to be too
much and I'm ready to quit. But Kate is always right there with me, and
sometimes that's the only reason I didn't get on that raft.
It scares me to think that it's possible for me to fall in love with
someone I just met and barely know. Not to mention the fact that she has
killed a person in the past. Even if she did it for an almost good reason.
I want to know what she thinks of me. I might never know. I'm not
the type of person who would just go up and ask a girl if she liked me, and I'm
not the type to tell someone I love them either. When I married Sarah, she
was always the first to tell her she loved me.
Come to think of it, I don't think I ever told Sarah I loved her.
Not to her face, at least. In cards, or on the phone. But I didn't really love
her. Which probably explains why we aren't married anymore.
I wish I could tell Kate how I feel. I wonder if she still thinks
about Tom. I wonder what Tom's like.
Ending it here, because Jin is moaning in pain.