So this is my first Shizaya fic so hopefully it's not that bad? Nah it's gonna be bad. Review
I don't own Durarara.
Hoping One Day You'll Love Me
I'm supposed to hate you, right? I mean, that's how we're supposed to be. You hate me, I hate you, but I can't shake this feeling off my chest. I say all those things. I hate you, I'll kill you, I hope you die, but I never mean it. It was all just a lie. A lie so you wouldn't see I how actually felt.
It would only hurt me instead.
It's pretty funny. A god feeling such a human emotion. I mean, neither of us are humans. You're a monster, I'm a god. We aren't meant to feel human emotions. But I do.
And that pisses me off.
Im supposed to be in control, to know everything, to be able to predict everything. But I can't.
Not with you around.
I can't predict any of your moves, so I have to rely on instincts. I can't tell what your thinking, so I keep guessing. But I know one thing.
You don't feel the same.
And it hurts.
I feel human around you, around your inhuman strength, around your inhuman self. I feel helpless and I keep running like every other human would.
But I'm not supposed to feel human. I'm a god, a figure to be worshiped, a figure who knows all things. Everything.
Except you.
I love you, and I'm sorry I do. I'll never tell. It will be my own dirty little secret. No one will ever find out.
So I'll just keep watching and waiting. Hoping one day. One glorious day, that you will fell the same way I do.
Hoping one day, that you will love me as I love you.