Bffimagine: This has a meaning to me right now. I'm writing this ****
because I know he'll never love me back. It is written from Kai's POV
because in this story, Kai is basically me. He is referring to Rei when he
says 'you'. I'm referring ****. Basically, Kai in this story is me and Rei
is ****. Th only thing is that I'm not gay: I like a guy and I'm a girl.
One WARNING: THIS IS REALLY DEPRESSING! READ AT OWN RISK! CONTAINS SUICIDE!
By the way: **** represents a four-letter name, but I'm not saying which. I'm not blood-related to him so his is not a Yoh/Hao type of thing. I don't have a crush on my brother. I have one on SOMEBODY...
(Kai's POV)
Years pass by me, And I know there's something missing.
I cannot do more than look fondly back onto the past.
Friends slowly leave me, And I realize they were never really there in the first place.
I feel unloved, unwanted and more lonely than I ever thought humanly possible.
Family look down on me, And I feel neglected and shunned.
I go back into the shadows and allow the tears to fall.
Life moves on, And I stay in the darkness.
I am sure my mind is stronger than my will; my imagination stronger than my mind.
Hatred runs through me, And vengeance will not wash off my thoughts.
I refrain from the evil deeds I'm tempted to commit.
Strangers try to break me, And my pride remains bold and strong.
I follow my dignity even though my hands will not remain clean from blood.
People hurt me, And I do not give in to the pain.
I hurt inside more than the pain feels against my flesh.
My blood is pooling around me, And I smile in grim satisfaction.
I never found a reason to live; no one loves or ever loved me.
The sadness and happiness flow over me thicker than my blood, And I feel serene and for once, at peace with the world.
I did the world a favor by leaving it be, I am nothing but a memory now.
My vision blurs, And I hear the last words to ever fall onto my ears:
"I love you."
Death takes me away, And the tears fall as diamonds from my eyes.
I regret leaving you before I realized I wasn't alone.
Watching you cry, mourn and grieve from were I am, And I feel the sadness well up in me.
I'm sorry I never told you I loved you before it was too late.
Seeing you cry over my memory, And I start crying myself.
"I love you too, and always will."
By the way: **** represents a four-letter name, but I'm not saying which. I'm not blood-related to him so his is not a Yoh/Hao type of thing. I don't have a crush on my brother. I have one on SOMEBODY...
(Kai's POV)
Years pass by me, And I know there's something missing.
I cannot do more than look fondly back onto the past.
Friends slowly leave me, And I realize they were never really there in the first place.
I feel unloved, unwanted and more lonely than I ever thought humanly possible.
Family look down on me, And I feel neglected and shunned.
I go back into the shadows and allow the tears to fall.
Life moves on, And I stay in the darkness.
I am sure my mind is stronger than my will; my imagination stronger than my mind.
Hatred runs through me, And vengeance will not wash off my thoughts.
I refrain from the evil deeds I'm tempted to commit.
Strangers try to break me, And my pride remains bold and strong.
I follow my dignity even though my hands will not remain clean from blood.
People hurt me, And I do not give in to the pain.
I hurt inside more than the pain feels against my flesh.
My blood is pooling around me, And I smile in grim satisfaction.
I never found a reason to live; no one loves or ever loved me.
The sadness and happiness flow over me thicker than my blood, And I feel serene and for once, at peace with the world.
I did the world a favor by leaving it be, I am nothing but a memory now.
My vision blurs, And I hear the last words to ever fall onto my ears:
"I love you."
Death takes me away, And the tears fall as diamonds from my eyes.
I regret leaving you before I realized I wasn't alone.
Watching you cry, mourn and grieve from were I am, And I feel the sadness well up in me.
I'm sorry I never told you I loved you before it was too late.
Seeing you cry over my memory, And I start crying myself.
"I love you too, and always will."