((Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans. The lyrics belong to Evanescence.))
I can't see your star…
I can't see your star…
She sat on the roof of the Tower, silently, appearing to meditate. But there were thoughts other than her mantra going through her head. Violet eyes opened and she lifted herself gracefully, effortlessly, to her feet. Her purple hood was thrown up over her head, as it normally was when there was a chance of showing weakness. Behind the violet eyes, different sides bickered over the situation.
I've been patiently waiting bedside for the death of today
I can't see your star
The mechanical lights of Lisbon frightened it away
"We've been waiting for two weeks, and we haven't heard anything from him!"
"Maybe he doesn't love us anymore…"
"Maybe he never loved you in the first place!"
"Oh…"
"Stop it, Green! You're making poor Grey cry!"
"Of course he still loves us!"
"Perhaps he simply hasn't been able to contact us. Things happen, after all. Perhaps he just got caught up in his work. I'm not too worried."
Raven decided to go with the more intelligent and logical side of her psyche. But still, she stood on the edge of the roof, staring out into nothingness, wondering…
And I'm alone now
Me and all I stood for
We're wandering now
All in parts and pieces, we're lonely
Find your own way out
She couldn't help but wonder where on earth he'd been for the past two weeks. It was usual for them to go without contact for as much as a week at a time, due to the rather shady nature of his work, but he usually didn't let it go for more than that without at least letting her know where he was, or telling her that he would be gone for the next however-long-a-period-of-time.
But there she was, alone on her rooftop, waiting for a sign that he was thinking about her. Not necessarily a visual sign: she had taught him how to project a bit of his aura to her, just a little "warm fuzzy" to let her know he was thinking about her. But she hadn't felt one of those since they last parted.
I can't see your star…
I can't see your star…
How can the darkness feel so wrong?
Raven shuddered in the night air. She pulled her cloak tighter around her thin body, wishing silently for warmth that could only be gained from another living body next to hers. She closed her eyes again and called up from the depths of her memory the recollection of his embrace, the warmth that he gave her and the comfort of his touch. Somehow he made the darkness more comfortable, even for her.
And I'm alone now
Me and all I stood for
We're wandering now
All in parts and pieces, we're lonely
Find your own way out
And she allowed her soul-self to soar over the Bay. She listened to the waves as they gently crashed against the shore, against the concrete supports of the boardwalk. She listened to the sounds of the city that the Titans constantly fought for. She saw the streets, the lights, the people. She searched everywhere, but she couldn't find him.
So far away
It's growing colder without your love
Why can't you feel me calling your name?
Can't break the silence: it's breaking me
Returning to her body on the rooftop, Raven folded her legs into a lotus position once more and meditated. Behind the violet eyes beneath the closed eyelids, another voice, the one who hadn't yet spoken, began to murmur.
All my fears turn to rage…
"What if he left you? For someone else, perhaps, someone less dangerous. No one could be more sensible than you, or prettier than you in your way. So wouldn't it be a shame if your precious had chosen someone less than you…"
Raven's meditative state of mind disappears, distracted by the possibilities brought up by Red, the irrationally angry side of her psyche. Four red glowing eyes superimpose themselves over her pretty violet ones, threatening an explosion for a split second before Raven regains control of herself.
And I'm alone now
Me and all I stood for
We're wandering now
All in parts and pieces, we're lonely
Find your own way out now
She takes a moment to lock away Rage again, to ensure that such an incident will not happen again and if it does that it will not further itself, and then unfolds from her lotus position to stand again. She casts her gaze once more out over the Bay, and then turns with a simple swish of her cloak and reenters the Tower, returning to her room.
Nothing worth fighting for
We're wandering now
All in parts and pieces, we're lonely
Find your own way out
And Raven doesn't see the shadow darting across the roof after her as she closes the door behind her.