Diclaimer: I own nothing from Twilight, it is, unfortunately, all Stephenie Meyers

"I'm leaving, Bella"

My world came crashing down from those 3 words. All the happiness I have had this past year was erased. It just vanished, the days out, all the 'I love you's', all the promises. I tried to compose myself so that I could get out a full sentance without completely breaking down. By now the tears were streaming steadily down my face.

"You can't leave Edward! What about us? Your promised me you wouldn't leave! You promised!" I screamed out the last words as my knees buckled underneath me and I fell to the forest floor.

"Technically I only promised to stay with you as long as you're not in danger." Edward sneered at me. " And, you are in danger. From my own family. Don't you see we can never work out after this?" he asked.

"There is a way to stop me from being in danger though," I pleaded, "you can change me! we can be happy, Edward.... Just don't leave!"

"I'm sorry Bella...but there's something I need to tell you... I have been lying through my teeth during this conversation. I'm not leaving because it's dangerous... I'm leaving because I don't love you anymore. I wasn't going to tell you, but because you don't seem to want to let me go I had to tell you."

I looked up slowly into his eyes, they were emotionless. Blank. These eyes were not the eyes of my Edward.

"You... don't... love me?" I choked out, not understanding the words.

"I'm so sorry Bella, I never meant to hurt you... The truth is I never loved you. I wanted you around for your blood, it smells so sweet and I needed to be able to resist other humans blood that was like yours without problems. Please believe me when I say I never meant to hurt you. I have taken all the things that you may remember me by, so when I leave it will be as if I never existed."

My heart broke more with every word. I felt like I was being stabbed by every word. Not just stabbed but stabbed slowly, and it felt as if the knife was being twisted around slowly every time. How could he believe I would forget him like that? After all we had be thought he could just walk away and that I would forget this? He is wrong. My anger started to flare up out of me and I couldn't control it. Suddenly I stood up and started screaming at him.

"You think you can just do this? Just... leave me and I'll forget you? You know what? Just go... I don't like liars, just.. get out of my sight!"

He was obviously shocked by my outburst but by now I couldn't care less. It still felt like my heart was broken, but for once I was standing up for myself. I was sure I couldn't keep this up for long though, I would eventually revert back to the broken mess that I was when he told me he was leaving. Leaving without me.

"Bella I am sorry, I'll leave now... I thought it would be best if I told you rather than continue with this lie. My family are leaving with me. I say goodbye for them aswell. In a way I will always love you, but not the way you want. You were only a blood desensitiser for me and I thought I loved you, but I was naeve. Without me or my family, you can finally lead a normal life. Have kids, grandkids and a family that you won't have to give up. You can have a home. Goodbye, Bella"

With those final words, he lightly kissed my forehead and run off into the woods, leaving me alone to gather my thoughts. I could feel that the heartbroken Bella was making her way back, and I wanted to get home and isolate myself before that happened. There was no need to worry anyone over my emotional state because of this. I can atleast try and be normal for everyone. Not that theres anyone left. Everyone leaves me. The Cullen's didn't even say goodbye! I thought they were my family.. I must have thought wrong. What kind of family leaves you without a goodbye?

With that revelation over, I slowly made my way back to Charlies before he got back home. Even like this I wouldn't want him to worry. He's not the best with emotions. I only noticed as I was walking that night had started to creep up on me, and the trail was dark with only a small amount of light from the moon seeping through the trees. Who knows how I'm meant to get back without tripping and making myself look worse than I already was from a mixture of crying and begging on the forest floor.

I must have had a streak of luck, because I only tripped over 3 times on the way back. Then again, the house was quite quick to get back to. Edward *flinch* didn't take me that far into the woods. He still knew that I would most likely get lost if he did. He still knew what I was like, and maybe even still cared about what would happen to me? He did tell me that the woods were a dangerous place once. I could only hope that he did still care. With that msall flicker of hope I made my way into the house and up to my room, leaving a note to Charlie saying that I went straight to bed. Little did I know that with sleep, came horrible nightmares.

*Nightmare*

It started out like any normal dream. Topaz eyes burnings into mine, then the scene switched to show me sitting in the meadow with Edward. We were staring at eachother, not breaking eye contact. Then his smooth velvet voice rung through the meadow.

"I love you Bella, you are my everything. I'll never leave you. For the rest of my existance."

Dream Bella smiled at Edward and reached out to grab his hand. But then he started to fade away from sight, into the darkness of the trees. Dream me just stared at him until he was gone, smiling with small tears creeping down her smooth cheeks.

Suddenly, the scene changes. One person is left standing in a dark meadow, no stars are out, only a dark moon. Small, it is only a new moon, not large enough to give much light. The person is looking around franticly, calling out to the dark trees.

"Edward? Edward! Come back! You promised you wouldn't leave me! Come back! Where did you go?"

This dream Bella looks different to the other. She has tears pouring down her face and her dress is torn and dirty from being on the ground. Her hair is windblown and messy and her eyes are not as bright. She is still calling out to the darkness when someone speaks out from the darkness.

"I don't love you anymore Bella. I never loved you, you were just entertainment. My family hates you, they only played along for the fun of it. Anyway, who are you, a puny human, to think you can be loved by beautiful, intelligent vampires?"

His beautiful voice rang out around the meadow, but it was different. There was no emotion to the voice. Dream Bella started screaming after him until the dream slowly started to fade into blackness.

*End nightmare*

I woke up screaming, with my pyjamas sticking to my body and my sheets tangled around me. I sat up in bed, trying to clear my mind of the horrible dream. I looked over at the window, still open, letting cold air into my bedroom. It was then that I decided to totally shut Edward *flinch* out of this life. I walked out of my bedroom to the hallway cupboard quietly, trying not to wake up Charlie as I got a hammer and some nails out of the toolbox. It was quite early in the morning, 4am to be exact, so I had to be really quiet while I was working. I started out by closing my window, the window that he always used to come in by, then I nailed it securely shut. Not that it would stop a vampire from getting in if it really wanted to, but it proved my point. I wasn't over my heartbreak. Infact, I doubt I would ever be, he was my life and he left. Just thinking about it made me tear up, but this helped a bit. Lets just see how the next few weeks go.

A/N: I should hopefully be updating quite a bit until I get back to school... which is like somethimes near the beginning of Spetember so expect quite a few chapters ^^