She laughed and watched her and I smiled. It was 5:00 and I was supposed to
be at RFR. The gang was probably in shock that I wasn't there but I didn't
care. I leaned over. She noticed what I was about to do and her smile left
her face.
"Robbie.. no"
Please just don't play with me,
My paper heart will bleed.
This wait for destiny won't do,
Be with me please I beseech you.
Simple things, that make you run a-way.
Catch you if I can.
It is now 6:30. we are still in her studio. I still cannot believe I am here. We have been talking since school ended. Our conversation had gotten deeper. She tells me about her father, the expectations, how she wants to be normal. A tear falls and I touch it with my thumb.
Tears fall, down your face.
The taste, is something new (something new).
I know moving on is,
easiest when I am around you.
She looks at me. Smiles. I see in her eyes that she wants to be with me. Her pupils get big and her cheeks get red. She looks away embarrassed. I ask her what. she looks back at me. Tells me she is scared. She cant get hurt, not by another boy. Not someone she cares about.
So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry.
A year has past,
The seasons go.
I get up to leave. Its getting late, I realize this. She turns off the power. I offer to walk her home. She says she has her car. I nod offer to walk her to her car. She smiles and nods. We walk to her car and stop at the drivers side door. She pushes a button and I hear a beep. I open the door for her and she puts her stuff down. We are now standing face to face. The door between us. She nods and I kiss her. It is quick, easy. She gets in her car and closes the door.
Please just don't play with me,
my paper heart will bleed.
This wait for destiny won't do,
be with me please I beseech you.
Simple things, that make you run a-way.
Catch you if I can.
The next day is Saturday. I sit in Mickey's. Lily comes in. wants an explanation. I am sick of lying. I want to be with her and my friends would have to accept that. I tell her. Lily tells me it is a mistake. This girl is taking me away from things I want to do, things I want to be. Lily doesn't understand, I want to be with 'this girl.'
Waiting, day to day it goes through.
My lips, are sealed for her.
(My tongue is),
Tied to, a dream of being with [her].
To settle for less, is not what I prefer.
I walk out. I walk somewhere else. Into the electronic store. I see her. She is talking to a senior, from her class. They are discussing what would be best for the show. I go up to her. I want to kiss her cheek but decide not to. I lean on the counter and look at her. I say hello. She gives me a look, not a pleasant one. She does not want to be seen with me.
Please just don't play with me,
my paper heart will bleed.
This wait for destiny won't do,
be with me please I beseech you.
Simple things, that make you run a-way.
Catch you if I can.
Lily was right. I feel a hole open up in my chest. I feel vacant and excuse myself, saying sorry. I walk out of the store. I began to walk towards the warehouse and she comes out after me. She yells my name, I don't pay attention. I walk faster and I can feel that she has given up calling my name and walked back to the store. I slam open the door to the studio. Lily sits with her guitar. She looks at me, asks what's wrong. I feel water on my cheek. I touch it and realize I am crying.
Summer time, the nights are so long.
The leaves fall down,
so do I into the arms of a friend.
Winter nights, my bedside is cold,
for I am gone.
"Robbie.. no"
Please just don't play with me,
My paper heart will bleed.
This wait for destiny won't do,
Be with me please I beseech you.
Simple things, that make you run a-way.
Catch you if I can.
It is now 6:30. we are still in her studio. I still cannot believe I am here. We have been talking since school ended. Our conversation had gotten deeper. She tells me about her father, the expectations, how she wants to be normal. A tear falls and I touch it with my thumb.
Tears fall, down your face.
The taste, is something new (something new).
I know moving on is,
easiest when I am around you.
She looks at me. Smiles. I see in her eyes that she wants to be with me. Her pupils get big and her cheeks get red. She looks away embarrassed. I ask her what. she looks back at me. Tells me she is scared. She cant get hurt, not by another boy. Not someone she cares about.
So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry.
A year has past,
The seasons go.
I get up to leave. Its getting late, I realize this. She turns off the power. I offer to walk her home. She says she has her car. I nod offer to walk her to her car. She smiles and nods. We walk to her car and stop at the drivers side door. She pushes a button and I hear a beep. I open the door for her and she puts her stuff down. We are now standing face to face. The door between us. She nods and I kiss her. It is quick, easy. She gets in her car and closes the door.
Please just don't play with me,
my paper heart will bleed.
This wait for destiny won't do,
be with me please I beseech you.
Simple things, that make you run a-way.
Catch you if I can.
The next day is Saturday. I sit in Mickey's. Lily comes in. wants an explanation. I am sick of lying. I want to be with her and my friends would have to accept that. I tell her. Lily tells me it is a mistake. This girl is taking me away from things I want to do, things I want to be. Lily doesn't understand, I want to be with 'this girl.'
Waiting, day to day it goes through.
My lips, are sealed for her.
(My tongue is),
Tied to, a dream of being with [her].
To settle for less, is not what I prefer.
I walk out. I walk somewhere else. Into the electronic store. I see her. She is talking to a senior, from her class. They are discussing what would be best for the show. I go up to her. I want to kiss her cheek but decide not to. I lean on the counter and look at her. I say hello. She gives me a look, not a pleasant one. She does not want to be seen with me.
Please just don't play with me,
my paper heart will bleed.
This wait for destiny won't do,
be with me please I beseech you.
Simple things, that make you run a-way.
Catch you if I can.
Lily was right. I feel a hole open up in my chest. I feel vacant and excuse myself, saying sorry. I walk out of the store. I began to walk towards the warehouse and she comes out after me. She yells my name, I don't pay attention. I walk faster and I can feel that she has given up calling my name and walked back to the store. I slam open the door to the studio. Lily sits with her guitar. She looks at me, asks what's wrong. I feel water on my cheek. I touch it and realize I am crying.
Summer time, the nights are so long.
The leaves fall down,
so do I into the arms of a friend.
Winter nights, my bedside is cold,
for I am gone.